//feeling emo //
i wonder how people who are always at the top feel when getting their results
perhaps they find no kick in seeing their straight As results
for me, well, i was so terrified of seeing the results.
those in my jap class checked their results before going for the oral exam.
this leads me to think that i've shown no emotional maturity at all.
anyway, this sem I've done worse than last sem.
as expected.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Monday, June 02, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
//what happens in Vegas//
ok. a romance comedy.
actually it wasn't what I have in mind.
haha. but it was entertaining.
like all romance comedies go.
guy meets girl.
in this case well.
ashton kutcher meets cameron diaz in Las Vegas
and they hit the slot machine jackpot.
3 million USD
well it was actually after their discussion that both will not take their one-night fling seriously.
but for 3 million USD
they went to court.
and you know, the funny court scene where they are supposed to "try" to live a marital life, otherwise the prize money will remain frozen under the court's rule.
it was funny when they tried to piss each other out.
by doing idiotic things like taking out the bathroom door.
as you might have guess,
they finally end up together.
there are simply too much coincidences in the story.
oh well.
what happens in Vegas only will happen in Vegas, in reel-life.
Real-life is much too complicated.
ok. a romance comedy.
actually it wasn't what I have in mind.
haha. but it was entertaining.
like all romance comedies go.
guy meets girl.
in this case well.
ashton kutcher meets cameron diaz in Las Vegas
and they hit the slot machine jackpot.
3 million USD
well it was actually after their discussion that both will not take their one-night fling seriously.
but for 3 million USD
they went to court.
and you know, the funny court scene where they are supposed to "try" to live a marital life, otherwise the prize money will remain frozen under the court's rule.
it was funny when they tried to piss each other out.
by doing idiotic things like taking out the bathroom door.
as you might have guess,
they finally end up together.
there are simply too much coincidences in the story.
oh well.
what happens in Vegas only will happen in Vegas, in reel-life.
Real-life is much too complicated.
Saturday, May 03, 2008
// it's eat-eat-eat after the exams //
I have been eating so much after the exams.
woah.
so much so I wasn't even tempted by the filet-o-fish today.
I need to stop.
Anyway, I've been accompanying my parents shopping these few days.
Went to Carrefour.
Ate a bento and a plate of western food.
glutton!
Went to JB.
Ate an american-style set lunch.
sinful!
ok, I'm so guilty.
as you might have guessed,
currently,
I'm so bored that I am actually blogging about what I ate.
yes, I'm uber bored.
there's nothing good on TV.
there's nothing to do online.
to be specific, I have already finish watching yesterday's episode of "chao ji xing guang da dao" on youtube
(so left nothing much to do)
in case you are wondering, it's a singing competition in Taiwan.
anyway, yesterday's episode was especially nice =)
the judges were supposed to eliminate 1 contestant
but they saw the tremendous effort put in by every contestant to perfect their singing as well as dancing.
in the end, no one got eliminated.
so everyone got a chance to compete again.
that's nice because some of them really can dance but cannot sing well
whereas some have good vocals but lack the body language.
i daresay, this show is at least 10times better than Singapore's Project Superstar or Sg idol for that matter.
the judges are really professional.
they are always eager to pin-point the weaknesses of the contestants
with the hope for the contestant to become better.
whereas, in singapore, the judges are much much too conservative.
assuming the judges are also similarly qualified,
judges in singapore just do not really point out mistakes or give constructive suggestions.
sometimes i really wonder they are just there for the sake of having judges?
the host, tao zi, is also great.
she herself is a singer so she also gave some good recommendations to the contestants.
she thinks on her feet and reacts quickly.
in this area, sg really pales in comparison.
the hosts are always dishing out overused, cliche comments which we have probably heard for a thousand times.
great show!
it should be broadcasted in singapore also because there's 2 singaporeans left in the competition.
I have been eating so much after the exams.
woah.
so much so I wasn't even tempted by the filet-o-fish today.
I need to stop.
Anyway, I've been accompanying my parents shopping these few days.
Went to Carrefour.
Ate a bento and a plate of western food.
glutton!
Went to JB.
Ate an american-style set lunch.
sinful!
ok, I'm so guilty.
as you might have guessed,
currently,
I'm so bored that I am actually blogging about what I ate.
yes, I'm uber bored.
there's nothing good on TV.
there's nothing to do online.
to be specific, I have already finish watching yesterday's episode of "chao ji xing guang da dao" on youtube
(so left nothing much to do)
in case you are wondering, it's a singing competition in Taiwan.
anyway, yesterday's episode was especially nice =)
the judges were supposed to eliminate 1 contestant
but they saw the tremendous effort put in by every contestant to perfect their singing as well as dancing.
in the end, no one got eliminated.
so everyone got a chance to compete again.
that's nice because some of them really can dance but cannot sing well
whereas some have good vocals but lack the body language.
i daresay, this show is at least 10times better than Singapore's Project Superstar or Sg idol for that matter.
the judges are really professional.
they are always eager to pin-point the weaknesses of the contestants
with the hope for the contestant to become better.
whereas, in singapore, the judges are much much too conservative.
assuming the judges are also similarly qualified,
judges in singapore just do not really point out mistakes or give constructive suggestions.
sometimes i really wonder they are just there for the sake of having judges?
the host, tao zi, is also great.
she herself is a singer so she also gave some good recommendations to the contestants.
she thinks on her feet and reacts quickly.
in this area, sg really pales in comparison.
the hosts are always dishing out overused, cliche comments which we have probably heard for a thousand times.
great show!
it should be broadcasted in singapore also because there's 2 singaporeans left in the competition.
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Saturday, April 26, 2008
//10 people chasing after 1 ball - one guarding goalpost//
wahaha.
never knew soccer could be so exciting.
my dad asked me to help him check the results of EPL match.
Chelsea v Man-U.
2-1.
haha.
he's disappointed i guess.
that Man-U won't be able to claim their trophy as yet.
but i stumble upon these videos.
thought they were pretty cool =P
Ballack's goal no.1--- http://videos.sapo.pt/JEZHPFWrjy63BDnkRckN
Rooney's goal --- http://videos.sapo.pt/ZPeC3jgbFEitj8rJmhPo
Ballack's penalty goal --- http://videos.sapo.pt/Ae1bOiGSTzODR0Mvnzqs
wahaha.
never knew soccer could be so exciting.
my dad asked me to help him check the results of EPL match.
Chelsea v Man-U.
2-1.
haha.
he's disappointed i guess.
that Man-U won't be able to claim their trophy as yet.
but i stumble upon these videos.
thought they were pretty cool =P
Ballack's goal no.1--- http://videos.sapo.pt/JEZHPFWrjy63BDnkRckN
Rooney's goal --- http://videos.sapo.pt/ZPeC3jgbFEitj8rJmhPo
Ballack's penalty goal --- http://videos.sapo.pt/Ae1bOiGSTzODR0Mvnzqs
Friday, April 25, 2008
// so.......is that a confirm C grade? (or worse) //
omg.
should have S/Ued "Impact of Chem on Society"
9 marks out of 20!!
how could it be?
i did some research at least.
the last test when i did zero research,
i even managed to scrape a 12/20.
must have been by sheer luck.
so now i'm almost certain a big fat C or D will greet me.
when i read my final grade for this CBC.
gosh.
my worst mistake ever is not S/U-ing this module.
my core modules are dying and now even this elective is pushing me into the boiling, hot soup.
i am engulfed.
last two papers - Physics and CBC
will prove to be the most crucial and toughest of all.
because i've failed both CAs.
omg.
should have S/Ued "Impact of Chem on Society"
9 marks out of 20!!
how could it be?
i did some research at least.
the last test when i did zero research,
i even managed to scrape a 12/20.
must have been by sheer luck.
so now i'm almost certain a big fat C or D will greet me.
when i read my final grade for this CBC.
gosh.
my worst mistake ever is not S/U-ing this module.
my core modules are dying and now even this elective is pushing me into the boiling, hot soup.
i am engulfed.
last two papers - Physics and CBC
will prove to be the most crucial and toughest of all.
because i've failed both CAs.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
//trying to keep up the optimism//
Gauss's law states the net flux through any closed surface is ......
when everybody else in the world is revising,
it seems like i'm just starting to learn everything
i took one whole day to learn electric fields and Gauss' law.
counter-productive.
why didn't i understand the concept earlier?
what was i doing during the lectures and tutorials?
it's just the start.
i've counted.
18 physics chapters to go.
not forgetting chem and impact of chem.
3 more papers to the road of freedom.
by the way, i've enrolled for jap lvl 1 module in May.
after much, much consideration.
well, in case, i've got to re-take any of the modules (predict: maths/physics/computing)
next sem.
i won't have time to study an elective then.
it's hard to keep up the optimism when things aren't going your way.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
// PROCRASTINATION //
It is a type of behavior which is characterized by deferment of actions or tasks to a later time.
Psychologists often cite procrastination as a mechanism for coping with the anxiety associated with starting or completing any task or decision.For the person procrastinating this may result in stress, a sense of guilt, the loss of personal productivity, the creation of crisis and the disapproval of others for not fulfilling one's responsibilities or commitments. While it is normal for individuals to procrastinate to some degree, it becomes a problem when it impedes normal functioning.
Chronic procrastination may be a sign of an underlying psychological or physiological disorder.
The psychological causes of procrastination vary greatly, but generally surround issues of anxiety, low sense of self-worth, and a self-defeating mentality. Procrastinators are also thought to have a higher-than-normal level of conscientiousness, more based on the "dreams and wishes" of perfection or achievement in contrast to a realistic appreciation of their obligations and potential.Author David Allen brings up two major psychological causes of procrastination at work and in life which are related to anxiety, not laziness.[citation needed] The first category comprises things too small to worry about, tasks that are an annoying interruption in the flow of things, and for which there are low-impact workarounds; an example might be organizing a messy room. The second category comprises things too big to control, tasks that a person might fear, or for which the implications might have a great impact on a person's life; an example might be the adult children of a deteriorating elderly parent deciding what living arrangement would be best.A person might unconsciously overestimate or underestimate the scale of a task if procrastination has become a habit.
From the behavioral psychology point of view, James Mazur has said that procrastination is a particular case of "impulsiveness" as opposed to self control.
The relaxed type
The relaxed type of procrastinators view their responsibilities negatively and avoid them by directing energy into other tasks. It is common, for example, for relaxed type procrastinating children to abandon schoolwork but not their social lives. Students often see projects as a whole rather than breaking them into smaller parts. This type of procrastination is a form of denial or cover-up; therefore, typically no help is being sought. Furthermore, they are also unable to defer gratification. The procrastinator avoids situations that would cause displeasure, indulging instead in more enjoyable activities. In Freudian terms, such procrastinators refuse to renounce the pleasure principle, instead sacrificing the reality principle. They may not appear to be worried about work and deadlines, but this is simply an evasion.
The genius procrastinator
Genius procrastinator is a type of relaxed procrastinator intelligent person. Unlike the typical relaxed type procrastinator, who usually does not care about what they are delaying, geniuses do care but do not need to put a great deal of effort into that area to do well, and therefore can wait until the last minute, put in minimal effort, and still produce a good result. Genius procrastinators often work well under pressure; often, when they do not have a deadline set for a project, their work lags. Other genius procrastinators are just lazy with their time in general, and when they're procrastinating in a subject that they are not as skilled at, they usually fall under the tense-afraid type (see below). A common example of the genius procrastinator is the precocious student who is working in a class where the expectations are set far below their ability level in that subject. For example, a gifted writer in a standard elementary or middle school English class often waits until the last minute to write their papers because they know that they will get an A even by putting in the lowest amount of effort possible, and that to expend any more effort than that on such an assignment would be wasteful.
The tense-afraid type
The tense-afraid type of procrastinator usually feels overwhelmed with pressure, unrealistic about time, uncertain about goals and many other negative feelings. Feeling that they lack the ability or focus to successfully complete their work, they tell themselves that they need to unwind and relax, that it's better to take it easy for the afternoon, for example, and start afresh in the morning. They usually have grandiose plans that aren't realistic. Their 'relaxing' is often temporary and ineffective, and leads to even more stress as time runs out, deadlines approach and the person feels increasingly guilty and apprehensive. This behavior becomes a cycle of failure and delay, as plans and goals are put off, penciled into the following day or week in the diary again and again. It can also have a debilitating effect on their personal lives and relationships. Since they are uncertain about their goals, they often feel awkward with people who appear confident and goal-oriented, which can lead to depression. Tense-afraid procrastinators often withdraw from social life, avoiding contact even with close friends.
It is a type of behavior which is characterized by deferment of actions or tasks to a later time.
Psychologists often cite procrastination as a mechanism for coping with the anxiety associated with starting or completing any task or decision.For the person procrastinating this may result in stress, a sense of guilt, the loss of personal productivity, the creation of crisis and the disapproval of others for not fulfilling one's responsibilities or commitments. While it is normal for individuals to procrastinate to some degree, it becomes a problem when it impedes normal functioning.
Chronic procrastination may be a sign of an underlying psychological or physiological disorder.
The psychological causes of procrastination vary greatly, but generally surround issues of anxiety, low sense of self-worth, and a self-defeating mentality. Procrastinators are also thought to have a higher-than-normal level of conscientiousness, more based on the "dreams and wishes" of perfection or achievement in contrast to a realistic appreciation of their obligations and potential.Author David Allen brings up two major psychological causes of procrastination at work and in life which are related to anxiety, not laziness.[citation needed] The first category comprises things too small to worry about, tasks that are an annoying interruption in the flow of things, and for which there are low-impact workarounds; an example might be organizing a messy room. The second category comprises things too big to control, tasks that a person might fear, or for which the implications might have a great impact on a person's life; an example might be the adult children of a deteriorating elderly parent deciding what living arrangement would be best.A person might unconsciously overestimate or underestimate the scale of a task if procrastination has become a habit.
From the behavioral psychology point of view, James Mazur has said that procrastination is a particular case of "impulsiveness" as opposed to self control.
The relaxed type
The relaxed type of procrastinators view their responsibilities negatively and avoid them by directing energy into other tasks. It is common, for example, for relaxed type procrastinating children to abandon schoolwork but not their social lives. Students often see projects as a whole rather than breaking them into smaller parts. This type of procrastination is a form of denial or cover-up; therefore, typically no help is being sought. Furthermore, they are also unable to defer gratification. The procrastinator avoids situations that would cause displeasure, indulging instead in more enjoyable activities. In Freudian terms, such procrastinators refuse to renounce the pleasure principle, instead sacrificing the reality principle. They may not appear to be worried about work and deadlines, but this is simply an evasion.
The genius procrastinator
Genius procrastinator is a type of relaxed procrastinator intelligent person. Unlike the typical relaxed type procrastinator, who usually does not care about what they are delaying, geniuses do care but do not need to put a great deal of effort into that area to do well, and therefore can wait until the last minute, put in minimal effort, and still produce a good result. Genius procrastinators often work well under pressure; often, when they do not have a deadline set for a project, their work lags. Other genius procrastinators are just lazy with their time in general, and when they're procrastinating in a subject that they are not as skilled at, they usually fall under the tense-afraid type (see below). A common example of the genius procrastinator is the precocious student who is working in a class where the expectations are set far below their ability level in that subject. For example, a gifted writer in a standard elementary or middle school English class often waits until the last minute to write their papers because they know that they will get an A even by putting in the lowest amount of effort possible, and that to expend any more effort than that on such an assignment would be wasteful.
The tense-afraid type
The tense-afraid type of procrastinator usually feels overwhelmed with pressure, unrealistic about time, uncertain about goals and many other negative feelings. Feeling that they lack the ability or focus to successfully complete their work, they tell themselves that they need to unwind and relax, that it's better to take it easy for the afternoon, for example, and start afresh in the morning. They usually have grandiose plans that aren't realistic. Their 'relaxing' is often temporary and ineffective, and leads to even more stress as time runs out, deadlines approach and the person feels increasingly guilty and apprehensive. This behavior becomes a cycle of failure and delay, as plans and goals are put off, penciled into the following day or week in the diary again and again. It can also have a debilitating effect on their personal lives and relationships. Since they are uncertain about their goals, they often feel awkward with people who appear confident and goal-oriented, which can lead to depression. Tense-afraid procrastinators often withdraw from social life, avoiding contact even with close friends.
oh man. I think I'm in-between the first and third
type.
Friday, April 11, 2008
//End-of-Sem//
Whoa.
It's the end of another semester.
Which means year 1 has (almost) ended.
That is.
If I managed to scrape through the exams in the next three weeks.
For this going-to-end semester, I mostly planned the timetable myself (with Liqing too)
#Lab Mondays#
The most interesting thing about doing lab experiments is that we go to different labs each week to do different stuff.
The worst: a 10-page lab report in 2 weeks
Need I say more?
#Mac Tuesdays#
The only day I can wake up at 8am, the latest among everybody in the house.
The only day I have a luxurious 2-hr lunch break.
I'll grab some food before maths tutorial (which I absolutely detest the tutor)
And have MacDonald's (under peer pressure from yb and lq)
I think I only eat and crap on those days.
#Panic-over-computing Wednesdays#
Firstly, I fear being late for the class (which I have a tendency to)
Secondly, I go frantic over how much I don't know about computing.
Not to mention that after I complied the program, the number of errors-to-be-corrected totally freaks me out.
Thirdly, the mad rush from South spine to get to the PHYSICS tutorial at the North spine is enough to make anyone breathless and lose concentration during PHYSICS.
#Evil Thursdays#
It's the most EVIL day of the week. (imagine us nearly-got-struck by lightning)
After being brain-drained by vi's loved professor Talia, there is no way anyone could still function like a normal human being.
That is when I threaten to shoot down all the birds at Hall2 while Vi professes her love for Talia to bushes and trees.
We simply suffer from laughing disorders- getting tickled by the most innocent thing we see. (namely bushes, trees, flowers, birds and Einstein)
Did I say we saw Einstein?
Yea, that's how evil it gets.
#Slack Fridays#
The day ends at 12.30, which is no surprise why it's my favourite day of the week.
Except when there is Chem test.
I'll just die of stress when I see many people get nine or ten marks (out of ten) while I could only manage a pathetic seven.
Anyway, life gets pretty mudane and routinal after some time.
For this sem, at least.
For every week, there's the same timetable, same classes, same classmates, same tutors, same route to class.
Whoa.
It's the end of another semester.
Which means year 1 has (almost) ended.
That is.
If I managed to scrape through the exams in the next three weeks.
For this going-to-end semester, I mostly planned the timetable myself (with Liqing too)
#Lab Mondays#
The most interesting thing about doing lab experiments is that we go to different labs each week to do different stuff.
The worst: a 10-page lab report in 2 weeks
Need I say more?
#Mac Tuesdays#
The only day I can wake up at 8am, the latest among everybody in the house.
The only day I have a luxurious 2-hr lunch break.
I'll grab some food before maths tutorial (which I absolutely detest the tutor)
And have MacDonald's (under peer pressure from yb and lq)
I think I only eat and crap on those days.
#Panic-over-computing Wednesdays#
Firstly, I fear being late for the class (which I have a tendency to)
Secondly, I go frantic over how much I don't know about computing.
Not to mention that after I complied the program, the number of errors-to-be-corrected totally freaks me out.
Thirdly, the mad rush from South spine to get to the PHYSICS tutorial at the North spine is enough to make anyone breathless and lose concentration during PHYSICS.
#Evil Thursdays#
It's the most EVIL day of the week. (imagine us nearly-got-struck by lightning)
After being brain-drained by vi's loved professor Talia, there is no way anyone could still function like a normal human being.
That is when I threaten to shoot down all the birds at Hall2 while Vi professes her love for Talia to bushes and trees.
We simply suffer from laughing disorders- getting tickled by the most innocent thing we see. (namely bushes, trees, flowers, birds and Einstein)
Did I say we saw Einstein?
Yea, that's how evil it gets.
#Slack Fridays#
The day ends at 12.30, which is no surprise why it's my favourite day of the week.
Except when there is Chem test.
I'll just die of stress when I see many people get nine or ten marks (out of ten) while I could only manage a pathetic seven.
Anyway, life gets pretty mudane and routinal after some time.
For this sem, at least.
For every week, there's the same timetable, same classes, same classmates, same tutors, same route to class.
Monday, April 07, 2008
Friday, April 04, 2008
//Funny -Crazy//
Water fight in NTU canteen?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_2gVzNaeso
Triple-sharing hostel rooms
http://youtube.com/watch?v=MXVYGi3DWJk
Water fight in NTU canteen?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N_2gVzNaeso
Triple-sharing hostel rooms
http://youtube.com/watch?v=MXVYGi3DWJk
//it's time to mug//
Counting down to exams-11 days
Looking at the stuff I need to read up on, it's making me panic.
Double panic- my tutees exams are coming up too.
Well, many people say I've slackened this semester and that is no further than the truth.
Since fallen ill at the beginning of the sem, there seems like no way I could catch up with the lectures and tutorials. (or maybe it's due to my limited willpower)
I missed every single module's first tutorial and lost my head throughout the rest.
This must have been the worst time ever.
Till now, I still feel the phlegm stuck in my throat.
No matter how hard I cough, it just wouldn't come out.
Does anyone have a remedy for getting rid of phlegm?
I know I'm asking for too much, but what about a cure for sleepyness?
I want to quit dozing off during lectures.
Even I myself, am surprised at how easily I doze off during lectures and on train rides.
And I really mean, dozing off!
Not just resting my eyes.
P.S Finished《原来我不帅》on youtube. Totally hilarious.
P.P.S If you can't make sense of this entry, don't bother to try.
It is just the random ramblings of a desperate+panicky student.
Counting down to exams-11 days
Looking at the stuff I need to read up on, it's making me panic.
Double panic- my tutees exams are coming up too.
Well, many people say I've slackened this semester and that is no further than the truth.
Since fallen ill at the beginning of the sem, there seems like no way I could catch up with the lectures and tutorials. (or maybe it's due to my limited willpower)
I missed every single module's first tutorial and lost my head throughout the rest.
This must have been the worst time ever.
Till now, I still feel the phlegm stuck in my throat.
No matter how hard I cough, it just wouldn't come out.
Does anyone have a remedy for getting rid of phlegm?
I know I'm asking for too much, but what about a cure for sleepyness?
I want to quit dozing off during lectures.
Even I myself, am surprised at how easily I doze off during lectures and on train rides.
And I really mean, dozing off!
Not just resting my eyes.
P.S Finished《原来我不帅》on youtube. Totally hilarious.
P.P.S If you can't make sense of this entry, don't bother to try.
It is just the random ramblings of a desperate+panicky student.
Friday, March 07, 2008
//Declaration of S/U? //
come to think of it, so far i did not do well for the electives i took for this sem.
the psychology test yesterday is bound to be a goner.
the prof actually gave out two versions of the paper, namely o1 (printed on white-coloured paper) and 02 (printed on yellow-coloured paper)
i was assigned the yellow paper.
then i kept wondering what was her motive behind that.
-to prevent copying? (not very convincing since we had to leave an empty seat in between two people)
-to test if people like conventional (white test paper) things?
-to test whether what she has done would result in distraction of thought?
-to prevent people from discussing the answers after the test?
-or any other logical reason
Go figure.
erm, perhaps it is a test of something.
haha anyway, we were sort of being "manipulated" as the"independent variable" in the sense of what we have learnt in our module.
anyway, vi took the white paper whereas i took the yellow one.
when we compared the questions we took, we realise she probably set the same questions for both versions but changed the order of questions.
wahaha.
who in the world can interpret her "Einstein-like" brain juices?
not forgetting why on earth did she imitate his hairstyle...=P
come to think of it, so far i did not do well for the electives i took for this sem.
the psychology test yesterday is bound to be a goner.
the prof actually gave out two versions of the paper, namely o1 (printed on white-coloured paper) and 02 (printed on yellow-coloured paper)
i was assigned the yellow paper.
then i kept wondering what was her motive behind that.
-to prevent copying? (not very convincing since we had to leave an empty seat in between two people)
-to test if people like conventional (white test paper) things?
-to test whether what she has done would result in distraction of thought?
-to prevent people from discussing the answers after the test?
-or any other logical reason
Go figure.
erm, perhaps it is a test of something.
haha anyway, we were sort of being "manipulated" as the"independent variable" in the sense of what we have learnt in our module.
anyway, vi took the white paper whereas i took the yellow one.
when we compared the questions we took, we realise she probably set the same questions for both versions but changed the order of questions.
wahaha.
who in the world can interpret her "Einstein-like" brain juices?
not forgetting why on earth did she imitate his hairstyle...=P
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
//the need to psycho myself to study psychology//
psychology is hard.
somemore it's more difficult for me since i have no natural aptitude for it.
in addition, i'm more SLACK than ever.
vi absolutely adore prof talia whereas i do not.
talia is a weird character but i guess that's what you would become after years of psychology.
i'm not surprised.
everything is a possibility.
no right or wrong answer.
a logical one would do.
the problem lies in the fact that each and everyone of us has a different definition of what is logical.
psychology is hard.
somemore it's more difficult for me since i have no natural aptitude for it.
in addition, i'm more SLACK than ever.
vi absolutely adore prof talia whereas i do not.
talia is a weird character but i guess that's what you would become after years of psychology.
i'm not surprised.
everything is a possibility.
no right or wrong answer.
a logical one would do.
the problem lies in the fact that each and everyone of us has a different definition of what is logical.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
//friends- forever possible?//
Even though I had laughed it off, what liqing said today about friends stayed in my mind until now.
Why do we make friends in:
1) Primary school?
- To play hopscotch, skipping
-To exchange stickers, stamps
-To talk with
-To complain about teachers with
-To ask, confirm, double confirm what homework the teacher gave
2) Secondary school?
-To discuss homework with
-To consult teachers with
-To complain about teachers with
-To join CCA with
-To gossip with
- To compare results with
-Because everyone go in groups and you don't want to be a loner
3) JC/Uni?
-To copy their homework
-To gossip with
-To complain about teachers with
-To widen your social circle
-Because they may be your future colleagues
-you don't want to feel alienated
It just seems that there is lesser and lesser reasons to make friends as you grow up.
Maybe that's why childhood friends are the best.
But one never knows when someone will change.
It is just so sad.
Societal needs has changed the way we make friends.
Who are your true friends who truly appreciates you for what you are?
And who are those who just to get something out of you?
It's hard to tell.
But as I think again, instead of bearing grudges against those "friends" whom had tried to make use of you...
Why not just keep an open mind and simply enjoy whatever that comes?
The world has its fair share of manipulative people.
Let's be one of those sincere ones instead.
Instead of doubting people every now and then, I think I'll rather simply treat every friend with sincerity and compassion.
I don't know whether I can seriously pull it off but I'll am going to give it a try if I happen to meet such people again.
Even though I had laughed it off, what liqing said today about friends stayed in my mind until now.
Why do we make friends in:
1) Primary school?
- To play hopscotch, skipping
-To exchange stickers, stamps
-To talk with
-To complain about teachers with
-To ask, confirm, double confirm what homework the teacher gave
2) Secondary school?
-To discuss homework with
-To consult teachers with
-To complain about teachers with
-To join CCA with
-To gossip with
- To compare results with
-Because everyone go in groups and you don't want to be a loner
3) JC/Uni?
-To copy their homework
-To gossip with
-To complain about teachers with
-To widen your social circle
-Because they may be your future colleagues
-you don't want to feel alienated
It just seems that there is lesser and lesser reasons to make friends as you grow up.
Maybe that's why childhood friends are the best.
But one never knows when someone will change.
It is just so sad.
Societal needs has changed the way we make friends.
Who are your true friends who truly appreciates you for what you are?
And who are those who just to get something out of you?
It's hard to tell.
But as I think again, instead of bearing grudges against those "friends" whom had tried to make use of you...
Why not just keep an open mind and simply enjoy whatever that comes?
The world has its fair share of manipulative people.
Let's be one of those sincere ones instead.
Instead of doubting people every now and then, I think I'll rather simply treat every friend with sincerity and compassion.
I don't know whether I can seriously pull it off but I'll am going to give it a try if I happen to meet such people again.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
//homework pile up high //
the things I've got to do is still as many as ever.
my weekends are still as packed as ever.
anyway, yesterday we celebrated wx's birthday.
the mind cafe at prinsep st actually opens at 2pm but we thought it was at 12.
once the b'day boy cum outing planner announce the fact to us, we could not contain our displeasure.
come to think of it, it was no doubt a natural reaction but...haha we had unwittingly reprimanded the b'day boy.
maybe i think too much.
it's my tendency to do so.
anyway, the games were quite fun and 4-6 people is really the optimal size to play board games.
however i was quite irritated with the table of girls seated diagonally opposite us.
if you guess it, yes, they were screaming too loudly.
ok it is an understatement.
they were practically screaming as though their lives depended on this game.
in other words, they were screeching our ears off.
even the other patrons at the counter gave them a second look.
i guess they were wondering whether they have should entered this place at all.
after all, it wasn't worth it to sacrifice their hearing just for a few hours of board games.
anyway, they took the tables instead of the sofas.
after mind cafe, the rest of them went swensen's for the b'day cake and glass house for Fish & Co. while i made my way home for tuition.
(oh man, I haven't ate b'day cakes and fish & co. for quite some time.)
the things I've got to do is still as many as ever.
my weekends are still as packed as ever.
anyway, yesterday we celebrated wx's birthday.
the mind cafe at prinsep st actually opens at 2pm but we thought it was at 12.
once the b'day boy cum outing planner announce the fact to us, we could not contain our displeasure.
come to think of it, it was no doubt a natural reaction but...haha we had unwittingly reprimanded the b'day boy.
maybe i think too much.
it's my tendency to do so.
anyway, the games were quite fun and 4-6 people is really the optimal size to play board games.
however i was quite irritated with the table of girls seated diagonally opposite us.
if you guess it, yes, they were screaming too loudly.
ok it is an understatement.
they were practically screaming as though their lives depended on this game.
in other words, they were screeching our ears off.
even the other patrons at the counter gave them a second look.
i guess they were wondering whether they have should entered this place at all.
after all, it wasn't worth it to sacrifice their hearing just for a few hours of board games.
anyway, they took the tables instead of the sofas.
after mind cafe, the rest of them went swensen's for the b'day cake and glass house for Fish & Co. while i made my way home for tuition.
(oh man, I haven't ate b'day cakes and fish & co. for quite some time.)
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
//k-box day//
Well, I've been slacking this few days.
Bet I'll be doing last minute work over the weekend.
I haven't do my part for effective com assignment.
I haven't start on the formal lab report.
I haven't started writing.
I haven't catch up with all the tutorials.
I haven't done my effective com reflection paper.
I haven't studied for Chem and Psycho tests.
I bet you can't believe how good I am at slacking.
Sat: Rehearsal+tuition
Sun: Rehearsal +tuition
Monday: watched 原來我不帥! (JJ is so darn funny!)
hope this will not be shown on TV too. like the 公主小妹.
else it will just waste my time on youtube.
Today: K-box marathon with lynette and christabel. (11am-6.30pm...so tiring!)
Wed: Mind Cafe?
Thurs: PROJECT
Fri: The Leap Years?
Well, I've been slacking this few days.
Bet I'll be doing last minute work over the weekend.
I haven't do my part for effective com assignment.
I haven't start on the formal lab report.
I haven't started writing.
I haven't catch up with all the tutorials.
I haven't done my effective com reflection paper.
I haven't studied for Chem and Psycho tests.
I bet you can't believe how good I am at slacking.
Sat: Rehearsal+tuition
Sun: Rehearsal +tuition
Monday: watched 原來我不帥! (JJ is so darn funny!)
hope this will not be shown on TV too. like the 公主小妹.
else it will just waste my time on youtube.
Today: K-box marathon with lynette and christabel. (11am-6.30pm...so tiring!)
Wed: Mind Cafe?
Thurs: PROJECT
Fri: The Leap Years?
Friday, February 22, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
//sunny //
Found on facebook.com=)
Based on your birthday ...
You have great common sense but usually fail to follow through. This might happens because you are too busy with your mission and shut yourself from the outside world. You are clever and profound so there's a slight chance for self-control problem. Your Love. Your love progress slowly, and quietly. You seem to be contented with your unrequited love. You are a romantic and loyal lover.
-wow...90% true!
Your greatest STRENGTHS ...
Optimistic, brilliantly sociable and motivated to win the best in life.
-eh. optimistic, sociable and motivated? doesn't sound like it's me..
Your greatest WEAKNESS ...
Unrealistic, stubborn and reluctant to confront problems.
-100% true!
Found on facebook.com=)
Based on your birthday ...
You have great common sense but usually fail to follow through. This might happens because you are too busy with your mission and shut yourself from the outside world. You are clever and profound so there's a slight chance for self-control problem. Your Love. Your love progress slowly, and quietly. You seem to be contented with your unrequited love. You are a romantic and loyal lover.
-wow...90% true!
Your greatest STRENGTHS ...
Optimistic, brilliantly sociable and motivated to win the best in life.
-eh. optimistic, sociable and motivated? doesn't sound like it's me..
Your greatest WEAKNESS ...
Unrealistic, stubborn and reluctant to confront problems.
-100% true!
Jobs you SHOULD pursue ...
Politicians and media men.
-yea right. capitalising on my non-existent strengths. Plus, can politicians even afford to be unrealistic, stubborn and ignore problems?
Sunday, February 10, 2008
| You Scored an A |
 You got 10/10 questions correct. It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors. If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs. As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human. And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes. |
Friday, February 08, 2008
// Happy Chinese New Year? //
Yesterday, 8th Feb was the first day of the lunar year and my family so happened to join the hordes of foreigners in the "Sentosa Flowers 2008".
Despite being Singaporeans, ironically, we were in the same predicament as those bangladeshi and china people as the bulk of our relatives were also in another country.(m'sia)
Hence, once we reached harbourfront bus terminal, what greeted us was a snake-like queue for the bus to Sentosa. In fact, the queue appeared to have no end to it.
Drats!
Thus, we went to check out the new monorail booth in vivocity and were faced with the exact same situation of long queues.
Hmph...if we had decided to visit our relatives in m'sia, we'll be faced with the same long queues at the customs.
Looks like there is no way we can escape queuing up during public holidays!
Well, unless we just stay at home and be couch potatos...
Anyway, when we finally reached Sentosa, the flowers were nothing to be "wowed" about.
My mum was disappointed that the flowers were not as blooming as those she saw in Taiwan.
My dad was commenting that you can't even admire the flowers with so many people around, which was a very apt description.
But the most maddening thing was that some foreigners cut queue twice!
Firstly, when we were queuing to go into the monorail station, the group of them just pretend to hang around and then walked into the queue when it was moving.
Right in front of the group of bangladeshi who were queuing in front of us!
My mum said she would have yelled at them if any of them dared to cut right under our noses.
Then, as we were queuing to get into the monorail, another group of them from the SAME country rushed in from the front without queuing at the back.
This time, right in front of our noses.
And the crowd controller wasn't even looking.
In the end, since they rushed in and there were no space for us to get in, my parents and I pointed at them and shouted "Never queue!" in Chinese.
And they still dared to bare their teeth and smiled as the monorail went away!
Well, since they understood us, I think you would have guessed which country they were from.
In addition, as we were first in queue, waiting for the next monorail, another group of people from the SAME country also almost cut the queue.
My family sort of "worked" for Sentosa Express monorail for 10 mins.
We pointed to the back whenever anyone tried to cut the queue.
Altruism, isn't it?
What a eventful day.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
// wedding bells //
Yesterday was my cousin's wedding.
Actually i have never spoken to him before.
I rarely see him at my grandma's during CNY which is about the only time i visit my grandma in Johor.
Yesterday was my cousin's wedding.
Actually i have never spoken to him before.
I rarely see him at my grandma's during CNY which is about the only time i visit my grandma in Johor.
Anyway, during CNY all the males would gather at the gambling table throughout the day while the females chat and cooked.
Me and my sis would just watch TV.
Sometimes, it really seems awkard.
Relatives.
People of the same ancestry as me.
People whose blood flows the same as me.
Yet I just felt very distant from them.
Perhaps for some, I wouldn't even recognise them on the streets.
Strangely, the relationship is even more non-existent than with your typical hi-and-bye friends.
Yesterday morning was the tea ceremony and we just hang around to show our face there.
Then once the groom and bride left the groom's house, we couldn't wait to go off.
At night, there was the wedding banquet, as usual, at Park View Holiday Inn hotel.
Needless to say, the ambience, service and food was good.
Before the first course- cold dish was served, the waiters, waitresses and chefs even danced around on the red carpet!! =P
But i felt like attending my next-block neighbours' son's wedding.
Not my own cousins'.
The dinner started at 9pm sharp and ended at 11pm.
Oh what i meant was that we went off at 11pm.
we- my grandma, uncles, aunties- all of them live in JB and, of course my family.
We skipped the desert on the menu cuz it was taking them so long.
And not to mention that my relatives needed to return to JB.
souvenir 1- metal bookmark (cute!)
souvenir 2 -cup mat (nice!)
The words printed on it : "Love is to place our happiness in the happiness of another..."
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
//random//
VOTE for Singapore to be on the new monopoly world edition! =P
http://www.hasbro.com/games/kid-games/monopoly/
VOTE for Singapore to be on the new monopoly world edition! =P
http://www.hasbro.com/games/kid-games/monopoly/
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
//rainy day//
gosh.
3 chapters (le chatelier's principle, entropy & free energy, rxn in aq solutions) in one lecture.
meet my motor-mouth chem lecturer.
like the faceless, gloomy walls
she dwell in misery
laughter is not the best antidote
to worries, unsecurities or fear
just providing a moment of relief
to ease weariness
just providing an escape route
to keep away troubles on the mind
like the barrier between immates and their relatives
she is disconnected from the world
articulation is not a difficult task to many
spoken words, written letters
perhaps she's just the exception~
perhaps...
gosh.
3 chapters (le chatelier's principle, entropy & free energy, rxn in aq solutions) in one lecture.
meet my motor-mouth chem lecturer.
like the faceless, gloomy walls
she dwell in misery
laughter is not the best antidote
to worries, unsecurities or fear
just providing a moment of relief
to ease weariness
just providing an escape route
to keep away troubles on the mind
like the barrier between immates and their relatives
she is disconnected from the world
articulation is not a difficult task to many
spoken words, written letters
perhaps she's just the exception~
perhaps...
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
//sometimes//
Sometimes I just wonder who I am.
You know...a loss of identity.
Most of the times, I go with the flow.
I observe rules and regulations, for fear of treading over the line.
But sometimes, rebellious thoughts just occur in my mind.
I did everything that is the opposite of what I should have done.
Sometimes I can talk alot but usually I don't want to.
Just dreamily observing people.
Around me or just on the streets.
Sometimes I will stay strong in times of adversity.
Other times, I will just crack under the pressure.
I don't know why I am typing this post.
Or for that matter, the other posts.
Especially when I have lots of other stuff to do.
Maybe I can just conclude that this blog is an outlet to vent my feelings.
Currently I'm feeling quite down.
Who wouldn't be when your mum just reprimanded you?
For your info, she is not that unreasonable.
But the thing is I can't talk reason with her.
She will just say that I'm retorting her.
The matter is that I'm too busy (or don't want to make time) for those minor things.
So I hope that she wouldn't act as though it's the end of the world when I forgot to do them.
Seriously, I'm not that FREE!
If you look at my (soon-to-be) schedule posted last entry.
I also have a bad memory for remembering details and doing little things.
So I was being rebellious when I locked myself (just now) inside the study room.
After a long and hard day at school and tuition, the last thing I want to hear is someone nagging at me.
Sometimes I just wonder who I am.
You know...a loss of identity.
Most of the times, I go with the flow.
I observe rules and regulations, for fear of treading over the line.
But sometimes, rebellious thoughts just occur in my mind.
I did everything that is the opposite of what I should have done.
Sometimes I can talk alot but usually I don't want to.
Just dreamily observing people.
Around me or just on the streets.
Sometimes I will stay strong in times of adversity.
Other times, I will just crack under the pressure.
I don't know why I am typing this post.
Or for that matter, the other posts.
Especially when I have lots of other stuff to do.
Maybe I can just conclude that this blog is an outlet to vent my feelings.
Currently I'm feeling quite down.
Who wouldn't be when your mum just reprimanded you?
For your info, she is not that unreasonable.
But the thing is I can't talk reason with her.
She will just say that I'm retorting her.
The matter is that I'm too busy (or don't want to make time) for those minor things.
So I hope that she wouldn't act as though it's the end of the world when I forgot to do them.
Seriously, I'm not that FREE!
If you look at my (soon-to-be) schedule posted last entry.
I also have a bad memory for remembering details and doing little things.
So I was being rebellious when I locked myself (just now) inside the study room.
After a long and hard day at school and tuition, the last thing I want to hear is someone nagging at me.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
// Busy!! //
Oh man, I'm so far behind time in my tutorials.
Last week, I missed out on all the tutorials except physics.
Why?
Thanks to my non-stop cough.
And I'm still suffering from it. (a tweeny-weeny bit better though)
Physics: tutorial 1-absolutely know idea what is it...E-fields make me see stars
tutorial 2- not done even though it is due tomorrow..what on earth is Gauss Law?
Maths: tutorial 1- 7 more questions to cover
Chem: Haven't even start- due on fri
Computing: Haven't even start
Effective Com: Haven't even taken a look at it
Fundamentals of Social Research: tutorial 2 due on thurs
Impact of Chem on society: No tutorials =)
And in addition, there is still this endless list of things to do.
Student division (religion): Complete powerpoint presentation for this sun's activity
Do up the script for presentation (I'm getting cold feet!)
Call up members to inform them of the activity-(done!)
Thurs nights are sometimes reserved for home visits.
MuSE : Two articles due next tues
Furthermore, there's tuition!
Oh man why did the school term start so fast?
Mon,tues,wed nights
Saturday morning afternoon
Burnt!
One more tutee means a busier schedule.
One thing I can conclude: This market is definitely lack of tutors.
And, er-hem...kids who hire private tutors definitely need them!
Well, take me as a case study, my tutees have one or more of the following characteristics
1. Too hyper
2. Too lazy
3. Need people to supervise them or else they will NOT do work
4. Gets distracted easily
5. Doesn't pay attention in class
6. Needs umpteen times of explanation before they get the rough idea
I used to think giving tuition was easy money.
And what I thought couldn't be further from the truth.
Blah blah blah. Feeling too restless to do anything.
This blog entry serves as a "To-do" list for me.
Oh man, I'm so far behind time in my tutorials.
Last week, I missed out on all the tutorials except physics.
Why?
Thanks to my non-stop cough.
And I'm still suffering from it. (a tweeny-weeny bit better though)
Physics: tutorial 1-absolutely know idea what is it...E-fields make me see stars
tutorial 2- not done even though it is due tomorrow..what on earth is Gauss Law?
Maths: tutorial 1- 7 more questions to cover
Chem: Haven't even start- due on fri
Computing: Haven't even start
Effective Com: Haven't even taken a look at it
Fundamentals of Social Research: tutorial 2 due on thurs
Impact of Chem on society: No tutorials =)
And in addition, there is still this endless list of things to do.
Student division (religion): Complete powerpoint presentation for this sun's activity
Do up the script for presentation (I'm getting cold feet!)
Call up members to inform them of the activity-(done!)
Thurs nights are sometimes reserved for home visits.
MuSE : Two articles due next tues
Furthermore, there's tuition!
Oh man why did the school term start so fast?
Mon,tues,wed nights
Saturday morning afternoon
Burnt!
One more tutee means a busier schedule.
One thing I can conclude: This market is definitely lack of tutors.
And, er-hem...kids who hire private tutors definitely need them!
Well, take me as a case study, my tutees have one or more of the following characteristics
1. Too hyper
2. Too lazy
3. Need people to supervise them or else they will NOT do work
4. Gets distracted easily
5. Doesn't pay attention in class
6. Needs umpteen times of explanation before they get the rough idea
I used to think giving tuition was easy money.
And what I thought couldn't be further from the truth.
Blah blah blah. Feeling too restless to do anything.
This blog entry serves as a "To-do" list for me.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
//ramdom//
bored at home.
didn't go school cuz i'm coughing non-stop!
Like Pringles, once you start, you can't stop.
lame i know -.-
Especially at night, it's worse.
I can't sleep well.
So today, I missed the first computing tutorial.
And physics tutorial.
Not to mention the first lecture of Impact of Chem on Society.
Argh.
I had really wanted to go for the computing tut cuz I have no idea what programming is about.
Nevermind, it's over.
By the way, I have no idea why I can't install my Trend Micro internet security on my laptop.
I wonder why.
There is a error message everytime I try to install it.
Well, just got to know that mel fu is super hardworking.
She stays in the office till 8pm!
So late! I can't imagine lah.
bored at home.
didn't go school cuz i'm coughing non-stop!
Like Pringles, once you start, you can't stop.
lame i know -.-
Especially at night, it's worse.
I can't sleep well.
So today, I missed the first computing tutorial.
And physics tutorial.
Not to mention the first lecture of Impact of Chem on Society.
Argh.
I had really wanted to go for the computing tut cuz I have no idea what programming is about.
Nevermind, it's over.
By the way, I have no idea why I can't install my Trend Micro internet security on my laptop.
I wonder why.
There is a error message everytime I try to install it.
Well, just got to know that mel fu is super hardworking.
She stays in the office till 8pm!
So late! I can't imagine lah.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
//online window shopping//
Hmm...nowadays there's nothing much to do online.
Especially now that I promised my mum not to play Audition during term time.
Recently saw the "Romantic Princess" advert on TV.
Feel so cheated!!
I was watching it on youtube recently and now it's gonna show on TV.
Why?
Basically I'm a lazy person.
Watching short, one-episode videos on youtube does not prove much of a challenge but watching a drama serial is.
To me, it is so troublesome, I have to click on a link to get to the next part every ten mintues.
Bother!
Lol.
Watching it on TV is much more easier.
But anyway, I already finished watching it.
No use crying over spilled milk.
Haha! I'm so proud that I managed to recognise the "Gong Moli" to be Genie Zhuo Wen Xuan.
Wanted to catch the Vic Zhou and Patty Hou show on youtube...but forget it!
The show may be shown on TV after some time.
So now, the latest thing I'm hooked onto is online window shopping!
So far haven't bought anything yet but saw some stuff that I quite like.
Most are pay first, receive goods later...so don't really know which sites are trustworthy.
Shimin recommended me one though...
Most sell stuff that are reasonably priced but the qualiy...I wouldn't know how much it differs from the photos.
Some sell second hand stuff...which I wouldn't dare to buy.
Haha. I prefer sites that helps people to order stuff from Korea, Japan and Taiwan fashion stores.
Hmm...nowadays there's nothing much to do online.
Especially now that I promised my mum not to play Audition during term time.
Recently saw the "Romantic Princess" advert on TV.
Feel so cheated!!
I was watching it on youtube recently and now it's gonna show on TV.
Why?
Basically I'm a lazy person.
Watching short, one-episode videos on youtube does not prove much of a challenge but watching a drama serial is.
To me, it is so troublesome, I have to click on a link to get to the next part every ten mintues.
Bother!
Lol.
Watching it on TV is much more easier.
But anyway, I already finished watching it.
No use crying over spilled milk.
Haha! I'm so proud that I managed to recognise the "Gong Moli" to be Genie Zhuo Wen Xuan.
Wanted to catch the Vic Zhou and Patty Hou show on youtube...but forget it!
The show may be shown on TV after some time.
So now, the latest thing I'm hooked onto is online window shopping!
So far haven't bought anything yet but saw some stuff that I quite like.
Most are pay first, receive goods later...so don't really know which sites are trustworthy.
Shimin recommended me one though...
Most sell stuff that are reasonably priced but the qualiy...I wouldn't know how much it differs from the photos.
Some sell second hand stuff...which I wouldn't dare to buy.
Haha. I prefer sites that helps people to order stuff from Korea, Japan and Taiwan fashion stores.
Friday, January 11, 2008
//home visit-thurs//
Back from amk home visit.
Went to 2 students' homes.
Before we got to the first one, ruifang was telling me what her patients did in IMH.
It was to prepare my mentality when we went to visit the first student.
This is because her family has a history of schizoprenia.
Father is ~ so two daughters also abit ~
I was told that the last time someone visited them 2 years ago, the flat was in total darkness.
When we arrived at #02-12, there was a taller-than-us bookshelf-turned-shoe rack smacked right at their doorstep.
We were at a loss as the house was apparently uninhibited.
Right at this moment, their Indian neighbours was peering at what we were trying to do.
So we decided to ask them about the family's whereabouts.
Initially we were shocked to learn that the family had moved out 2 years ago and the flat had been unoccupied since then.
They told us that the family either moved to Woodlands...then corrected that they moved to SengKang. Lol.
The funniest thing was that they said the couple had two girls who are toddlers.
We were supposed to look for a 14 and 19-year old.
Then we realised that in our anxiety, we had read the address wrongly.
We had walked past the unit #02-16.
Lol.
I commented to Ruifang that it was a good sign that there appears to be light coming out of the translucent window.
And it really was not so bad as we had imagined.
A teenage girl, the younger 14-year old opened the door after some assurance that we are not some salesgirls.
In fact, judging from our conversation separated by the metal grille, (we were not allowed in) her family appears to be in a not-so-good situation, but at least everything about her appeared to be normal.
A 14-year old, enrolled in secondary 2 answering calls on her handphone occasionally.
However, our eyes did not miss the pair of legs peeking out from the door.
Our guess is that they belonged to her father's. As her father is rather ill.
I tried to take a closer view of the living room and realised that the house is rather spartan with old furnitures. Wah. this brings me to the question of how she got the money to acquire a rather new handphone. What about the bills?
Perhaps she shares it with her elder sis who should be working already.
I also did notice that her eyes were rather big but the way she looked at me is strange.
Friendly definitely...but strange.
Was it because that I got to know about her background so I tend to stereotype?
I don't know.
The second home was also in amk, but we had to take another bus from the interchange.
Quite near aj, in fact.
I met this girl before at a camp but don't really know her personally.
Haha. That time, I was in the treasury/admin com so I was supposed to collect money from the campers.
At that time I had no idea of her family's financial situation so I actually came up to her to collect the camp fees. She gave me a blur look. Then another person told me she didn't have to pay.
Now, having completed her Os and working at a bookstore, she looked different.
More confident and energetic than before.
Plus, she talked more too.
Maybe an additional income to the family really had helped.
I don't know much about her family.
But I can gathered that her dad must have caused trouble to the family.
Ruifang says that no matter how much we hate our parents, we must still be thankful to them cuz they gave us life.
It is our negative kharma.
Afterall, one of the debts of gratitude is one of to our parents.
Really hope that she can have the strength to do so.
Though it won't be easy to show compassion towards someone you dislike.
I guess it is good to home visit people sometimes.
I got to see more of the society's other facades.
In comparison, our lives are not bad.
And I felt that we are really fortunate people.
To have a good family and kind parents.
Back from amk home visit.
Went to 2 students' homes.
Before we got to the first one, ruifang was telling me what her patients did in IMH.
It was to prepare my mentality when we went to visit the first student.
This is because her family has a history of schizoprenia.
Father is ~ so two daughters also abit ~
I was told that the last time someone visited them 2 years ago, the flat was in total darkness.
When we arrived at #02-12, there was a taller-than-us bookshelf-turned-shoe rack smacked right at their doorstep.
We were at a loss as the house was apparently uninhibited.
Right at this moment, their Indian neighbours was peering at what we were trying to do.
So we decided to ask them about the family's whereabouts.
Initially we were shocked to learn that the family had moved out 2 years ago and the flat had been unoccupied since then.
They told us that the family either moved to Woodlands...then corrected that they moved to SengKang. Lol.
The funniest thing was that they said the couple had two girls who are toddlers.
We were supposed to look for a 14 and 19-year old.
Then we realised that in our anxiety, we had read the address wrongly.
We had walked past the unit #02-16.
Lol.
I commented to Ruifang that it was a good sign that there appears to be light coming out of the translucent window.
And it really was not so bad as we had imagined.
A teenage girl, the younger 14-year old opened the door after some assurance that we are not some salesgirls.
In fact, judging from our conversation separated by the metal grille, (we were not allowed in) her family appears to be in a not-so-good situation, but at least everything about her appeared to be normal.
A 14-year old, enrolled in secondary 2 answering calls on her handphone occasionally.
However, our eyes did not miss the pair of legs peeking out from the door.
Our guess is that they belonged to her father's. As her father is rather ill.
I tried to take a closer view of the living room and realised that the house is rather spartan with old furnitures. Wah. this brings me to the question of how she got the money to acquire a rather new handphone. What about the bills?
Perhaps she shares it with her elder sis who should be working already.
I also did notice that her eyes were rather big but the way she looked at me is strange.
Friendly definitely...but strange.
Was it because that I got to know about her background so I tend to stereotype?
I don't know.
The second home was also in amk, but we had to take another bus from the interchange.
Quite near aj, in fact.
I met this girl before at a camp but don't really know her personally.
Haha. That time, I was in the treasury/admin com so I was supposed to collect money from the campers.
At that time I had no idea of her family's financial situation so I actually came up to her to collect the camp fees. She gave me a blur look. Then another person told me she didn't have to pay.
Now, having completed her Os and working at a bookstore, she looked different.
More confident and energetic than before.
Plus, she talked more too.
Maybe an additional income to the family really had helped.
I don't know much about her family.
But I can gathered that her dad must have caused trouble to the family.
Ruifang says that no matter how much we hate our parents, we must still be thankful to them cuz they gave us life.
It is our negative kharma.
Afterall, one of the debts of gratitude is one of to our parents.
Really hope that she can have the strength to do so.
Though it won't be easy to show compassion towards someone you dislike.
I guess it is good to home visit people sometimes.
I got to see more of the society's other facades.
In comparison, our lives are not bad.
And I felt that we are really fortunate people.
To have a good family and kind parents.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
// ushering the new year and new semester //
Can't believe it.. 2008 has arrived.
It seems like yesterday when people were getting excited at welcoming the new millenium.
Looking forward to many things....amongst them, the Beijing Olympics.
But it won't be so soon i guess.
In the new semester, I will "look forward" to computing and the expected, physics.
At the same time, I hope my electives will be interesting.
Impact of Chemistry on society and Fundamentals of social research.
Next sem, i must try to secure the Intro to psychology..
Hmm.. i don't know what else to write about.
Stuck.
Ok, anyway, for this week, we'll only be having lectures and no tutorials.
By the way, my latest days are until 4.30pm!
Haha. so happy =)
But so sian...got to give tuition at nights.
Blah.
Hope I can do better this sem.
At least a 4.0 man!
Jia you!
Physics... Grr ... I must conquer it!
Can't believe it.. 2008 has arrived.
It seems like yesterday when people were getting excited at welcoming the new millenium.
Looking forward to many things....amongst them, the Beijing Olympics.
But it won't be so soon i guess.
In the new semester, I will "look forward" to computing and the expected, physics.
At the same time, I hope my electives will be interesting.
Impact of Chemistry on society and Fundamentals of social research.
Next sem, i must try to secure the Intro to psychology..
Hmm.. i don't know what else to write about.
Stuck.
Ok, anyway, for this week, we'll only be having lectures and no tutorials.
By the way, my latest days are until 4.30pm!
Haha. so happy =)
But so sian...got to give tuition at nights.
Blah.
Hope I can do better this sem.
At least a 4.0 man!
Jia you!
Physics... Grr ... I must conquer it!
Friday, December 28, 2007
// sharing the same sentiments //
i hate physics.
physics hate me.
but the next sem I still need to study physics.
Till now I haven't known of anyone getting a worse grade than mine.
Why am I lamenting?
Perhaps I should be thankful that I did not have to re-take physics.
A big fat C for physics.
life science, materials science: B+
maths, lab, management: A-
Sem overall GPA: 3.8
all the hard work and toiling for 3 mths.
I really need to buck up!
i hate physics.
physics hate me.
but the next sem I still need to study physics.
Till now I haven't known of anyone getting a worse grade than mine.
Why am I lamenting?
Perhaps I should be thankful that I did not have to re-take physics.
A big fat C for physics.
life science, materials science: B+
maths, lab, management: A-
Sem overall GPA: 3.8
all the hard work and toiling for 3 mths.
I really need to buck up!
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
// the dreaded //
Ntu exam results will be out on 28 dec.
Thanks to Deb that I got to know this.
Anyway, It is very strange.
Ntu students took the exams first but Nus students got to know their results first.
Waiting for the bomb to drop on me.
The Physics bomb.
I'm hoping I won't flunk it cuz the consequences will be disastrous.
Ntu exam results will be out on 28 dec.
Thanks to Deb that I got to know this.
Anyway, It is very strange.
Ntu students took the exams first but Nus students got to know their results first.
Waiting for the bomb to drop on me.
The Physics bomb.
I'm hoping I won't flunk it cuz the consequences will be disastrous.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
// sick //
I forgot I was ill for how many days.
Sore throat turned flu turned fever.
Currently, I'm still nursing a flu and cough.
Recently, so many thoughts flooded my mind but I was simply too lazy to log in to post an entry.
Now, not that I lost the enthusiasm to blog but those thoughts became too vague in my current state of mind.
Something about time passes too quickly?
Humans are strange.
Humans like me.
When a new year comes around, people always thought that they have a lot of time to do the things they want.
However, when a year is about to end, people will think that a year has passed so quickly and there's still lots of stuff yet to be accomplished.
And I have grown old.
Imagine going to 20 years old.
2 decades.
Seems like a long time to me, hence I don't believe I've really lived through almost 20 years.
Truth be told, I still feel like a 10 year old.
Perhaps humans only start to experience life when they are of a certain age.
When people were young, they probably had not much collection of what they undergone.
And they were most likely being controlled by their parents anyway.
To me, from the very moment that you are able to decide something on your own, this is the very moment you start to experience life.
Don't know how true is this but this is my theory.
On a lighter note, my dad came back from China!
Luckily we didn't go to airport to receive him.
His flight was delayed due to technical problems.
That is really what you would expect from China Airlines.
I forgot I was ill for how many days.
Sore throat turned flu turned fever.
Currently, I'm still nursing a flu and cough.
Recently, so many thoughts flooded my mind but I was simply too lazy to log in to post an entry.
Now, not that I lost the enthusiasm to blog but those thoughts became too vague in my current state of mind.
Something about time passes too quickly?
Humans are strange.
Humans like me.
When a new year comes around, people always thought that they have a lot of time to do the things they want.
However, when a year is about to end, people will think that a year has passed so quickly and there's still lots of stuff yet to be accomplished.
And I have grown old.
Imagine going to 20 years old.
2 decades.
Seems like a long time to me, hence I don't believe I've really lived through almost 20 years.
Truth be told, I still feel like a 10 year old.
Perhaps humans only start to experience life when they are of a certain age.
When people were young, they probably had not much collection of what they undergone.
And they were most likely being controlled by their parents anyway.
To me, from the very moment that you are able to decide something on your own, this is the very moment you start to experience life.
Don't know how true is this but this is my theory.
On a lighter note, my dad came back from China!
Luckily we didn't go to airport to receive him.
His flight was delayed due to technical problems.
That is really what you would expect from China Airlines.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
// busy busy busy slack //
Yay! Today is the last day of my work!
Come to think of it, I was quite lucky at every place i worked.
As in my boss would always buy a lot of things to eat.
Take for example, this enrichment centre.
Last week, it was the principal's birthday hence I got to eat KFC.
Today, they had Christmas day celebration so I had the chance to stuff myself with pizzas, munchies, drumlets and garlic bread.
How sumptous!
For the past weeks I have been busy.
Work Tuition Audition
Last Saturday, It was on such a rare occasion that I was able to make it for 18/05 class outing.
Seriously I don't know how long I haven't seen my classmates.
Most probably since we've have gotten our A level results. lol.
Had a good time eating and chatting at Sakae Sushi.
Somehow, that day gave me a feeling that no one has changed since our JC years.
The girls, are still girls, always preferring to talk outside of academic work and delving into gossips and the latest fashion.
The guys, are still guys, always preferring to talk about army life and comparing varsities.
Anyway, that day was tiring becuz in the morning, I got out of the house at 8am for the Student Activity meeting, followed by giving tuition.
Sunday
So happy that the December Student Activity was a success!
That is my religious stuff.
I did not have the time to help out much but everyone did a great job!
Looking forward to making great strives in year 2008...
Rainy Monday
Met up with meiting and weiqi.
We went to...yea, you guessed it, Bugis St.
Shopping yea, but we were not impulsive buyers, believe me, I have seen really impulsive ones.
Supposed to go outdoors but...anyway, the weather disapproves too.
Found a nice top only when we have walked around..erm was it three rounds?
Perhaps we walked more than three rounds?
Anyway, next Monday, I'll be meeting them again.
It will be at Far East Plaza right?
Great let's see what they have there.
I was initially estatic about going for Pepper Lunch but currently I'm having a sore throat from the black pepper chicken pizza I ate in the afternoon so...
I really hope my throat will be healed by Monday!
Just got an SMS from sherlyn- Sengkang students outing tomorrow is cancelled.
Yay! Tomorrow is therefore, declared as "The Ultimate Slack Day"
My plan is to jog in the morning, followed by reading books and lots of gaming.
Now my dad is leaving with his luggage off to the airport...no, not running away from home...
He is off with his colleagues for the annual company tour, this time to China- Kunming, Yunnan, Li Jiang, Shangri-la.
Supposedly, my mum would be accompanying him but she fell ill yesterday and couldn't recover in time.
I guess, that is becuz she had the wrong Ichinen initially.
Ichinen~jap: first thought
At first, she was reluctant to go for the trip becuz she heard horror stories about how high the mountains at Li Jiang was, how low the oxygen level at Shangri-la was.
But humans always find themselves in a dilemma.
Since the trip was heavily subsidised by the company, it would be a waste if she didn't go.
Hence, my dad signed her up for the trip.
However, over the past two months, she had been changing her mind of going, lamenting that she'll feel giddy and nauseous at a place so high above the sea level.
Now that she fell sick, she is guilty that my dad would have to go alone without her.
Some humans are really strange creatures.
Yay! Today is the last day of my work!
Come to think of it, I was quite lucky at every place i worked.
As in my boss would always buy a lot of things to eat.
Take for example, this enrichment centre.
Last week, it was the principal's birthday hence I got to eat KFC.
Today, they had Christmas day celebration so I had the chance to stuff myself with pizzas, munchies, drumlets and garlic bread.
How sumptous!
For the past weeks I have been busy.
Work Tuition Audition
Last Saturday, It was on such a rare occasion that I was able to make it for 18/05 class outing.
Seriously I don't know how long I haven't seen my classmates.
Most probably since we've have gotten our A level results. lol.
Had a good time eating and chatting at Sakae Sushi.
Somehow, that day gave me a feeling that no one has changed since our JC years.
The girls, are still girls, always preferring to talk outside of academic work and delving into gossips and the latest fashion.
The guys, are still guys, always preferring to talk about army life and comparing varsities.
Anyway, that day was tiring becuz in the morning, I got out of the house at 8am for the Student Activity meeting, followed by giving tuition.
Sunday
So happy that the December Student Activity was a success!
That is my religious stuff.
I did not have the time to help out much but everyone did a great job!
Looking forward to making great strives in year 2008...
Rainy Monday
Met up with meiting and weiqi.
We went to...yea, you guessed it, Bugis St.
Shopping yea, but we were not impulsive buyers, believe me, I have seen really impulsive ones.
Supposed to go outdoors but...anyway, the weather disapproves too.
Found a nice top only when we have walked around..erm was it three rounds?
Perhaps we walked more than three rounds?
Anyway, next Monday, I'll be meeting them again.
It will be at Far East Plaza right?
Great let's see what they have there.
I was initially estatic about going for Pepper Lunch but currently I'm having a sore throat from the black pepper chicken pizza I ate in the afternoon so...
I really hope my throat will be healed by Monday!
Just got an SMS from sherlyn- Sengkang students outing tomorrow is cancelled.
Yay! Tomorrow is therefore, declared as "The Ultimate Slack Day"
My plan is to jog in the morning, followed by reading books and lots of gaming.
Now my dad is leaving with his luggage off to the airport...no, not running away from home...
He is off with his colleagues for the annual company tour, this time to China- Kunming, Yunnan, Li Jiang, Shangri-la.
Supposedly, my mum would be accompanying him but she fell ill yesterday and couldn't recover in time.
I guess, that is becuz she had the wrong Ichinen initially.
Ichinen~jap: first thought
At first, she was reluctant to go for the trip becuz she heard horror stories about how high the mountains at Li Jiang was, how low the oxygen level at Shangri-la was.
But humans always find themselves in a dilemma.
Since the trip was heavily subsidised by the company, it would be a waste if she didn't go.
Hence, my dad signed her up for the trip.
However, over the past two months, she had been changing her mind of going, lamenting that she'll feel giddy and nauseous at a place so high above the sea level.
Now that she fell sick, she is guilty that my dad would have to go alone without her.
Some humans are really strange creatures.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
//no reception//
there just isn't any reception on my mobile phone at my workplace.
i can't call or sms at all.
The past two days were totally DISASTROUS.
Today I was in-charge of 3 levels, P1, P2, P6 all in one classroom.
This was due to the fact that one teacher took half-day emergency leave and two other teachers went on an excursion with some of the kids.
The P1s were attention-seeking, the P2s were noisy and the P6 had finished their work long long ago.
Absolutely fabulous.
The kids say: Teacher likes to eat deep-fried eyeballs and drink lemon bloody.
I say: Yes, preferably, the donor is a primary 1-6 kid.
They say: Yewww!
The Truth: I can't wait to skin all of them alive!!!
FYI: Last week during science experiment, I accidentally burst a balloon and scared one of the P6s so much so that he jumped out of his chair and fell to the ground.
there just isn't any reception on my mobile phone at my workplace.
i can't call or sms at all.
The past two days were totally DISASTROUS.
Today I was in-charge of 3 levels, P1, P2, P6 all in one classroom.
This was due to the fact that one teacher took half-day emergency leave and two other teachers went on an excursion with some of the kids.
The P1s were attention-seeking, the P2s were noisy and the P6 had finished their work long long ago.
Absolutely fabulous.
The kids say: Teacher likes to eat deep-fried eyeballs and drink lemon bloody.
I say: Yes, preferably, the donor is a primary 1-6 kid.
They say: Yewww!
The Truth: I can't wait to skin all of them alive!!!
FYI: Last week during science experiment, I accidentally burst a balloon and scared one of the P6s so much so that he jumped out of his chair and fell to the ground.
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
//underground//
The enrichment centre is on the basement level.
Well, as I would have expected, a horrendous yesterday.
First day with the primary school kids can be well summed-up as horrendous.
At around 5pm, I thought I would never made it home.
It was "Fun with English" with the P2s, all of whom possess an enormous source of energy.
Plus, they had good lungs and diagphrams, which enabled them to render me almost DEAF.
Thanks to their screaming and shouting, they couldn't hear me.
I mean, it was 18 of them versus me.
Needless to say, it was totally havoc until a teacher two doors away, heard their screams and came into the classroom to take a look.
Her lungs was at least ten times more powerful than theirs.
Once overpowered, the P2s became cute, innocent faces again.
I totally admire the teachers there because they have the patience, the ability to control all the children and the knowledge to teach.
My first lesson was actually at 9am in the morning and it had gone relatively well.
The P5/6 class was smart and they did not scream at all.
However, some of them were too loud for their own good.
And, I was so "lucky" that one of the boys vomit a few drops of Milo on his paper.
Argh!!
Then, when it was nap time, one of the P2 boys woke up with a patch of redness on one of his cheeks because he had been sleeping on his RED file and had drooled.
Lol.
On the first day, I returned home with a backache.
Today, in the morning I met with my P5/6 again for "Write it well"
So they completed the work super fast and played their games.
I even played Deal or No Deal with them.
And I got a good deal!
In the afternoon, it was "IQ Math" with P3s.
They were super noisy. Less shouting than the terrible P2s though.
Hence I kept them with absolute silence inside the classroom even after they have completed their work.
It means no TV time for them!
I noticed that some of the P3s were rebellious.
On the second day, I returned home with a weak voice.
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to do the Science experiment "Needle through a balloon" with
the P5/6s and I'm fearing the worst will happen.
Afternoon, there is no class assigned to me and I hope I'll get a half-day off!
It is a tiring job that drains you of all your energy. (and voice)
Nevertheless, this is definitely more fun than a 9-5 office job due to the unpredictable and spontaneous nature of this job.
BUT I have to re-iterate the point that I have no wish to become a teacher.
Too tough for me.
The enrichment centre is on the basement level.
Well, as I would have expected, a horrendous yesterday.
First day with the primary school kids can be well summed-up as horrendous.
At around 5pm, I thought I would never made it home.
It was "Fun with English" with the P2s, all of whom possess an enormous source of energy.
Plus, they had good lungs and diagphrams, which enabled them to render me almost DEAF.
Thanks to their screaming and shouting, they couldn't hear me.
I mean, it was 18 of them versus me.
Needless to say, it was totally havoc until a teacher two doors away, heard their screams and came into the classroom to take a look.
Her lungs was at least ten times more powerful than theirs.
Once overpowered, the P2s became cute, innocent faces again.
I totally admire the teachers there because they have the patience, the ability to control all the children and the knowledge to teach.
My first lesson was actually at 9am in the morning and it had gone relatively well.
The P5/6 class was smart and they did not scream at all.
However, some of them were too loud for their own good.
And, I was so "lucky" that one of the boys vomit a few drops of Milo on his paper.
Argh!!
Then, when it was nap time, one of the P2 boys woke up with a patch of redness on one of his cheeks because he had been sleeping on his RED file and had drooled.
Lol.
On the first day, I returned home with a backache.
Today, in the morning I met with my P5/6 again for "Write it well"
So they completed the work super fast and played their games.
I even played Deal or No Deal with them.
And I got a good deal!
In the afternoon, it was "IQ Math" with P3s.
They were super noisy. Less shouting than the terrible P2s though.
Hence I kept them with absolute silence inside the classroom even after they have completed their work.
It means no TV time for them!
I noticed that some of the P3s were rebellious.
On the second day, I returned home with a weak voice.
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to do the Science experiment "Needle through a balloon" with
the P5/6s and I'm fearing the worst will happen.
Afternoon, there is no class assigned to me and I hope I'll get a half-day off!
It is a tiring job that drains you of all your energy. (and voice)
Nevertheless, this is definitely more fun than a 9-5 office job due to the unpredictable and spontaneous nature of this job.
BUT I have to re-iterate the point that I have no wish to become a teacher.
Too tough for me.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
//cloudy//
Well I can never be so glad sitting down and enjoying my beef ball spagetti.
Anyway, Angeline's hot fudge cake wasn't that hot, both literally and figuratively.
But the scoop of vanilla ice-cream on top was heavenly.
Better than Swensen's ice-cream I would say.
Yea! Yesterday met with Angeline and Crystal!
Crystal also brought her sis along.
It has been a long time since I caught up with them...maybe more than nine months?
Hmm..anyway they ate lunch at the Ma La (numb and spicy) steamboat at Liang Seah Street which I wasn't too keen cuz the soup looked quite..ok very spicy...imagine, full of chili padi.
Anyway, their threshold for spicy food definitely surpasses mine.
After which, we shopped at Bugis Street which luckily did not have so much people compared to during the weekends.
After which, we shopped at Bugis Street which luckily did not have so much people compared to during the weekends.
Haha. I have to say that though there were many things to look at, shopping at this place is really tiring.
Needless to say, I'll never be the first person to walk in front cuz to me, the whole place is simply a maze. (I mean a maze and not amazed)
I can just imagine myself as a rat going round and round desperately trying to find the exit.
x'mas tree at intercontinental hotel
The Great Golden Compass outside BHG
Anyway, after running around like rats (oops, pardon the weird phrase) we walked around Bugis Junction before surrendering to The Coffee Connoiseur (not sure about the spelling).
Actually, it was me who waved the white flag first cuz my poor legs were getting fatigue after the shop-about.
Well I can never be so glad sitting down and enjoying my beef ball spagetti.
I liked the way the spagetti was cooked and the cheesy, gummy taste.
The beef balls were too beefy for me though, if you know what I meant.
I'm really not quite a carnivore.
I'm really not quite a carnivore.
Anyway, Angeline's hot fudge cake wasn't that hot, both literally and figuratively.
But the scoop of vanilla ice-cream on top was heavenly.
Better than Swensen's ice-cream I would say.
Somehow, Crystal's Oreo cheese cake looked better than how it tasted.
Haha. I don't know why suddenly I'm analysing the food we ate.
I think it should because I have nothing much to do nowadays.
Except playing Audition Sea.
Seriously I don't why I'm addicted to it.
Anyway, tomorrow is a Saturday, there is the tuition marathon as always.
3 students in a day.
Saturday always got burnt just like that.
Sunday is religion's day.
Dreading the meeting cuz I simply don't have any idea how to interest the students.
The topic of religion is mostly alien to students.
Haiz.
Then come Monday it is my first day of work at an enrichment centre for primary students.
I remembered I e-mailed my application in June this year.
But it is only now in December that they accepted me.
Think about it, I quite dread the job too.
Imagine lots of kids screaming and shouting and prancing about.
I think I will faint.
Anyway, just got to tell myself that it is to occupy time during this one month holiday.
In addition, judging by the number of days the centre will be closed this month, I won't need to go down everyday too.
Best of all, the centre is rather near my place.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
//sunny!//
Yesterday was the first day of holiday!
Finally my exams are over!!!
I mean I really dislike the feeling of having to mug all day at my desk.
Of course I take a break sometimes but the feeling of trepidation is just too overwhelming.
Plus, I experience indigestion when sitting at my desk long periods of time.
Anyway, yesterday was also the first time I went ice-skating!
And, I have concluded that ice-skating is even more nerve-wrecking than taking exams.
Haha. I'm still very slow at skating 'cause I just can't balanced myself on the edge of the thin piece of metal stuck to the sole of the shoes.
Since I was the only first-timer, it was no surprise that I was the first to fall down.
But luckily it didn't hurt.
The ironic thing was they call me "coach" because of my jacket.
Thanks to jh and eunice for helping me to balance =)
Yw and wt were also happily skating. haha.
Hj was also learning...gleefully pushing jh around.
Yb was enjoying falling down more than ever. lol
As for lq, shopping is definitely more enjoyable than this right?
After the skating we went to IMM's coffee club for dinner.
Country pie was nice and not too filling.
Good because I didn't want to overload my stomach.
Anyway, I think everyone had a good time chilling (literally?) out.
Yesterday was the first day of holiday!
Finally my exams are over!!!
I mean I really dislike the feeling of having to mug all day at my desk.
Of course I take a break sometimes but the feeling of trepidation is just too overwhelming.
Plus, I experience indigestion when sitting at my desk long periods of time.
Anyway, yesterday was also the first time I went ice-skating!
And, I have concluded that ice-skating is even more nerve-wrecking than taking exams.
Haha. I'm still very slow at skating 'cause I just can't balanced myself on the edge of the thin piece of metal stuck to the sole of the shoes.
Since I was the only first-timer, it was no surprise that I was the first to fall down.
But luckily it didn't hurt.
The ironic thing was they call me "coach" because of my jacket.
Thanks to jh and eunice for helping me to balance =)
Yw and wt were also happily skating. haha.
Hj was also learning...gleefully pushing jh around.
Yb was enjoying falling down more than ever. lol
As for lq, shopping is definitely more enjoyable than this right?
After the skating we went to IMM's coffee club for dinner.
Country pie was nice and not too filling.
Good because I didn't want to overload my stomach.
Anyway, I think everyone had a good time chilling (literally?) out.
mse gang
Power Ranger Girls
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Monday, November 12, 2007
//sunny//
Yesss! finally I have managed to connect my laptop wirelessly to the Internet.
Yohoo~ Just can't imagine how much time and how many phone calls I made to get this done.
Step 1: Choose between a wireless router or a wireless modem router.
Step 2: Install the router. ( I had some problems with this)
Step3: Re-try installation process for a thousand times.
Step 3: Call the dealer to ask for technical assistance, but got the modem company's contact numbers instead
Step 4: Call ISP to clarify certain things
Step 5: Re-try installation for the millionth time--->Success!
Step 6: Power up laptop and detect wireless network
Yesss! finally I have managed to connect my laptop wirelessly to the Internet.
Yohoo~ Just can't imagine how much time and how many phone calls I made to get this done.
Step 1: Choose between a wireless router or a wireless modem router.
Step 2: Install the router. ( I had some problems with this)
Step3: Re-try installation process for a thousand times.
Step 3: Call the dealer to ask for technical assistance, but got the modem company's contact numbers instead
Step 4: Call ISP to clarify certain things
Step 5: Re-try installation for the millionth time--->Success!
Step 6: Power up laptop and detect wireless network
Thursday, November 01, 2007
// fake rain //
I can't control my laughter everytime I see my maths tutor doing something weird.
It seems that vimala also shares my sentiments.
It's bad! I shouldn't laugh anymore...
Everytime I see him panic, I feel like telling him to relax. haha.
I think, for teacher's day, we should buy him a set of transparency markers and pencil sharpener.
So he won't need to use thick blackboard markers on transparency sheets or use broken pencils.
Anyway, today, thanks to my mse pals, they gave me and liqing an advance birthday celebration today at Jurong Point.
Thanks for the present too...green is my favourite colour.
Hope the four leaf clover really brings me and Lq study luck.
No mood today to celebrate- I felt so full and heavy-headed after lunch.
Left around 10 mins to 2nd Nov! =)
I want peace.
I want freedom.
I want a place to hide from the exams.
I want to feel tired no more.
I want to travel no more.
Each day in school is a struggle to keep awake.
I can't control my laughter everytime I see my maths tutor doing something weird.
It seems that vimala also shares my sentiments.
It's bad! I shouldn't laugh anymore...
Everytime I see him panic, I feel like telling him to relax. haha.
I think, for teacher's day, we should buy him a set of transparency markers and pencil sharpener.
So he won't need to use thick blackboard markers on transparency sheets or use broken pencils.
Anyway, today, thanks to my mse pals, they gave me and liqing an advance birthday celebration today at Jurong Point.
Thanks for the present too...green is my favourite colour.
Hope the four leaf clover really brings me and Lq study luck.
No mood today to celebrate- I felt so full and heavy-headed after lunch.
Left around 10 mins to 2nd Nov! =)
I want peace.
I want freedom.
I want a place to hide from the exams.
I want to feel tired no more.
I want to travel no more.
Each day in school is a struggle to keep awake.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
// alternating between shine and rain //
Gosh I'm feeling super bloated right now.
Sometimes I just don't know what is happening to me.
Here am I feeling so full yet I'm craving for a snack, like those lying on the dining table.
A piece of strawberry chocolate, a banana, some raisins or a few rolled biscuits?
All seems to be equally tempting to me. (yes, even on a bloated stomach)
Perhaps it is due to my lack of discipline.
Oh my, I just went to close the window to keep off the second hand smoke (courtesy of my neighbour) when I spotted some colourful steamed kuehs on the coffee table.
Yes, my home is probably a *snackophile's haven.
Suddenly this realisation dawned upon me... that my lack of discipline IS the root of all my troubles.
Maybe I shouldn't have the belief that "people should have all the freedom to do what they want". Come to think of it, the whole world would be in chaos if this really come true!
Because of this belief, I chose blogging and surfing the internet now instead of mugging for my CAs in the upcoming week.
Because of this belief, I chose to talk back to my mum instead of heeding her advice.
Because of this belief, I chose to slack around instead of studying for the physics re-test.
Because of this belief, I thought that I shouldn't correct others even if what they did would hurt other people.
Although I do not know how other people like my family and my friends see me, I sort of get the feeling that they see me as a hardworking, serious and peace-loving type of person.
Surprisingly, I myself do not feel this way and have no qualms about telling people I'm not like what you think.
I am, in fact, a slacker trying to work hard.
Motivation... my dear friends have given me a lot...especially through this blog.
That is why I still have the strength to go on and not totally give up on myself.
What I lacked is really the intrinsic motivation that arises from within myself.
Anyway, at this point of my life, I yearn to fulfil my resolutions.
I seek to be more discipined, more self-motivated, better management of time and emotions.
And, of course, better organisation of thoughts.
In this entry, my thoughts are all scattered. I'm simply typing out what I feel and think at that very moment.
To borrow a phrase from one of Westlife's old songs, "To be a better (hu)man"
Today I was supposed to type a happy entry because my family held a (very) early birthday celebration for me.
That's why, with the dinner and cake, I was super full.
However, perhaps the guilt of being out the whole day had overwhelmed me.
I was supposed to be studying!
My slow progress: -Materials science not even touched yet,
- Physics (heat and optics) half way done
Don't even ask me anything about studying for the semestral exams.
I just want to focus on clearing this coming week's CAs first.
Anyway, I finally got my laptop!
It's a compaq model with good specifications.(intel core 2 duo T7300, 2GB ram, 160 HDD)
Came with a free printer (now I have 3 printers?!)
The harvey norman saleman threw in a webcam, PC-cilin software, optical mouse and 1 GB thumbdrive.
At $1999, I think it's quite a good deal.
Haha. I can't wait to use it!
*snackophile - a word invented by me- intuitively
Gosh I'm feeling super bloated right now.
Sometimes I just don't know what is happening to me.
Here am I feeling so full yet I'm craving for a snack, like those lying on the dining table.
A piece of strawberry chocolate, a banana, some raisins or a few rolled biscuits?
All seems to be equally tempting to me. (yes, even on a bloated stomach)
Perhaps it is due to my lack of discipline.
Oh my, I just went to close the window to keep off the second hand smoke (courtesy of my neighbour) when I spotted some colourful steamed kuehs on the coffee table.
Yes, my home is probably a *snackophile's haven.
Suddenly this realisation dawned upon me... that my lack of discipline IS the root of all my troubles.
Maybe I shouldn't have the belief that "people should have all the freedom to do what they want". Come to think of it, the whole world would be in chaos if this really come true!
Because of this belief, I chose blogging and surfing the internet now instead of mugging for my CAs in the upcoming week.
Because of this belief, I chose to talk back to my mum instead of heeding her advice.
Because of this belief, I chose to slack around instead of studying for the physics re-test.
Because of this belief, I thought that I shouldn't correct others even if what they did would hurt other people.
Although I do not know how other people like my family and my friends see me, I sort of get the feeling that they see me as a hardworking, serious and peace-loving type of person.
Surprisingly, I myself do not feel this way and have no qualms about telling people I'm not like what you think.
I am, in fact, a slacker trying to work hard.
Motivation... my dear friends have given me a lot...especially through this blog.
That is why I still have the strength to go on and not totally give up on myself.
What I lacked is really the intrinsic motivation that arises from within myself.
Anyway, at this point of my life, I yearn to fulfil my resolutions.
I seek to be more discipined, more self-motivated, better management of time and emotions.
And, of course, better organisation of thoughts.
In this entry, my thoughts are all scattered. I'm simply typing out what I feel and think at that very moment.
To borrow a phrase from one of Westlife's old songs, "To be a better (hu)man"
Today I was supposed to type a happy entry because my family held a (very) early birthday celebration for me.
That's why, with the dinner and cake, I was super full.
However, perhaps the guilt of being out the whole day had overwhelmed me.
I was supposed to be studying!
My slow progress: -Materials science not even touched yet,
- Physics (heat and optics) half way done
Don't even ask me anything about studying for the semestral exams.
I just want to focus on clearing this coming week's CAs first.
Anyway, I finally got my laptop!
It's a compaq model with good specifications.(intel core 2 duo T7300, 2GB ram, 160 HDD)
Came with a free printer (now I have 3 printers?!)
The harvey norman saleman threw in a webcam, PC-cilin software, optical mouse and 1 GB thumbdrive.
At $1999, I think it's quite a good deal.
Haha. I can't wait to use it!
*snackophile - a word invented by me- intuitively
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
// cool night //
For the physics re-test, guess how much I got?
48/100!
Pathetic right?
Seriously I wasn't surprised at all.
Just surprised that this time round, the prof replied to my friend's e-mail listing our names to request for the scores.
But then again, when I only needed 2 more marks to pass.
2 more. what a waste.
Come to think of it, it is quite strange why I should be struggling with mechanics when most of the stuff were covered in A levels.
Perhaps it's because the questions were really unfamiliar.
I think my brain must be rusty le.
Conclusion: Uni is tough! not slack.
I'm feeling the heat already.
Let that be a negative form of motivation. Pressure.
For the physics re-test, guess how much I got?
48/100!
Pathetic right?
Seriously I wasn't surprised at all.
Just surprised that this time round, the prof replied to my friend's e-mail listing our names to request for the scores.
But then again, when I only needed 2 more marks to pass.
2 more. what a waste.
Come to think of it, it is quite strange why I should be struggling with mechanics when most of the stuff were covered in A levels.
Perhaps it's because the questions were really unfamiliar.
I think my brain must be rusty le.
Conclusion: Uni is tough! not slack.
I'm feeling the heat already.
Let that be a negative form of motivation. Pressure.
Things to do:
By tomorrow: 5 Personal Learning Journals for management
By this week: Study for CA2s coming next week!
By this month: Study for semestral exams! (commencing from 14 -22nov)
Friday, October 19, 2007
//the intermittent rain//
Sometimes, this kind of rain that keeps stopping and resuming irritates me.
It seems like the rain can't make up its mind whether to rain or stop.
However, it shares the same kind of ambivalent attitude that I myself have.
According to the test I took, INFPs seems to be able to see the good side of a thing no matter how bad the situation turned out to be.
Thus INFPs may experience both positive and negative feelings towards a thing or person simultaneously.
That sounds like schizoprenic, isn't it?
haha.
Anyway, this week wasn't a good one for me.
I solemnly swear that the next time round, I will start on my formal lab report early.
That's the lesson I learnt.
While most others had the luxury of doing their lab report during the recess week, my group was quite unlucky to be the ones doing after the recess week.
Thinking that I still had all the time in the world to complete the report, I did nothing in the first week.
Then came the bomb: A re-test for physics
Argh. now I had to salvage my pathetic physics first...
In the end, I only started my 15-page report on saturday when it was due on monday.
Tough. I ended up with minimal sleep and the effect snowballed throughout the week.
Come to think of it, it is really my own doing that landed myself in this state.
Blame it on myself.
Yesterday, the life science lecture was cancelled and none of us was even informed of it beforehand.
Actually, many people already sensed something was amiss when the notes weren't uploaded onto the net.
In the end, in the evening, the prof mass e-mailed to everyone to apologise for his absence due to "unforseen circumstances" and that he'll put up last year's recorded lecture onto the net.
What is this man?!
After which, it was the dreary math lecture which I had unknowingly slept through half of it.
Argh, I didn't want to sleep through it at all!
You know how much sleep you are deprived of when the lecturer's voice becomes softer by the second and finally your ears simply shuts off. Then you have reach a state of concussion where your mind stops telling you that you are in a lecture hall.
After lessons, it was badminton with yv, wx and his friends.
I was such a lousy player.
Then, I learnt table-tennis from yv! yea. she's a school player. so pro right.
Table-tennis requires less stength to hit but it is really no easier than badminton.
On the whole, it was fun!
Finally, to end the day, I went for the mse club publications meeting.
Okay, I can't believe I'm officially inducted as a school magazine writer!
haha. It was too good to be true.
I simply replied to the recruitment e-mail they sent last week and crossed my fingers to hope for the best.
Yesterday, the editor e-mailed me that I got shortlisted.
Cool.
I hope this new school magazine would take off with a good start.
Sometimes, this kind of rain that keeps stopping and resuming irritates me.
It seems like the rain can't make up its mind whether to rain or stop.
However, it shares the same kind of ambivalent attitude that I myself have.
According to the test I took, INFPs seems to be able to see the good side of a thing no matter how bad the situation turned out to be.
Thus INFPs may experience both positive and negative feelings towards a thing or person simultaneously.
That sounds like schizoprenic, isn't it?
haha.
Anyway, this week wasn't a good one for me.
I solemnly swear that the next time round, I will start on my formal lab report early.
That's the lesson I learnt.
While most others had the luxury of doing their lab report during the recess week, my group was quite unlucky to be the ones doing after the recess week.
Thinking that I still had all the time in the world to complete the report, I did nothing in the first week.
Then came the bomb: A re-test for physics
Argh. now I had to salvage my pathetic physics first...
In the end, I only started my 15-page report on saturday when it was due on monday.
Tough. I ended up with minimal sleep and the effect snowballed throughout the week.
Come to think of it, it is really my own doing that landed myself in this state.
Blame it on myself.
Yesterday, the life science lecture was cancelled and none of us was even informed of it beforehand.
Actually, many people already sensed something was amiss when the notes weren't uploaded onto the net.
In the end, in the evening, the prof mass e-mailed to everyone to apologise for his absence due to "unforseen circumstances" and that he'll put up last year's recorded lecture onto the net.
What is this man?!
After which, it was the dreary math lecture which I had unknowingly slept through half of it.
Argh, I didn't want to sleep through it at all!
You know how much sleep you are deprived of when the lecturer's voice becomes softer by the second and finally your ears simply shuts off. Then you have reach a state of concussion where your mind stops telling you that you are in a lecture hall.
After lessons, it was badminton with yv, wx and his friends.
I was such a lousy player.
Then, I learnt table-tennis from yv! yea. she's a school player. so pro right.
Table-tennis requires less stength to hit but it is really no easier than badminton.
On the whole, it was fun!
Finally, to end the day, I went for the mse club publications meeting.
Okay, I can't believe I'm officially inducted as a school magazine writer!
haha. It was too good to be true.
I simply replied to the recruitment e-mail they sent last week and crossed my fingers to hope for the best.
Yesterday, the editor e-mailed me that I got shortlisted.
Cool.
I hope this new school magazine would take off with a good start.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
//rainy day//
Recently I had this management lecture which discusses about the myer-bridges personality test. Last time, I had done a shorter free version at haleonline.com but now the site is charging 99 cents! So I decided to check out other websites.
INFP
Introverted Feeling
INFPs live primarily in a rich inner world of introverted Feeling. Being inward-turning, the natural attraction is away from world and toward essence and ideal. This introversion of dominant Feeling, receiving its data from extraverted intuition, must be the source of the quixotic nature of these usually gentle beings. Feeling is caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same. The "object," be it homo sapiens or a mere representation of an organism, is valued only to the degree that the object contains some measure of the inner Essence or greater Good. Doing a good deed, for example, may provide intrinsic satisfaction which is only secondary to the greater good of striking a blow against Man's Inhumanity to Mankind.
Extraverted iNtuition
Extraverted intuition faces outward, greeting the world on behalf of Feeling. What the observer usually sees is creativity with implied good will. Intuition spawns this type's philosophical bent and strengthens pattern perception. It combines as auxiliary with introverted Feeling and gives rise to unusual skill in both character development and fluency with language--a sound basis for the development of literary facility. If INTPs aspire to word mechanics, INFPs would be verbal artists.
Introverted Sensing
Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling's strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect. This introverted Sensing is somewhat categorical, a subdued version of SJ sensing. In the third position, however, it is easily overridden by the stronger functions.
Extraverted Thinking
The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy. The inferior, problematic nature of Extraverted Thinking is its lack of context and proportion. Single impersonal facts may loom large or attain higher priority than more salient principles which are all but overlooked.
Famous INFPs:
William Shakespeare,
Wadsworth Longfellow
A. A. Milne (Winnie the Pooh)
Laura Ingalls Wilder (Little House on the Prairie)
Helen Keller, deaf and blind author
Carl Rogers, reflective psychologist,
counselorFred Rogers
Donna Reed, actor (It's a Wonderful Life)J
vocalistTom Brokaw
news anchorJames Herriot
Julia Roberts, actor (Conspiracy Theory, Pretty Woman)
Amy Tan (author of The Joy-Luck Club, The Kitchen God's Wife)
John F. Kennedy
Fictional INFPs:
Anne (Anne of Green Gables)
Calvin (Calvin and Hobbes)
Troi (Star Trek - The Next Generation)
Wesley Crusher (Star Trek - The Next Generation)
Doctor Julian Bashir (Star Trek: Deep Space 9)
E.T.: the ExtraTerrestrial
Tommy, Rug Rats cartoons
Jung Career Indicator
YOUR TYPE
INFP
Strength of the preferences %
44, 50, 12, 22
Career Choices for Your Type
Perception -50Processing -12Implementation -22
Jung Career Indicator determines careers most suitable for your type from personality type standpoint. Based on your personality type, the following is a list of your most suitable occupations along with some educational institutions, where you can receive a relevant degree or training.
Career: Educational Institutions, Social Service, Counseling, Religious Education
Education: Art/Science, Humanities, Web Design, Musician, Literature/Writer, Archaeology, Health Care, Psychology, Psychotherapist
uh-oh, according to this, it seems like I've entered the wrong course for my personality.
Recently I had this management lecture which discusses about the myer-bridges personality test. Last time, I had done a shorter free version at haleonline.com but now the site is charging 99 cents! So I decided to check out other websites.
INFP
Introverted Feeling
INFPs live primarily in a rich inner world of introverted Feeling. Being inward-turning, the natural attraction is away from world and toward essence and ideal. This introversion of dominant Feeling, receiving its data from extraverted intuition, must be the source of the quixotic nature of these usually gentle beings. Feeling is caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same. The "object," be it homo sapiens or a mere representation of an organism, is valued only to the degree that the object contains some measure of the inner Essence or greater Good. Doing a good deed, for example, may provide intrinsic satisfaction which is only secondary to the greater good of striking a blow against Man's Inhumanity to Mankind.
Extraverted iNtuition
Extraverted intuition faces outward, greeting the world on behalf of Feeling. What the observer usually sees is creativity with implied good will. Intuition spawns this type's philosophical bent and strengthens pattern perception. It combines as auxiliary with introverted Feeling and gives rise to unusual skill in both character development and fluency with language--a sound basis for the development of literary facility. If INTPs aspire to word mechanics, INFPs would be verbal artists.
Introverted Sensing
Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling's strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect. This introverted Sensing is somewhat categorical, a subdued version of SJ sensing. In the third position, however, it is easily overridden by the stronger functions.
Extraverted Thinking
The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy. The inferior, problematic nature of Extraverted Thinking is its lack of context and proportion. Single impersonal facts may loom large or attain higher priority than more salient principles which are all but overlooked.
Famous INFPs:
William Shakespeare,
Wadsworth Longfellow
A. A. Milne (Winnie the Pooh)
Laura Ingalls Wilder (Little House on the Prairie)
Helen Keller, deaf and blind author
Carl Rogers, reflective psychologist,
counselorFred Rogers
Donna Reed, actor (It's a Wonderful Life)J
vocalistTom Brokaw
news anchorJames Herriot
Julia Roberts, actor (Conspiracy Theory, Pretty Woman)
Amy Tan (author of The Joy-Luck Club, The Kitchen God's Wife)
John F. Kennedy
Fictional INFPs:
Anne (Anne of Green Gables)
Calvin (Calvin and Hobbes)
Troi (Star Trek - The Next Generation)
Wesley Crusher (Star Trek - The Next Generation)
Doctor Julian Bashir (Star Trek: Deep Space 9)
E.T.: the ExtraTerrestrial
Tommy, Rug Rats cartoons
Jung Career Indicator
YOUR TYPE
INFP
Strength of the preferences %
44, 50, 12, 22
Career Choices for Your Type
Perception -50Processing -12Implementation -22
Jung Career Indicator determines careers most suitable for your type from personality type standpoint. Based on your personality type, the following is a list of your most suitable occupations along with some educational institutions, where you can receive a relevant degree or training.
Career: Educational Institutions, Social Service, Counseling, Religious Education
Education: Art/Science, Humanities, Web Design, Musician, Literature/Writer, Archaeology, Health Care, Psychology, Psychotherapist
uh-oh, according to this, it seems like I've entered the wrong course for my personality.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
//cloudy gloom//
Just as I thought CA week was over, this week brings another 3 tests in all.
management on monday, maths today and physics tomorrow.
Ya. The physics re-test.
Weird timing: 7-9pm.
I wish I could have started everything earlier.
Like studying for physics test and formal lab report.
Becuz I've suddenly lost my motivation to do anything.
Even blogging.
My lecturer, Dr Ko, said before that if you lost the interest in doing something that was once pleasurable, it is most likely that you suffer from depression.
I think I'm mildly depressed.
The slacking bug recently invaded my life.
I mean, sure, I had to give extra tuition to my tutees due to their exams and to do a draft for management report.
But I know those are just EXCUSES.
Truth is, I've slacked.
I can only prepare for the worst tomorrow.
Haiz.
Anyway, I still don't know what I got for the nightmarish physics CA the previous time.
Since some people e-mailed the prof to ask about their marks, I thought I should ask about it too.
To know how bad I flunked it.
Maybe it was the tone of my e-mail or maybe he wasn't in a good mood.
The prof refuses to tell me my marks!!
Argh. What is this?
I emailed him yesterday 10+pm
My friend did it at around 12am.
Yet the replies were different!
The reply I got: Sorry I can't possibly check for everyone.
The reply my friend got: XX/100
You see, it's SO unfair!
My thoughts were that if I know my horrendous marks, I would have the motivation to study for the re-test.
Surely he doesn't have the right to withhold my marks from me but tell others what they got!
Argh. I'm so angry.
I absolutely hate discrimination.
Fine, I will NOT e-mail him again.
By the way, my studies is in a total mess right now.
I kept lagging.. and there's no end to it.
I simply don't have the discipline to keep away from the TV.
Plus, I don't have the mood to study.
In other words, I have low intrinsic motivation.
Low stress + low pressure + bad time management ----> low productivity----> low quality and quantity of work
I remembered Mr Chio told me in J1 that I need to find a study method that works for me.
It has been almost 3 years and I haven't found it yet.
Why??
Also, I sort of find myself travelling for 1/2 of the day.
I am tired of travelling to and fro.
Absolutely tired.
What makes it worse is that I am tired but I can't sleep properly on the bus or mrt.
Even taking afternoon naps at home is impossible.
The only time I can sleep is during lectures and at night at home.
The drone of the lecurers' voices, esp physics and life science, provides the sleep-inducing effect.
The silence of the night makes me sleep easily too.
But I should not be sleeping during lectures!
Can anyone provide me with a remedy for my problems?
That's all.
I need to force myself to study for physics now.
Haiz.
Just as I thought CA week was over, this week brings another 3 tests in all.
management on monday, maths today and physics tomorrow.
Ya. The physics re-test.
Weird timing: 7-9pm.
I wish I could have started everything earlier.
Like studying for physics test and formal lab report.
Becuz I've suddenly lost my motivation to do anything.
Even blogging.
My lecturer, Dr Ko, said before that if you lost the interest in doing something that was once pleasurable, it is most likely that you suffer from depression.
I think I'm mildly depressed.
The slacking bug recently invaded my life.
I mean, sure, I had to give extra tuition to my tutees due to their exams and to do a draft for management report.
But I know those are just EXCUSES.
Truth is, I've slacked.
I can only prepare for the worst tomorrow.
Haiz.
Anyway, I still don't know what I got for the nightmarish physics CA the previous time.
Since some people e-mailed the prof to ask about their marks, I thought I should ask about it too.
To know how bad I flunked it.
Maybe it was the tone of my e-mail or maybe he wasn't in a good mood.
The prof refuses to tell me my marks!!
Argh. What is this?
I emailed him yesterday 10+pm
My friend did it at around 12am.
Yet the replies were different!
The reply I got: Sorry I can't possibly check for everyone.
The reply my friend got: XX/100
You see, it's SO unfair!
My thoughts were that if I know my horrendous marks, I would have the motivation to study for the re-test.
Surely he doesn't have the right to withhold my marks from me but tell others what they got!
Argh. I'm so angry.
I absolutely hate discrimination.
Fine, I will NOT e-mail him again.
By the way, my studies is in a total mess right now.
I kept lagging.. and there's no end to it.
I simply don't have the discipline to keep away from the TV.
Plus, I don't have the mood to study.
In other words, I have low intrinsic motivation.
Low stress + low pressure + bad time management ----> low productivity----> low quality and quantity of work
I remembered Mr Chio told me in J1 that I need to find a study method that works for me.
It has been almost 3 years and I haven't found it yet.
Why??
Also, I sort of find myself travelling for 1/2 of the day.
I am tired of travelling to and fro.
Absolutely tired.
What makes it worse is that I am tired but I can't sleep properly on the bus or mrt.
Even taking afternoon naps at home is impossible.
The only time I can sleep is during lectures and at night at home.
The drone of the lecurers' voices, esp physics and life science, provides the sleep-inducing effect.
The silence of the night makes me sleep easily too.
But I should not be sleeping during lectures!
Can anyone provide me with a remedy for my problems?
That's all.
I need to force myself to study for physics now.
Haiz.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
//in the sweltering heat//
The weather today was hot!
I drank lots of plain water, ate an ice-cream cone, had a cup of bandung and strawberry milk tea!
Yesterday was the first day bus service 179A was in use.
It travels the same route as 179, just that it doesn't stop at any bus-stops except those at NTU itself.
I shouldn't have taken it on the first day itself cuz just like computer softwares and tech devices like MP3, the first version surely contain problems and the subsequent ones would be ok.
I guess it's SBS's strategy of not making the berth too crowded hence both 179 and 179A are currently in different waiting berths.
Anyway, I forgot the new service started on mon.
Becuz there were so many bus queues in the morning so I sort of found myself on way to the berth of 179A.
The first day saw 179A rendered useless becuz the frequency of 179 itself was even faster.
Hmm. like while I was patiently waiting for 179A, three 179 buses had gone off.
oh well.
a lesson learnt.
Returning to sch on the first day, as usual, was a blue monday.
Well, except that I got to wear lab coat for the lab lesson.
And goggles and mask. Cool!
Two major things coming up.
Formal lab report and motivation report drafts, on top of tutorials.
Oh ya, another thing, our phy lecturer thought that some people, like me, screwed up their CA1 so there's gonna be a voluntary make-up test NEXT FRI. (I haven't got back my paper but i'm totally sure the results would be horrendous)
Shocking! Not much time left to prepare.
I remember telling some people some time ago that uni life is slack.
Now I shall take back my words.
The weather today was hot!
I drank lots of plain water, ate an ice-cream cone, had a cup of bandung and strawberry milk tea!
Yesterday was the first day bus service 179A was in use.
It travels the same route as 179, just that it doesn't stop at any bus-stops except those at NTU itself.
I shouldn't have taken it on the first day itself cuz just like computer softwares and tech devices like MP3, the first version surely contain problems and the subsequent ones would be ok.
I guess it's SBS's strategy of not making the berth too crowded hence both 179 and 179A are currently in different waiting berths.
Anyway, I forgot the new service started on mon.
Becuz there were so many bus queues in the morning so I sort of found myself on way to the berth of 179A.
The first day saw 179A rendered useless becuz the frequency of 179 itself was even faster.
Hmm. like while I was patiently waiting for 179A, three 179 buses had gone off.
oh well.
a lesson learnt.
Returning to sch on the first day, as usual, was a blue monday.
Well, except that I got to wear lab coat for the lab lesson.
And goggles and mask. Cool!
Two major things coming up.
Formal lab report and motivation report drafts, on top of tutorials.
Oh ya, another thing, our phy lecturer thought that some people, like me, screwed up their CA1 so there's gonna be a voluntary make-up test NEXT FRI. (I haven't got back my paper but i'm totally sure the results would be horrendous)
Shocking! Not much time left to prepare.
I remember telling some people some time ago that uni life is slack.
Now I shall take back my words.
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