This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.7
Mind:	6.9
Body:	8.4
Spirit:	7.5
Friends/Family:	3.5
Love:	0
Finance:	5.5
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Your Life Analysis:

Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score leaves room for improvement. (I'll be a saint if I have a perfect life) You can make changes to improve your trouble areas, and this will bring you greater satisfaction. Focus on your weakest points and set about to change them. Do not delay your happiness and success.

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have an excellent body score, which means you are incredibly focused on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Continue in that focus, and your body will remain healthy and strong.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score suffers, yet it does not need to be this way. ( I think it's perfectly fine) Strengthen your social network by reaffirming old bonds. Seek out new friendships, and they will provide you the reward you need. Try using MeetUp.com to find people near you who share your interests.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope. (well, thanks, but I haven't)

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your finances are somewhat in the middle, neither bad or exceptional. Keep doing what works for you, and improve what doesn't. Focus on long-term financial stability as your goal.(Ah, yes, I need more cash)

This is my 97th post... Yippie! I'll reach 100 before the year ends!

// why does the weather keep changing? //

wow... just realised I haven't blogged for nearly a month.
well, about nearly a month ago, I thought I couldn't live without the Internet, but after all the self-psycho-ing (er, u get what I mean) I managed to abandon the habit for almost a month. The work of willpower.
At the same time, I deserted my handphone at the most unnoticeable place and only checked it twice daily.
Erm...so habits die hard and I may appeared to be "missing in action" even after the A levels.
Sigh. So I shall cross my fingers and hope that all that I did was worth it.

It seems like after the As, everything came charging at me.
Firstly came the expected, tidying the mess I created during the exams.
It is just a surprise that mum did not scold me. haha.
She simply said: "Tidy your stuff, no need to pack them in the store room, you'll never know when you might need them" (Oh-oh..is that a bad omen)

Then, for Saturday and Sunday, I went to the Propagation Centre to attend student and youth meetings. (FYI : the PC is the place my family and I go for religious teachings and practice) haha. so hardworking right.
I'm supposed to lead a group of about 25 students to the camp in Dec.
Sigh. Sherlyn doesn't know me well. If she had, she wouldn't put my name down.
Anyone seen me lead before? No right? I'm dead.

Ok... as for now, I'm busy looking for a holiday job, will-be busy with the camp stuff, looking forward to my new specs, looking for good books to read, and...back to blogging. (back to life =)

// PSI reads 73 but I think it's like 150//

Recently, there is this highly publicised suicide case involving a man jumping off the platform at Chinese Gardens MRT.
Sad, I would say, when financial help begins to pour in only when a person dies.
This just brings attention to the issue whether the government is doing enough to help the poor.
Usually, only after a case garnered such media attention, community self-help groups or other agencies would come out to defend themselves, saying that they did not receive any application for help from the family.
Another case I would think of is the incident whereby an undergraduate resorted to robbery to pay his university school fees.

There are 2 good reasons I can think of why people are reluctant to approach the respective self-help groups.

1. They are too ashamed of their situation and do not want others to know.
Many articles on this particular suicide case have cited this reason. Doesn't it mean that there is no care in this society?
Everybody doing their own business do not even bother about other people. You have no idea what your neighbour is doing and you have never been to their home. As long as you have your leather sofa, LCD TVs, home theatre systems, who cares about what your neighbour has? Thus, I think the blame should not be blamed solely on the family who have failed to gather help. Instead of the government heaping more help on the poor, relationships between neighbours should be promoted. However this may be difficult as even the family unit may not be as closed-knit nowadays.

2. Singapore, as one of the world's most uncorrupted countries, values evidence and proofs.
However, there may be certain loop-holes as it would be hard to prove that you are so penniless that you have been surviving on instant noodles everyday for who knows how long. If i'm not wrong, there is certain regulations that make it easier for people to upgrade their homes, say for example, from a four-room to a five room flat, and harder for people to downgrade. Well, this sort of regulation probabbly exist for a good reason but it certainly would not do the poor any justice. Many financial helping schemes probabbly requires a look at the size of your home. In addition, there are so many requirements to meet, they probabbly serve to deter people from getting the approval, rather than to serve as a platform for the poor to receive help.

// A little rain to clear the haze //

People say that when you have done your best, you will have no regrets.
Can anyone tell me what is best?

Received mel's e-mail some days ago.
I understood it fully.
It is something I'm trying to deceive myself of.
People are always superficial in front of others.
So why do I expect others to be true to themselves and other people?
It is definitely an impossible task.
Accepting superficiality of people would probabbly be a better choice.
I wish I can be less idealistic.

//haze-reduced visibility to under 5 km//

Silence is golden.
But what can gold buy?
Gold can buy smiles and laughter.
But it cannot buy happiness, nor an A level cert.

PM Lee calls for responsible journalism which will help improve the lives of people

Mr Lee was speaking at the 7th Asian-European Editors' Forum.
Citing Japan, Mr Lee said that it has been very successful at improving people's lives without an aggressive media.
He said: "Their approach is different from the Western one but it suits Japan's culture and circumstances and has contributed to Japan's success. As with the political system, in the media too, each country will have to evolve its own model of the media that works for it."
Mr Lee said that even in this Internet age, there will still be a role for serious journalism.
That's because people still want information sources which are reliable and insightful.
Using Singapore as an example, Mr Lee said that the government manages the Internet with a light touch but still applies the same defamation and sedition laws to it.
And the government is mindful of the increasing impact of the new and changing technology.
Mr Lee said: "Our position will evolve as we feel our way forward, but we do not believe that we should just drift with the tide. We still need anchor points that reflect our values, our vulnerabilities and our ambitions.
"The media in Singapore must adapt to these changes, do their best to stay relevant and continue to contribute constructively to nation building."
As economies develop, Mr Lee emphasised the need for good governance.
Mr Lee added that as new generations come of age, they will want to have more say in their countries' affairs.
"Leaders must be able to respond creatively to this new situation and political systems must evolve to remain effective. Each country, including Singapore, will have to make changes in its own way and strike its own point of balance, taking into account its unique circumstances," he said.
Mr Lee said Asian countries face major challenges despite the positive economic outlook.
But groupings like ASEAN and the Asia-Europe Summit Meetings can help establish greater relations and encourage dialogues.
Mr Lee said: "ASEAN aims to be the centre of these networks of cooperation both within Asia, between Asia and Europe, as well as the Pacific with the US. But to play this role, ASEAN must also be a strong and cohesive organisation, able to partner China and India effectively."
Mr Lee was addressing some 40 international editors from countries like China and France.
When asked during a question and answer session about Temasek Holdings' deal with ShinCorp, Mr Lee said it was a commercial decision which also reflected Singapore's confidence in Thailand's economy.
He added that Temasek complied with the rules and requirements of Thailand when inking the deal.
On Mr Lee wanting to build a more open society, a German editor asked why that was not reflected in Singapore's treatment towards civil society organisations during the International Monetary Fund-World Bank Meetings here recently.
Mr Lee said Singapore allows views to be articulated, at the same time, ensuring a stable and honest political system.
He explained why certain civil society representatives were barred from entering Singapore, citing one who had run-ins with the law in other countries.
He said: "There was one chap who had broken into the World Bank offices in Washington and stolen confidential documents and had gone to Seattle and broken some other laws. And he had every intention of coming here to do no good.
"Why should I allow him in? So we said, these, we have to vet one by one. It became an issue so we said, 'all right, if you vouch for them, I'll let most of them in but these last 5, I want to make absolutely sure they're not going to cause trouble here'. I think that's quite reasonable.
"I don't mind anybody coming to have a dialogue, debate, conversation. But I don't see why I should have a riot as happened in Prague in 2000 or in Hong Kong in 2005, last year, at the WTO Meeting. That's not democracy." - CNA/ir

//evaluation//
-erm...fret not, I think the media here is very loyal to the govt. haha.
so there will still be the so-called "responsible media" for years to come... that is discounting online media and printed newsletters by WP and CSJ.
-oh..sure we are all so lucky to have such a kind govt who protects our peace and stability so much... but one wonders if such policy has made s'poreans become frogs in the well...
-as stated, riot is not equal to democracy? hmm... then it means that we are the best example of democracy?

// hazy but can still see the moon //

Mooncake festival!
Quite dumb, but when I was eating mooncake just now I was thinking about Zhu Yuan Zhang, and the history of mooncake.
Thanks to this great man, we got to savour mooncakes on this day.
Ok lah, no holiday, but it's something to look forward to every year.
Well.. I can't make a choice between traditional skin or iced skin, can't live without both =p

Anyway, enough said about that...
prelims results were back last week and I got CDE C5
an improvement from mid yr but no change from promos..
ok, it's impossible to get to uni with this kind of results..
so just got to work harder and cross my fingers.
Either I get into uni or try appealing into MI.
At worst, just be a private candidate next yr.
No fear.

//rain is threatening to pour again//

Ominous hung in the air.
Just feel like banging the head against the wall so that I can skipped the prelims and hopefully the As.
Sounds dangerous I know and I'm not going to succumb to that temptation.
Does working hard pays?
And, what if people started the marathon early and you start only when the race is ending?

You Are 35% Left Brained, 65% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Meatball Pizza

Unusual and uncompromising. You're usually the first to discover a new trend. You appreciate a good meal and good company. You're an interesting blend of traditional and modern.

What's Your Pizza Personality?

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world. And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don't always use it! The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

What Color Is Your Aura?

You Are From Pluto

You are a dark, mysterious soul, full of magic and the secrets of the universe. You can get the scoop on anything, but you keep your own secrets locked in your heart. You love change and you use it to your advantage, whether by choice or chance. You don't like to compromise, to the point of being self-destructive with your stubborness. Live life with love, and your deep powers will open the world to you.

What Planet Are You From?

Great..i'm a dwarf.

// cloudy //

Last Saturday, well, haha.. ended up watching "Lovewrecked" when we wanted to watch "The Devil Wears Prada"
That's how it goes when you meet Christy. Unexpected things always happens.
Anyway, IT was a pretty comical show...and in my opinion, something taken out from the story books we girls used to read...like the BSC series or Sweet Valley.
A teenage girl met her fav rock star at a Carribean Islands resort she was doing vacation work at. Then she became disillusioned and actually erm.. sort of kidnapped or should I say, star-napped the rock star. [don't ask me how it happen, it just did]
Then, there was this sort of catfight between her and her nemesis.
Well...then just before things get out of control, she decided to speak the truth.
I think the scriptwriter is really good, peppering the entire show with humour, but I can't say the same for the story writer. The story is really incredulous and hard to believe.
But, well, just enjoy the movie without cracking your brains and wasting the brain cells that you'll need for this period of time before and during THE prelims.
Be sure to choose a threatre that is not too cold so you wouldn't bolt out of the door once the show is over and then miss the best part of the show- the credits (otherwise known as the fate of the rock star :)

// Soaking wet socks //

I shall always remember what my sec sch phy teacher once said to the class, "Time flies"
It is such a simple phrase, yet seemed so meaningful because the words came from him at the time when the O level prelims were nearing.
Time is such a strange thing, it goes on and on forever… that is, until Armageddon.
Time allows you create memories; at the same time it erases others.
My phy teacher was transferred to another sch barely a year after he made that statement.
Time allows you to plan ahead your schedule, yet it reveals the unpredictable nature of life.
To me, It seemed like yesterday that my phy teacher talk to the class.
However, in reality, I’m now facing the A level prelims in a week or so.
Time seems to come to a standstill sometimes; at other times, it seems to pass by with the blink of an eye.
Learn to treasure what you have now and don't look back with regrets.
Give the world the best you have.

// we are living in an unfair world and... am I socio-phobic?//

I was having this heated debate with mum that day.
Actually, my initial intent was to complain about the stereotyping of how girls/guys should behave.
Basically, from my own observations, it's like this:
It is perfectly alright for guys to go on their own. It means they are independent individuals. (du 2 li 4)
However, if a girl goes on their own, It is deemed as weird. IT means they are anti-social. (gu 1 du 2)
In Chinese, both words share the same word, du 2, but convey different meanings.
ah. the beauty of the language.
The thing is, my mum was bearing grudges with me for my dislike for group activities and becoming isolated from everyone in the world.
No man is an island.
But I seriously see nothing wrong with what i'm doing.
I enjoy the freedom of being alone because when I'm with others, I'll have to remind myself constantly to think of other people's feelings.
It's tiring.
I know I seem anti-social but sometimes, I have to concede that having company could be great.
Just like what GP teaches us, It's unwise to have too extreme views. Balance!

Your EQ is 107

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

You Are a Auditory Learner

You tend to remember what you hear, and you have a knack for speaking well. You excel at debating, foreign languages, and music. You would be an excellent diplomat - or rock star!

What's Your Learning Style?

excel at debating....wad nonsense?!

You Will Die at Age 82

Congratulations! You take good care of yourself. You're poised to live a long, healthy life.

What Age Will You Die?

82? can't imagine it, man

You Should Be a Science Fiction Writer

Your ideas are very strange, and people often wonder what planet you're from. And while you may have some problems being "normal," you'll have no problems writing sci-fi. Whether it's epic films, important novels, or vivid comics... Your own little universe could leave an important mark on the world!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

// sun, sea, sand and fun! //

It has been a long, long time since i went to a beach.
And an even longer time since i went to Sentosa.
Went kayaking. 1st time ok. Haha.
At least i'm safe. And mel kept laughing at me.
it's not hilarious to me at all cause i don't want to fall into water.
yi ling actually don't want to get wet too.
But in the end we all did.
But not as wet as the guys. LOL.

I daresay everyone had fun.
Who wouldn't have fun when you are immersed in an island of sun, sea, and sandy beaches?
Just makes you forget your troubles, your ambitions, your fears and hopes.
In Sentosa, you know that all you want to do is to relax and slack.
I almost forgot about the A- levels too. Hee.

But the truth hits hard when you reached home, facing your pile of undone homework which begin to pile up because your teachers use your 2-day holiday as an excuse to give more.
Luckily you have got your sunburnt skin to remind you of the fun you had.
You thought that you were so tired that you had to rest. But in actual fact you were never as energetic as now.
Gosh. Experience the power of unwinding.

Your Japanese Name Is...

Mayoko Kajuji

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's Your Power Color?

// 2 weeks into the aftermath of PTM //

people say that time can heal.
it really did.
i'm not as depressed as i was 2 weeks ago.
thanks to the people who have encouraged me.

now it's time to celebrate our nation's 41st birthday!
this year's NDP song is sung by Kaira GOng.
I think its not catchy enough.

My all-time favourite NDP song is by Tanya Chua-


Where I Belong
Morning comes around and I can't wait to see my sunny island
In its glorious greenery, whether rain or shine, it's still beautiful
Bright lights shine on the streets and night guiding me closer to home
To a place where I'll be safe and warm where I belong

Friends and families by my side seeing me through as I grow and learn
Everyday's experience, bitter, sweet or sour, they are still wonderful
As they become precious memories, they'll be kept close to my heart
And no matter where I am I will always know where I belong

Where I belong, where I keep my heart & soul
Where dreams come true for us
Where we walk together hand in hand
Towards a future so bright

Where I belong, where I keep my heart & soul
Where we are one big family
I want the whole world to know, I want to shout it out loud
That this is where I know I belong

don't u just find the song catchy and touching at the same time?

// Dark Friday//

I hope this will be the last Parent-Teacher Meeting that I ever have to attend.
I shouldn’t have gone at all.
Suddenly, I not only feel disappointed with myself, but utterly demoralised.
The absolute worst thing was that I couldn’t see properly.
I don’t know whether it was the cold wind from the freezing air-con that stung my eyes and made it watery or there were really tears of guilt.
It doesn’t matter.

That feeling of guilt kept lingering.
Until now, I still can feel it.
It is always easy to tell people that they can succeed, they can achieve this, achieve that.
And I’ve always thought that such encouragement do work.
Turns out that I was terribly wrong.
Unless you have really experience that “down and out” feeling, you can’t really understand the trauma they are going through.
What’s worse, It is hard to express it in words, even more difficult to relate to other people.
After all, people only can see your outward appearance, they can’t fathom what’s on your mind.
However, It would be unfair to discredit people who dish out encouragement, they are really the people with good intentions and kind hearts.

Sometimes, the truth really hurts.
I’m not as resilient a person as I thought I would be.
A few upsets in life can easily leave me discouraged and pessimistic, even to the point of threatening all aspects of my life.
And, as much as I try to psycho myself to persevere, I can’t bounce back at all.
This is truly the reality.