//random//




VOTE for Singapore to be on the new monopoly world edition! =P

http://www.hasbro.com/games/kid-games/monopoly/

none

//new to multiply//

//rainy day//



gosh.
3 chapters (le chatelier's principle, entropy & free energy, rxn in aq solutions) in one lecture.
meet my motor-mouth chem lecturer.




like the faceless, gloomy walls
she dwell in misery
laughter is not the best antidote
to worries, unsecurities or fear
just providing a moment of relief
to ease weariness
just providing an escape route
to keep away troubles on the mind

like the barrier between immates and their relatives
she is disconnected from the world
articulation is not a difficult task to many
spoken words, written letters
perhaps she's just the exception~
perhaps...

//sometimes//

Sometimes I just wonder who I am.
You know...a loss of identity.

Most of the times, I go with the flow.
I observe rules and regulations, for fear of treading over the line.
But sometimes, rebellious thoughts just occur in my mind.
I did everything that is the opposite of what I should have done.

Sometimes I can talk alot but usually I don't want to.
Just dreamily observing people.
Around me or just on the streets.

Sometimes I will stay strong in times of adversity.
Other times, I will just crack under the pressure.

I don't know why I am typing this post.
Or for that matter, the other posts.
Especially when I have lots of other stuff to do.
Maybe I can just conclude that this blog is an outlet to vent my feelings.

Currently I'm feeling quite down.
Who wouldn't be when your mum just reprimanded you?
For your info, she is not that unreasonable.
But the thing is I can't talk reason with her.
She will just say that I'm retorting her.

The matter is that I'm too busy (or don't want to make time) for those minor things.
So I hope that she wouldn't act as though it's the end of the world when I forgot to do them.
Seriously, I'm not that FREE!
If you look at my (soon-to-be) schedule posted last entry.
I also have a bad memory for remembering details and doing little things.

So I was being rebellious when I locked myself (just now) inside the study room.
After a long and hard day at school and tuition, the last thing I want to hear is someone nagging at me.

// Busy!! //

Oh man, I'm so far behind time in my tutorials.
Last week, I missed out on all the tutorials except physics.
Why?
Thanks to my non-stop cough.
And I'm still suffering from it. (a tweeny-weeny bit better though)

Physics: tutorial 1-absolutely know idea what is it...E-fields make me see stars
tutorial 2- not done even though it is due tomorrow..what on earth is Gauss Law?

Maths: tutorial 1- 7 more questions to cover

Chem: Haven't even start- due on fri

Computing: Haven't even start

Effective Com: Haven't even taken a look at it

Fundamentals of Social Research: tutorial 2 due on thurs

Impact of Chem on society: No tutorials =)

And in addition, there is still this endless list of things to do.

Student division (religion): Complete powerpoint presentation for this sun's activity
Do up the script for presentation (I'm getting cold feet!)
Call up members to inform them of the activity-(done!)
Thurs nights are sometimes reserved for home visits.

MuSE : Two articles due next tues

Furthermore, there's tuition!
Oh man why did the school term start so fast?
Mon,tues,wed nights
Saturday morning afternoon
Burnt!

One more tutee means a busier schedule.
One thing I can conclude: This market is definitely lack of tutors.

And, er-hem...kids who hire private tutors definitely need them!

Well, take me as a case study, my tutees have one or more of the following characteristics

1. Too hyper
2. Too lazy
3. Need people to supervise them or else they will NOT do work
4. Gets distracted easily
5. Doesn't pay attention in class
6. Needs umpteen times of explanation before they get the rough idea

I used to think giving tuition was easy money.
And what I thought couldn't be further from the truth.

Blah blah blah. Feeling too restless to do anything.
This blog entry serves as a "To-do" list for me.

//ramdom//

bored at home.
didn't go school cuz i'm coughing non-stop!
Like Pringles, once you start, you can't stop.
lame i know -.-
Especially at night, it's worse.
I can't sleep well.

So today, I missed the first computing tutorial.
And physics tutorial.
Not to mention the first lecture of Impact of Chem on Society.
Argh.
I had really wanted to go for the computing tut cuz I have no idea what programming is about.
Nevermind, it's over.

By the way, I have no idea why I can't install my Trend Micro internet security on my laptop.
I wonder why.
There is a error message everytime I try to install it.

Well, just got to know that mel fu is super hardworking.
She stays in the office till 8pm!
So late! I can't imagine lah.

//online window shopping//

Hmm...nowadays there's nothing much to do online.
Especially now that I promised my mum not to play Audition during term time.
Recently saw the "Romantic Princess" advert on TV.
Feel so cheated!!
I was watching it on youtube recently and now it's gonna show on TV.
Why?
Basically I'm a lazy person.
Watching short, one-episode videos on youtube does not prove much of a challenge but watching a drama serial is.
To me, it is so troublesome, I have to click on a link to get to the next part every ten mintues.
Bother!
Lol.
Watching it on TV is much more easier.
But anyway, I already finished watching it.
No use crying over spilled milk.
Haha! I'm so proud that I managed to recognise the "Gong Moli" to be Genie Zhuo Wen Xuan.
Wanted to catch the Vic Zhou and Patty Hou show on youtube...but forget it!
The show may be shown on TV after some time.

So now, the latest thing I'm hooked onto is online window shopping!
So far haven't bought anything yet but saw some stuff that I quite like.
Most are pay first, receive goods later...so don't really know which sites are trustworthy.
Shimin recommended me one though...
Most sell stuff that are reasonably priced but the qualiy...I wouldn't know how much it differs from the photos.
Some sell second hand stuff...which I wouldn't dare to buy.
Haha. I prefer sites that helps people to order stuff from Korea, Japan and Taiwan fashion stores.

//home visit-thurs//

Back from amk home visit.
Went to 2 students' homes.
Before we got to the first one, ruifang was telling me what her patients did in IMH.
It was to prepare my mentality when we went to visit the first student.
This is because her family has a history of schizoprenia.
Father is ~ so two daughters also abit ~
I was told that the last time someone visited them 2 years ago, the flat was in total darkness.

When we arrived at #02-12, there was a taller-than-us bookshelf-turned-shoe rack smacked right at their doorstep.
We were at a loss as the house was apparently uninhibited.
Right at this moment, their Indian neighbours was peering at what we were trying to do.

So we decided to ask them about the family's whereabouts.
Initially we were shocked to learn that the family had moved out 2 years ago and the flat had been unoccupied since then.
They told us that the family either moved to Woodlands...then corrected that they moved to SengKang. Lol.
The funniest thing was that they said the couple had two girls who are toddlers.
We were supposed to look for a 14 and 19-year old.
Then we realised that in our anxiety, we had read the address wrongly.
We had walked past the unit #02-16.
Lol.

I commented to Ruifang that it was a good sign that there appears to be light coming out of the translucent window.
And it really was not so bad as we had imagined.
A teenage girl, the younger 14-year old opened the door after some assurance that we are not some salesgirls.
In fact, judging from our conversation separated by the metal grille, (we were not allowed in) her family appears to be in a not-so-good situation, but at least everything about her appeared to be normal.
A 14-year old, enrolled in secondary 2 answering calls on her handphone occasionally.
However, our eyes did not miss the pair of legs peeking out from the door.
Our guess is that they belonged to her father's. As her father is rather ill.
I tried to take a closer view of the living room and realised that the house is rather spartan with old furnitures. Wah. this brings me to the question of how she got the money to acquire a rather new handphone. What about the bills?
Perhaps she shares it with her elder sis who should be working already.
I also did notice that her eyes were rather big but the way she looked at me is strange.
Friendly definitely...but strange.
Was it because that I got to know about her background so I tend to stereotype?
I don't know.

The second home was also in amk, but we had to take another bus from the interchange.
Quite near aj, in fact.
I met this girl before at a camp but don't really know her personally.
Haha. That time, I was in the treasury/admin com so I was supposed to collect money from the campers.
At that time I had no idea of her family's financial situation so I actually came up to her to collect the camp fees. She gave me a blur look. Then another person told me she didn't have to pay.
Now, having completed her Os and working at a bookstore, she looked different.
More confident and energetic than before.
Plus, she talked more too.
Maybe an additional income to the family really had helped.
I don't know much about her family.
But I can gathered that her dad must have caused trouble to the family.
Ruifang says that no matter how much we hate our parents, we must still be thankful to them cuz they gave us life.
It is our negative kharma.
Afterall, one of the debts of gratitude is one of to our parents.
Really hope that she can have the strength to do so.
Though it won't be easy to show compassion towards someone you dislike.

I guess it is good to home visit people sometimes.
I got to see more of the society's other facades.
In comparison, our lives are not bad.
And I felt that we are really fortunate people.
To have a good family and kind parents.

// ushering the new year and new semester //

Can't believe it.. 2008 has arrived.
It seems like yesterday when people were getting excited at welcoming the new millenium.
Looking forward to many things....amongst them, the Beijing Olympics.
But it won't be so soon i guess.

In the new semester, I will "look forward" to computing and the expected, physics.
At the same time, I hope my electives will be interesting.
Impact of Chemistry on society and Fundamentals of social research.
Next sem, i must try to secure the Intro to psychology..
Hmm.. i don't know what else to write about.
Stuck.

Ok, anyway, for this week, we'll only be having lectures and no tutorials.
By the way, my latest days are until 4.30pm!
Haha. so happy =)
But so sian...got to give tuition at nights.
Blah.

Hope I can do better this sem.
At least a 4.0 man!
Jia you!
Physics... Grr ... I must conquer it!

// sharing the same sentiments //

i hate physics.
physics hate me.

but the next sem I still need to study physics.

Till now I haven't known of anyone getting a worse grade than mine.
Why am I lamenting?
Perhaps I should be thankful that I did not have to re-take physics.

A big fat C for physics.

life science, materials science: B+
maths, lab, management: A-
Sem overall GPA: 3.8

all the hard work and toiling for 3 mths.
I really need to buck up!

// the dreaded //

Ntu exam results will be out on 28 dec.
Thanks to Deb that I got to know this.

Anyway, It is very strange.
Ntu students took the exams first but Nus students got to know their results first.

Waiting for the bomb to drop on me.
The Physics bomb.
I'm hoping I won't flunk it cuz the consequences will be disastrous.

// sick //




I forgot I was ill for how many days.
Sore throat turned flu turned fever.

Currently, I'm still nursing a flu and cough.

Recently, so many thoughts flooded my mind but I was simply too lazy to log in to post an entry.
Now, not that I lost the enthusiasm to blog but those thoughts became too vague in my current state of mind.

Something about time passes too quickly?

Humans are strange.
Humans like me.
When a new year comes around, people always thought that they have a lot of time to do the things they want.
However, when a year is about to end, people will think that a year has passed so quickly and there's still lots of stuff yet to be accomplished.

And I have grown old.
Imagine going to 20 years old.
2 decades.
Seems like a long time to me, hence I don't believe I've really lived through almost 20 years.
Truth be told, I still feel like a 10 year old.
Perhaps humans only start to experience life when they are of a certain age.
When people were young, they probably had not much collection of what they undergone.
And they were most likely being controlled by their parents anyway.
To me, from the very moment that you are able to decide something on your own, this is the very moment you start to experience life.
Don't know how true is this but this is my theory.

On a lighter note, my dad came back from China!
Luckily we didn't go to airport to receive him.
His flight was delayed due to technical problems.
That is really what you would expect from China Airlines.

// busy busy busy slack //

Yay! Today is the last day of my work!
Come to think of it, I was quite lucky at every place i worked.
As in my boss would always buy a lot of things to eat.
Take for example, this enrichment centre.
Last week, it was the principal's birthday hence I got to eat KFC.
Today, they had Christmas day celebration so I had the chance to stuff myself with pizzas, munchies, drumlets and garlic bread.
How sumptous!

For the past weeks I have been busy.
Work Tuition Audition

Last Saturday, It was on such a rare occasion that I was able to make it for 18/05 class outing.
Seriously I don't know how long I haven't seen my classmates.
Most probably since we've have gotten our A level results. lol.
Had a good time eating and chatting at Sakae Sushi.
Somehow, that day gave me a feeling that no one has changed since our JC years.
The girls, are still girls, always preferring to talk outside of academic work and delving into gossips and the latest fashion.
The guys, are still guys, always preferring to talk about army life and comparing varsities.
Anyway, that day was tiring becuz in the morning, I got out of the house at 8am for the Student Activity meeting, followed by giving tuition.

Sunday
So happy that the December Student Activity was a success!
That is my religious stuff.
I did not have the time to help out much but everyone did a great job!
Looking forward to making great strives in year 2008...

Rainy Monday
Met up with meiting and weiqi.
We went to...yea, you guessed it, Bugis St.
Shopping yea, but we were not impulsive buyers, believe me, I have seen really impulsive ones.
Supposed to go outdoors but...anyway, the weather disapproves too.
Found a nice top only when we have walked around..erm was it three rounds?
Perhaps we walked more than three rounds?
Anyway, next Monday, I'll be meeting them again.
It will be at Far East Plaza right?
Great let's see what they have there.
I was initially estatic about going for Pepper Lunch but currently I'm having a sore throat from the black pepper chicken pizza I ate in the afternoon so...
I really hope my throat will be healed by Monday!

Just got an SMS from sherlyn- Sengkang students outing tomorrow is cancelled.
Yay! Tomorrow is therefore, declared as "The Ultimate Slack Day"
My plan is to jog in the morning, followed by reading books and lots of gaming.

Now my dad is leaving with his luggage off to the airport...no, not running away from home...
He is off with his colleagues for the annual company tour, this time to China- Kunming, Yunnan, Li Jiang, Shangri-la.
Supposedly, my mum would be accompanying him but she fell ill yesterday and couldn't recover in time.
I guess, that is becuz she had the wrong Ichinen initially.
Ichinen~jap: first thought
At first, she was reluctant to go for the trip becuz she heard horror stories about how high the mountains at Li Jiang was, how low the oxygen level at Shangri-la was.
But humans always find themselves in a dilemma.
Since the trip was heavily subsidised by the company, it would be a waste if she didn't go.
Hence, my dad signed her up for the trip.
However, over the past two months, she had been changing her mind of going, lamenting that she'll feel giddy and nauseous at a place so high above the sea level.
Now that she fell sick, she is guilty that my dad would have to go alone without her.
Some humans are really strange creatures.

//no reception//

there just isn't any reception on my mobile phone at my workplace.
i can't call or sms at all.

The past two days were totally DISASTROUS.
Today I was in-charge of 3 levels, P1, P2, P6 all in one classroom.
This was due to the fact that one teacher took half-day emergency leave and two other teachers went on an excursion with some of the kids.
The P1s were attention-seeking, the P2s were noisy and the P6 had finished their work long long ago.
Absolutely fabulous.

The kids say: Teacher likes to eat deep-fried eyeballs and drink lemon bloody.
I say: Yes, preferably, the donor is a primary 1-6 kid.
They say: Yewww!

The Truth: I can't wait to skin all of them alive!!!

FYI: Last week during science experiment, I accidentally burst a balloon and scared one of the P6s so much so that he jumped out of his chair and fell to the ground.

//underground//

The enrichment centre is on the basement level.
Well, as I would have expected, a horrendous yesterday.
First day with the primary school kids can be well summed-up as horrendous.
At around 5pm, I thought I would never made it home.
It was "Fun with English" with the P2s, all of whom possess an enormous source of energy.
Plus, they had good lungs and diagphrams, which enabled them to render me almost DEAF.
Thanks to their screaming and shouting, they couldn't hear me.
I mean, it was 18 of them versus me.
Needless to say, it was totally havoc until a teacher two doors away, heard their screams and came into the classroom to take a look.
Her lungs was at least ten times more powerful than theirs.
Once overpowered, the P2s became cute, innocent faces again.

I totally admire the teachers there because they have the patience, the ability to control all the children and the knowledge to teach.

My first lesson was actually at 9am in the morning and it had gone relatively well.
The P5/6 class was smart and they did not scream at all.
However, some of them were too loud for their own good.
And, I was so "lucky" that one of the boys vomit a few drops of Milo on his paper.
Argh!!

Then, when it was nap time, one of the P2 boys woke up with a patch of redness on one of his cheeks because he had been sleeping on his RED file and had drooled.
Lol.

On the first day, I returned home with a backache.

Today, in the morning I met with my P5/6 again for "Write it well"
So they completed the work super fast and played their games.
I even played Deal or No Deal with them.
And I got a good deal!

In the afternoon, it was "IQ Math" with P3s.
They were super noisy. Less shouting than the terrible P2s though.
Hence I kept them with absolute silence inside the classroom even after they have completed their work.
It means no TV time for them!
I noticed that some of the P3s were rebellious.

On the second day, I returned home with a weak voice.

Tomorrow, I'm supposed to do the Science experiment "Needle through a balloon" with
the P5/6s and I'm fearing the worst will happen.

Afternoon, there is no class assigned to me and I hope I'll get a half-day off!
It is a tiring job that drains you of all your energy. (and voice)
Nevertheless, this is definitely more fun than a 9-5 office job due to the unpredictable and spontaneous nature of this job.
BUT I have to re-iterate the point that I have no wish to become a teacher.

Too tough for me.

//cloudy//

Yea! Yesterday met with Angeline and Crystal!

Crystal also brought her sis along.

It has been a long time since I caught up with them...maybe more than nine months?

Hmm..anyway they ate lunch at the Ma La (numb and spicy) steamboat at Liang Seah Street which I wasn't too keen cuz the soup looked quite..ok very spicy...imagine, full of chili padi.

Anyway, their threshold for spicy food definitely surpasses mine.

After which, we shopped at Bugis Street which luckily did not have so much people compared to during the weekends.

Haha. I have to say that though there were many things to look at, shopping at this place is really tiring.

Needless to say, I'll never be the first person to walk in front cuz to me, the whole place is simply a maze. (I mean a maze and not amazed)

I can just imagine myself as a rat going round and round desperately trying to find the exit.

x'mas tree at intercontinental hotel

The Great Golden Compass outside BHG

Anyway, after running around like rats (oops, pardon the weird phrase) we walked around Bugis Junction before surrendering to The Coffee Connoiseur (not sure about the spelling).

Actually, it was me who waved the white flag first cuz my poor legs were getting fatigue after the shop-about.

Well I can never be so glad sitting down and enjoying my beef ball spagetti.

I liked the way the spagetti was cooked and the cheesy, gummy taste.

The beef balls were too beefy for me though, if you know what I meant.
I'm really not quite a carnivore.

Anyway, Angeline's hot fudge cake wasn't that hot, both literally and figuratively.
But the scoop of vanilla ice-cream on top was heavenly.

Better than Swensen's ice-cream I would say.

Somehow, Crystal's Oreo cheese cake looked better than how it tasted.

Haha. I don't know why suddenly I'm analysing the food we ate.

I think it should because I have nothing much to do nowadays.

Except playing Audition Sea.

Seriously I don't why I'm addicted to it.

Anyway, tomorrow is a Saturday, there is the tuition marathon as always.

3 students in a day.

Saturday always got burnt just like that.

Sunday is religion's day.

Dreading the meeting cuz I simply don't have any idea how to interest the students.

The topic of religion is mostly alien to students.

Haiz.

Then come Monday it is my first day of work at an enrichment centre for primary students.

I remembered I e-mailed my application in June this year.

But it is only now in December that they accepted me.

Think about it, I quite dread the job too.

Imagine lots of kids screaming and shouting and prancing about.

I think I will faint.

Anyway, just got to tell myself that it is to occupy time during this one month holiday.

In addition, judging by the number of days the centre will be closed this month, I won't need to go down everyday too.

Best of all, the centre is rather near my place.

//sunny!//

Yesterday was the first day of holiday!
Finally my exams are over!!!
I mean I really dislike the feeling of having to mug all day at my desk.
Of course I take a break sometimes but the feeling of trepidation is just too overwhelming.
Plus, I experience indigestion when sitting at my desk long periods of time.

Anyway, yesterday was also the first time I went ice-skating!
And, I have concluded that ice-skating is even more nerve-wrecking than taking exams.
Haha. I'm still very slow at skating 'cause I just can't balanced myself on the edge of the thin piece of metal stuck to the sole of the shoes.
Since I was the only first-timer, it was no surprise that I was the first to fall down.
But luckily it didn't hurt.
The ironic thing was they call me "coach" because of my jacket.
Thanks to jh and eunice for helping me to balance =)
Yw and wt were also happily skating. haha.
Hj was also learning...gleefully pushing jh around.
Yb was enjoying falling down more than ever. lol
As for lq, shopping is definitely more enjoyable than this right?
After the skating we went to IMM's coffee club for dinner.
Country pie was nice and not too filling.
Good because I didn't want to overload my stomach.
Anyway, I think everyone had a good time chilling (literally?) out.

mse gang

Power Ranger Girls

//hazy-trepidation//

It feels like taking the A levels all over again.

It feels weird not to be in uniform.

//sunny//



Yesss! finally I have managed to connect my laptop wirelessly to the Internet.

Yohoo~ Just can't imagine how much time and how many phone calls I made to get this done.

Step 1: Choose between a wireless router or a wireless modem router.

Step 2: Install the router. ( I had some problems with this)

Step3: Re-try installation process for a thousand times.

Step 3: Call the dealer to ask for technical assistance, but got the modem company's contact numbers instead

Step 4: Call ISP to clarify certain things

Step 5: Re-try installation for the millionth time--->Success!

Step 6: Power up laptop and detect wireless network

// fake rain //

I can't control my laughter everytime I see my maths tutor doing something weird.
It seems that vimala also shares my sentiments.
It's bad! I shouldn't laugh anymore...
Everytime I see him panic, I feel like telling him to relax. haha.
I think, for teacher's day, we should buy him a set of transparency markers and pencil sharpener.
So he won't need to use thick blackboard markers on transparency sheets or use broken pencils.

Anyway, today, thanks to my mse pals, they gave me and liqing an advance birthday celebration today at Jurong Point.
Thanks for the present too...green is my favourite colour.
Hope the four leaf clover really brings me and Lq study luck.
No mood today to celebrate- I felt so full and heavy-headed after lunch.

Left around 10 mins to 2nd Nov! =)


I want peace.
I want freedom.
I want a place to hide from the exams.
I want to feel tired no more.
I want to travel no more.
Each day in school is a struggle to keep awake.