// what do you believe in? //



Since young, I have always believed that whatever that happens is a result of our own actions.

In other words, our destiny is in our own hands.

However, as I grew older, I realised that the world is not so simple.

People's mentality change as they age.

Things which will happen happens and there's no control over it.

The mistakes we made will make us look back and realise the causes and how we could have prevented it but there's no way you could have known it beforehand.

So? is this called destiny?

Many encouraging phrases by famous philosophers, theologians, ex-world leaders, ex-US presidents...people who supposedly have weathered turmoils and turbulents.
"Failure is the mother of success"
"The process is more important than the result"
and so on. which I cannot think of at the moment.

If you win, you win. Could it be due to luck and destiny?
You lose, you lose. if you keep losing, it is wise that you accept that your are born loser.
Everyone knows to win is better than to lose.
But why are some people trying to prove the contradictory I have no idea.

Being sceptical, I cannot help but think they are simply phrases of self-consolation.

//back from kenshu//

I'm finally back to my comfortable home after spending 3 days at my religion's student camp.
BAck to water heater, laptop and TV!

Oh and, just in time to check out my results.

I hate getting Cs!
REally.
I wonder if the day of not seeing any C in my results slips will ever come?

At the same time, I'm rather happy to get a A- for intro to psychology!
yea! =)
hmm..makes me wonder if i should take up a minor.
Just for interests' sake ?
But my core mods will surely suffer. maybe a couple more Cs next time.
OK I JUST HATE Cs.
Super frustrated cuz the subject I spent the MOST time on reaped a Ccccccc.
=(
Like I think I have blogged last time, I should have remembered to bring a watch to that killer exam!
Full of regrets now =(
Or else I could have gotten at least a B-?



Goal for next sem: To achieve grades higher than C for all the mods.

-YONG JA- GO- YONG GAN de NINJA!-
(my kenshu group)

// out and out //

Last week, I was kept busy slacking at home.

The following pic explains it.

The best thing was that I got to meet up with christy for a long-awaited sushi feast.

Bonus: Bolt

Was debating between watching bolt and 4christmases.

The bottomline: Pigeons are dumb. Don't be too naive.

Haha!

Eat like there's endless food.

Chat like there's no tomorrow =)

This week, it was rather fun as I visited new places.

-Sunday-

It's to explore quaint, suburban town of Yew Tee.

Hmm...I wonder why, but I developed a fondness for that place even though I have never really step foot on that place.

Usually I will need to travel past the mrt station to get to school.

I think it's rather special because it's a relatively quiet place linking between the rowdy Kranji race course and the equally crowded Chua Chu Kang.

And on sunday, I finally got to visit the Yew Tee central, which is nothing like a shopping centre.

But I've got to say, the chicken cutlet noodles from the food court's taiwan stall IS serioously delicious.

I mean.. yes the cutlet is crispy, but the noodles are superb.

I have never eaten such 'QQ' noodles, so full of bite and succulent.

It's a hidden treasure I managed to uncover. lol. =D

Anyway, I was thrown off the track by the thought of those noodles.

And not to mention, I especially like the view from weiqi's 16th storey unit!

Everything on the ground, every building faraway seems so minute.

I had a sudden feeling as though I was living in the clouds.

Ok, perhaps just a hallucination.lol.

And, haha, I couldn't believe it, I tried chiku for the first time.

I mean, I have heard about the fruit, maybe more than 10 times.

I remember, in primary school, the science questions sometimes involved classifying chiku in a Venn diagram or something like that.

And, when people want to name fruits after alphabets, they'll go..

A is for Apple.

B is for Bananas.

C is for Chikus....

Don't they?

They tasted quite nice and I couldn't believe my ears when meiting said there were chiku trees growing in aj and she used them in elementz lab last time.

Haha. I am such a frog in the well.

I checked with my mum and she certified that she have never bought them before.

I asked why?

"Last time in kampong, we used to eat alot of chikus and it was free, fresh from the trees. I see no reason to pay for it now. anyway, it's rather hard to find in supermarts"

What a reason.

Mystery solved.

Oh ya, I never read chinese books unless I'm required to.

But the book by Jimmy is really nice.

I feel like re-reading it.

Thanks, wq =)

-Monday-

It's the once-in-a-school-break ktv session with lynette, christabel and rou hua.

It's also the first time I heard someone I know (rh) singing jap songs.

Hmm..so pro =)

Lynette just came back from Taiwan and Christabel is going Korea.

It's like everyone's going overseas.
Hmm...rather envious because I have never been to those two countries before.

Out of nowhere, I formed some warped theory. lol

My (warped) theory:

If you have never been to a country and you heard your friends talking about going to that particular country.

Level of envy: 90%

If you have been to a country and enjoy being there, and you heard your friends talking about going to that particular country.

Level of envy: 70%

If you have been to a country and did not really enjoy being there, and you heard your friends talking about going to that particular country.
Level of envy: 10%

-Tuesday-

Went to the library to get some books.

I managed to borrow Neil Humphreys' Final notes from an island, and the latest CSI book.

And several Ian Rankin's mysteries.

-Wednesday-

It's another rare meet-up with my xinmin friends.

I finally had a chance to eat Ajisen Ramen for the first time.

The waitress at the square2 branch was especially helpful and nice.

She even offered us iced water when she noticed we finished our iced tea.

We also bought a small but pretty bouquet of roses for suyee.

The shop owner was especially kind to explain to us each kind of flower he used.

Baby's Breath- I finally know what it's called!

Went for suyee's chinese orchestra at nyp.

The conductor is so charming! omigosh.

He even interact with the audience by asking us to clap or say 'ee-haw' whenever he points his baton at us during the song.

I especially enjoyed the Beatles's medley. and the 'ju hua tai' too!

All those never-die classics.

A 'western styled' chinese orchestra,

that's what I can say.

-Thursday-

It's the MSE gang's one-day trip to Malaysia.

Of course when we're there, we have to take advantage of the low exchange rate and go for anything that is cheaper than in Singapore.

It's the first time I watched a RM6 movie. It's sooo cheap i can't believe it.

However, the screen turned blur at several instances.

And there were only chinese and malay subtitles.

Luckily I could understand Jim Carrey.

Anyway, It's so comical that I was laughing until I was tearing.

Jim Carrey IS fantastic.

BE A YES MAN. lol.

Then, we went to the Ktv, which was more roomy than Singapore.

In fact, I think it's because Malaysia has much more land than Singapore, that's why I find

everything there is larger than Singapore, take shopping centres as a common example.

To top it off, we ended the trip by going for zhi-char style food.

I tried the fried cereal crayfish..weird combi but tasty nontheless.
I think their stir-fried baby kailan is fresher than what you can find in Singapore.

After being to Malaysia so many times, I seriously think their veggies are fresher and tastier than Singapore's.

If Singaporean kids do not like veggies, who knows? trying them in Malaysia might just change their mind about greens.

Yea. I bought scones and egg tarts from 'Season' too.

A must-buy!

-Friday-

Paid S$6 to find out the hype about Stephanie Meyer's Twilight series.

Sometimes, it's good to be a student.

You can just flash your ez-link card to be entitled to many discounts.

Haha. The econs term is 'price discrimination'.

Anyway, next time when I graduate... everything and everywhere will be adult-priced

and the best (and cheapest) entertainment is probably renting dvds to watch at home.

Oops..i sound like NO MAN.lol.

Okay, back to Twilight.

Even though I have never read the book before, I had this feeling that the book would be much more interesting than the movie.

Ya, a bit disappointing.

I think it's rather bland and unconvincing.

However, I must say that it won't be easy to convert such books on supernatural beings into a movie. The director probably had a headache trying to find a cast of convincing vampires.lol.

Oh well, I don't even know if I would watch the second instalment of the series when it comes out.

-Saturday-

I was late for the baking session with debbie and hui ling.

When I reached deb's place, she was squeezing some coffee cream mixture onto some buns while hl was rolling some dough.

Haha. Truth be told, it was the first time I went anywhere near the oven.

Deb is so pro and skilful with the dough whereas hl and I were struggling.haha.made some really awful ones.

Anyway, Deb encouraged us and we made some nice ones. Nice ones that can be showed at the party.

Deb's mum came into the kitchen and asked us what was that (the awful-looking ones).

hl and I was, like, hmm..those are our 'creations'. I guess those were really beyond recognition =X

Haha. In the end, hl and I took our 'creations' home. 'Creations' that I'll rather not be proud of.

Aiya, too bad hl couldn't make it for the gathering due to a wedding dinner...but haha we know that she'll probably meet sy in korea.

And, yes, hl is going to korea with christabel and a few other uni friends.

Haha. Singapore is indeed very small. Two of my friends who didn't know each other earlier on ended up in the same course.

Anyway, I was late for the gathering as I had to go home to shower and change.

Mel said something like, my presence is a once-in-a-year phenomena.

Come to think of it, it was rather true.

Anyway, it would suffice for me.

I was expecting a buffet-style dinner, so you can imagine my surprise when I saw my ex-classmates seated in a restaurant style.

But it was rather nice, I might as well describe it as alfreso-dining style.

Complete with candles, nice music and elegant ambience.

In fact, jiayi's place is really elegant and nice.

No doubt it was not easy organising a pot-luck party and I thought jiayi and suelynn did a nice job =)

Then we had to wait for andee for the gift exchange...and he appeared rather late =(

I think those of us taking public transport were at the risk of missing our last buses and trains.

Perhaps it was worth it because he was up to his (un)usual antics, I think everyone present yesterday will definitely remember what he bought for the gift exchange.lol.

Lucky deb =X

//the best drama//

I'm abit slow..but this show is fantastic.

moonlight resonance.

//back from KL //

Actually our mini getaway was to my uncle's house in KL.
Oh and can you believe it, his house is so near to Zoo Negara, Malaysia's national zoo.
I mean, in Singapore, our zoo is at such a ulu place where nobody stays.
In KL, however, you can find residentials near the zoo.
According to my uncle, the animals there are underfed and malnourished, so we did not visit the zoo.
The nice part of it is that we could see giraffes walking about the back of the house. (of course there were fences)
The downside is that we could hear threatening lion roars and elephant screeches.
Not to mention the pungent smell of animal manure occasionally drifts into the house.
yucks.
lol.

Other than indulging in shopping, the highlight of the trip is going up the Petronas Twin Tower!
Actually, we just went up to the skybridge at the 41st floor. (The whole tower is about 81 storeys high)
Of course it isn't the highest in Asia already. (Taiwan's 101 building has taken over)
My mum and aunt kept saying the skybridge was swaying but I didn't feel any movement.
Perhaps it's all in their mind la.

Anyway, when the staff showed us some introductory video about the Petronas company, my sis and I felt it was so ironic.
Just one day ago, my uncle drove to a petrol station to pump his car but guess what?
The station staff said there was no petrol!
haha first time we're seeing a petrol station with no petrol for sale.
And it was not only one petrol station but the whole stretch of petrol stations.
Shell had no petrol, neither had Exon Mobil, Petronas or Berhad BHD.
It was until we reach the second Petronas station when there was finally a few pumping stations with petrol.

Later in the day when we went to this Jusco shopping centre, electricity was down when I was trying on some shoes.
The whole shopping centre was thrown into darkness save for a few dim lights in the department store.
All the other shops was in pitch darkness.
If there were dishonest people or thieves around, they could probably get a really fat loot.

As my uncle says, "Malaysia, no petrol, no electricity"

Another thing to mention is their confusing LRT systems.
At one platform, there can be two trains travelling in two different lines.
The catch is to look at the words shown on the front of the first cabin.
At first we did not know about this and caught the wrong train twice!
There was no different colour codes or whatsoever.
haha and I couldn't make any sense out of the malay words.

In Singapore, our LRT trains are colour-coded yet so many people still took the wrong one.
Are we so pampered?

By the way, the traffic conditions in KL is terrible, with jams everywhere.
Sometimes, the lights only allowed time for two cars to drive through.
I really admire the drivers there who have special adaptations abilities.
To avoid such long queues of cars, many of them skilfully did a U-turn, albeit illegally.
Anyway, knowing the kind of traffic police they have, most likely there will be no penalty.
Pedestrains are really bold to cross the roads in front of snaking queues of cars.
And the drivers are good at estimating the distance between the car and pedestrain to avoid knocking them down and at the same time move in the queue swiftly.

Overall, it's not too bad an experience, except for the fact that the bus operator cheated our feelings and money. They promised to let us alight at Kovan bus terminal but just before the Woodlands checkpoint came the annoucement that all will be getting down at woodlands checkpoint as the bus will not be going through the custom.
I bet that driver did not have a malaysian passport. (which by the way cost RM300)
That explains why we were issued new bus tickets (when we had already got on the bus) which was imprinted with RM 39 instead of the RM50 we paid.
Great. they have destroyed any evidence that we could use for lodging a complaint.
Having taken a 830pm bus, we were left stranded at wdl checkpoint at 2am.
What a nice end to the journey.

sem 1 exams has officially ended for me! yay!

come, holiday mood, come!

Off to a mini getaway to .... KL!

I have a long to-do list this coming holidays, hope I can complete them =D


there's an urge to change the blogskin, by the way.
the repulsive force from familiarity

// I dunno why //



I dunno why some people want to run away from familiar stuff.

people like me.

familiar stuff like places, people and food.



I always tend to complain and feel bored when

I been to familiar places, see familiar face, eat familiar food

but when it's gone

feelings of regrets just overwhelm

why I didn't cherish it in the first place.



some people have a admirable life.

yet they still complain.

some people are worse off.

yet they still need to listen to such complains.

and pretend to empathise.



Is there fairness?



some people are born to manipulate people and use them for their own benefits.

some people are born to be used and manipulated.



Is it true?



some questions about life doesn't have an answer.

some facts of life I'll never understand.




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two posts in a day that don't make any sense.

enough la, you!

//whines//

next week.
econs and ms 2008.
ms 2008 the killer paper.
set by prof wang the genius.
i'll be killed.

why?
electrons.
such a small thing yet matters so much to my grades.

I dun understand why ntu doesn't give any study break.
Time. I'm lacking it.
Boo.
Still have so many chapters to go.
I'm also lacking in memory.
Think I only have 1gb the most.
how.how.

oh, I almost forgot to mention my econs mcq test.
80%
And I SUed the subject.
great huh.
but I can't slack for econs.
becuz the past year exam papers have shown it to be another difficult paper.
papers full of application qns will definitely kill me.
somemore, my memory retention power is really bad.
I forgot 70% of what I studied for the test.
I think I did the right choice to SU it after all.

obama 297 (won!) macain 139
(270 electoral votes to win)

I think obama is going to win! =)
Change, we need.

http://edition.cnn.com/ELECTION/2008/results/president/

Astrology.com sent me a birthday reading. Lol.

Section 1: How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others

You appear gentle and soft, and you act rather reserved with others until you know them well and feel it is safe to be open with them. You have a strong need for emotional security and a sense of belonging, and are deeply attached to the past: your heritage, roots, family, cherished friends, familiar places, etc.Making radical changes or moving away from what is known and safe can be very painful and difficult for you. You tend to cling and hold on to people, memories, possessions of personal or sentimental significance. Having a home, a safe haven, is very important to you.

Section 2: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation

Quiet, deep, emotionally complex and intensely private, youare not a person who is easy to get to know and understand. You are extremely sensitive but disinclined to show it, and you allow only a special few into your inner world. Like a wary animal, you are cautious and mistrustful of those you do not know until you"sniff them out". You are very, very instinctive and intuitive.You usually have a strong, immediate gut reaction to people, even though you may be unable to clearly articulate why you feel as you do. Your feelings and perceptions go deeper than words.

//say bye bye to tech com//

I had wanted to post on this last wed, when our presentation finally ended.
But I had some more things to do.
Anyway, I'm so glad that the project has ended.
I was extremely nervous while presenting, and I think many people did sense my anxiety.
Anyway, what's over has been dealth with and I shan't brood over it.
The results will be released on wed.
We were happy that our proposal achieved an A grade.
But, imagine our horror when it was only worth a measly 15%!
Even our 3-5 minute oral presentation carries 20%!
Anyway, people always say that a good start is half the battle won.
I am not too worried about the grade as per se.

Haha! I decided to prolong "my day" by one day!
So today I had a respite from school...uh but no break from study (I have another quiz worth at least 20% on wed, not to mention the upcoming exams starting next wed)
So here am I, enjoying my extended birthday!
Dun be too jealous of me, k! =D

// It's My Day! //

Before I launch into contemplating about turning twenty, I want to thank all those who have wished me. Those specially-concocted messages really warms the heart. =D

It is surprising how some of my old friends can remember my birthday.
Of course, they may have did it with the help of facebook or friendster, but I'm still grateful that they actually took the trouble to wish me.
Those are people whom I'm not close to, but have worked with before in projects or have taken the bus with, or simply have engaged in mindless chatter with.
Haha. You know it is them when their wishes come together with their surnames and the class you have been together to.

I especially want to thank my best-est friend of 12 years who have even taken the trouble to mail a card to me.
With today's technology, anyone can easily send an e-card instead of mailing by post but the latter really brings back alot of memories for me.
As I have shifted house twice,(technically thrice, though) I wouldn't have maintained many friendships without post.
When I first left my 1st primary school in P2, my pals and I wrote letters to each other to keep in touch.(suggested by my mum)
Even though, my friends just have to write one letter each, and I had to reply to all four letters (regina, gladys, ting hui, ping ting), I did not mind.
All the while, we did not get to meet up.
Sadly, I guess this was the reason our friendships started to weaken...
I lost touch with them in P6 and sec 1 mainly because we stopped writing.
It was rather sad for me because 2 of them apparently moved but did not inform me.
My letters to them just bounced back to me, with the words "wrong address" imprinted.
I guess I will still meet them someday and I do hope I can still recognise them!

Come to think of it, I really wrote a lot of letters when I was younger.
When I shifted (again!) away from woodlands in sec 2, I wrote to my best-est friend,(christy)whom I got to know in primary sch and my secondary school friends (mt and wq =D).
All three of them are still very in touch with me even till now.

Perhaps it was all the cumulative letter writing over the years that made me like writing so much.
Nowadays, technology allows us to communicate instantly and the appeal of posting a letter is lost.
To save time and money, it is logical for us to make use of the technology to communicate.
Many have debated over the pros and cons of this matter. I'm not sure which is better though. I mean, if you win some, you'll lose some.
However, one thing I'm sure is that it is virtually impossible for us to revert back to the old days, though the communication by post will always remain a soft spot in my heart.

// for one more day //

Just read ' for one more day ' by mitch albom.
I had no idea this book was about life and death beforehand.
The protagonist in the story had wanted to seek death because he felt rather useless and hence guilty towards his ex-wife, daughter.
And most importantly, his mum.
He did not manage to see his mum one last time before her death as he went to play some baseball game.

He was in an accident when he miraculously saw his mother alive
I think that was his hallucination.
Anyway, during his hallucination, he spent a day with his mum.
That day, ironically his most meaningful day of his life, he:

1) discovered his mum secretly worked as a cleaner to support his education
2) found out his dad, whom he has admired so much, had another family
3) took a trip down memory lane about what his mum has done for him and what he did not do for her.

A touching, yet inspiring book.

// one thing after another //

ok, now i'm officially taking a break from tutoring!
yes!
my tutees' exams have all ended and now what's left to do is to wait for their PSLE/E-O-Y results.

anyway, received an alarm bell from my psychology lecturer today.
exams are a month away.
i can't believe this sem is ending so soon.
i thought i had more time.
scary and relieved at the same time.

everything is getting tougher and i'm feeling the heat.
yr 1 sem 1 everything was relaxed and yr 1 sem 2 i was struggling.
yr 2 sem 1, well, time is just not enough.
in addition to tutorials, there's always something else, like reports, that we have to do.
one of my lab mates, a poly-direct entry student, commented that this sem was similar to his yr 3 in chemical engineering.
in other words, extremely busy and stressed.
another lab mate was reminiscing about yr 1 being a honeymoon yr.

and the truth is that things will get even more tough for the coming semesters.
everytime, i will just cringed when the lecturer says that the concepts he has just taught will be further elaborate on in yr 3/4.
it's like, i would be thinking: I can't even understand you now, how do you expect me to understand even more abstract stuff next time?
But as all things goes, I just hope a solution will surface when the time to face such problems arrives.

on a lighter note, i find psychology really fascinating.
i mean, other than memorising the theories and names of psychologists.
i really admire those psychologists who can stand up for their own beliefs.
to create a theory about human behaviour is indeed fascinating!
unlike what most people think, psychology is a science which theories have to be proven before being recognised.
as i understand it, a psychologist forms theories by observing humans/animals behaviour and also using his/her intuition and then prove it by doing experiments.
then the theory will be name after the psychologist.
and there would most likely be some other contradictory theories by some other psychologists.
hence they will need to argue for their stand.
psychology is also evolving.
theories that exist today can be obsolete tomorrow.
sounds like something i would like to do.
which reminds me that recently i heard from someone that her friend's daughter is earning a pathetic sum after graduating with a degree in psychology.
i really don't understand why psychology is so underrated sometimes.
especially when some branches of psychology have useful applications.
like organisational psychologists who can help to improve relationships among colleagues and increase productivity by creating a conducive working environment
like developmental psychologists who can help young children and mentally disabled children learn more effectively.
like criminal psychologists that helps to identify the profile of a criminal in order to solve cases.
anyway, the discrepancy is very wide, i have heard of organisational psychologists earning $10k/mth and psychologist-turned-counsellors earning $1.?k/mth.
the market for psychology graduates is just too small in sg and most tend to work in other fields.
but it is a different story in US.
perhaps the culture is just very different there.
Asian societies like ours value practical things like social standing and 'face' whereas they value things like human rights and freedom of speech.

//midterms //

This week: 2 down, 1 more to go.

I can wave my 40% worth of ms2008 grade goodbye.
Ok, I couldn't decide which midterm was worse, ms2005 or ms2008.
Or perhaps it was ms2002.

Anyway,
I was simply irritated to the core today during the test.
Call me sensitive or fussy
But I JUST CAN'T STAND IT
when the person sitting beside me keeps on sighing and banging his pen on the table

especially in the silence of exam time.
where every sound is amplified by at least 20 times and each bang on the table causes a vibration magnified by at least 50 times.

I don't know the person but was absolutely irritated by him.
We were supposed to sit in an alternating pattern but apparently there were not enough seats in the LT to accomodate this.
He came in late and I was sitting at the very last row so he conveniently plonked into the empty seat next to me.
Argh!
Never felt so frustrated during a test before.
Goodness knows how many times did he sigh.

I was thinking:
Bro, I know you have problems doing the questions but look, you're not the only one, Ok?
Very soon, that thought turned into frustration.
All I wanted was to throw a brick at him.
Luckily, after the test, he scot off fast.
Or else I don't know what I could have done.
Seriously.

In any case, i doubt any of my other uninterrupted midterms will be any better.
I always had this sinking feeling after every single test.
This "doomed-to-fail" feeling.
Well, I certainly hope my tutee won't have such similar feelings when PSLE starts on Fri.
The battle begins.
He, like me, is always hovering between a pass and a fail.
Talk about Who you'll meet is a mirror reflection of yourself.



Can I handle any more disappointment?

I don't want to face the world.

I wanna be alone.
Alone in the land of strangers.

//twist lick dunk//

haha.
Once i read the clarification notice put up by Oreo in 'Today', my mum and i immediately open a packet of Oreo cookies! =)

// reports, reports and more reports!//

Sort of tired doing the lab reports..

Ok, truth be told, I don't feel like doing anything.

except watching youtube videos, tv or shopping.

Hello man! it's holiday!!

and it's only for one week.

why am i stuck at home doing reports, studying and tutoring.

Mega SIGHS.

Happy times are always short-lived

.

// RECESS WEEK! //

it's already mid-term.
but i'm still wondering what is happening.
lessons are progressing at such a fast pace that
i'm lost

lectures and tutorials.
i'm stuck.

i mean, i knew an ENGINEERING course would be demanding
what i didn't know is that
i couldn't rise up to the challenge.

last sem was bad.
thus i wanted a change this sem.
but to improve things?
easier said than done.

self-motivation is losing steam.
self-comforting is hurting pride.
self-esteem is at all-time low.

i crave for more time
to study and understand
the abstract concepts
and formulae

but some other things are competing for my time.

travelling time.
it's definitely nice to return home to a comfortable place
but is it worth sacrificing 1/6 of a day travelling?

tuition.
it's great to have more allowance
and even leftover money to save every month
but is it worth spending the time?
a trade-off between money and time.

and I don't understand why we need to have tutorials for tech com module
cuz it's never productive.
just give lectures and record it
so that i can skip it and watch online recording in record time.

as for the constant disturbance in the house.
who dares defy the matriarch?
no point defending yourself or you will be accused of shifting reponsibility.
no point explaining or you will be accused of giving unreasonable excuse.
little things that makes no sense.
why argue?
my precious time will be wasted.
just admit to whatever teeny-wheeny accusation.

hence
i can't be bothered.
i'm NUMBED to the noise.

silence is simply the best solution.