// life can only get more difficult //
oh why, every year in uni seems to be challenging my limits and tolerance.
everytime i think something is tough, another even tougher task would emerge.
i always think that ultimately someday, there will come a time when i can't take it anymore.
it's a struggle to keep awake during lectures.
understanding what's being taught is taking a toil on me.
planning ahead for fyp and fulfilling it is driving me crazy.
i spent 80% effort and yet the yield is just 20%.
a math qn: how much effort do i need to put in to achieve 100% yield?
today i just told a friend why a teacher would be my last choice of career.
after tutoring for so many years, there is just no job satisfaction.
all my tutees want is a pass.
don't they realise that the bar has been raised?
it is no longer sufficient to just scrape through.
judging by her grades, i have a hunch that she wouldn't make it pass N levels.
sometimes i'm just simply amazed by her laidback attitude and self-confidence.
i'm just very disappointed by her prelim results.
failed all her subjects yet she has got the cheek to play her itouch before tutition starts.
To make it to sec 5, the average grade she needs to achieve is a B3 or B4.
i doubt even a miracle can save her.
4 years of my time and efforts going to waste.
i am not cut out to be a teacher, no matter how hard i try.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
//人生不如意的事，十有八九。只有如意的事值得记住//
recent encounters with people makes me wonder if i'm prone to misinterpreting people's words.
either that or they are the ones who conveniently forgot what they have told me, and as a result, changed their initial thinking, which i had remembered.
on a whiny mode, i can't believe within 2 weeks of school reopening, bad luck has already surrounded my very existence.
of course, i'm still very grateful that nothing seriously bad really happened,
but sometimes, little things that goes wrong adds up and you're left wondering why these 'little things' that others didn't have to bother, bogs you down.
it seems like lady luck hasn't stop frowning at me since the beginning of the year.
I actually have half-a-mind to document all those bad experiences but I've decided to try to let go of the negative (after all, they are little things) and remember the positive ones.
Of course, i didn't react well at first when those bad news were related to me, but that's normal i guess.
And I really don't care if people think I'm silly to enrol in major prescribed electives that result in having four consecutive days of exams. Or that I'm taking 22 AUS (thanks to my psych module)
Other are driven by practicality (an essential of engineering); myself, by passion.
recent encounters with people makes me wonder if i'm prone to misinterpreting people's words.
either that or they are the ones who conveniently forgot what they have told me, and as a result, changed their initial thinking, which i had remembered.
on a whiny mode, i can't believe within 2 weeks of school reopening, bad luck has already surrounded my very existence.
of course, i'm still very grateful that nothing seriously bad really happened,
but sometimes, little things that goes wrong adds up and you're left wondering why these 'little things' that others didn't have to bother, bogs you down.
it seems like lady luck hasn't stop frowning at me since the beginning of the year.
I actually have half-a-mind to document all those bad experiences but I've decided to try to let go of the negative (after all, they are little things) and remember the positive ones.
Of course, i didn't react well at first when those bad news were related to me, but that's normal i guess.
And I really don't care if people think I'm silly to enrol in major prescribed electives that result in having four consecutive days of exams. Or that I'm taking 22 AUS (thanks to my psych module)
Other are driven by practicality (an essential of engineering); myself, by passion.
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
//horrible year 4//
why does every sem becomes tougher than the previous?
Looks like I CAN'T SLACK ANYMORE.
Having slack for the past weekend, i have to pay back double this week.
Mind you, it's only week 2.
And I kept running late.
and running all over North spine, trying to figure out where's my class.
just like freshmen.
partially because i haven't been in school for nearly 9 months.
as usual, how i wish i live right in boon lay.
travelling is super energy draining. and time wasting.
as year 4, we could choose our major prescribed electives,
needless to say, many people chose according to the best exam dates.
that's to say, they avoid consecutive exam dates.
what about me?
well, i'm more idealistic than practical, so i chose according to my 'interest'
or you could say, by elimination.
Eliminating those i have absolutely no interest in.
So, what is the result?
Very unfortunately, I am bombarded with 4 consecutive days of exams.
yes, FOUR.
some of my coursemates have none.
of course, many say i'm heading for four days of hell, which i totally agree.
on the same note,
even though i have 4-day week, my timetable is packed.
even though i did plan for breaks, in actual fact, for most days i didn't have lunch until late afternoon.
why? i myself am not sure.
there's just too many fyp stuff to settle.
argh.
therein lies the benefit of starting fyp earlier.
however, i do not regret, because my IA experience has made me see things from a different perspective.
And I finally know where I'm heading to.
I have found motivation, what I need now, is discipline.
Like a little bird flying to a destination far away.
Without nutrients and water from the cage, which it has gotten used to.
Can it survive the arduous journey and emerge victorious?
why does every sem becomes tougher than the previous?
Looks like I CAN'T SLACK ANYMORE.
Having slack for the past weekend, i have to pay back double this week.
Mind you, it's only week 2.
And I kept running late.
and running all over North spine, trying to figure out where's my class.
just like freshmen.
partially because i haven't been in school for nearly 9 months.
as usual, how i wish i live right in boon lay.
travelling is super energy draining. and time wasting.
as year 4, we could choose our major prescribed electives,
needless to say, many people chose according to the best exam dates.
that's to say, they avoid consecutive exam dates.
what about me?
well, i'm more idealistic than practical, so i chose according to my 'interest'
or you could say, by elimination.
Eliminating those i have absolutely no interest in.
So, what is the result?
Very unfortunately, I am bombarded with 4 consecutive days of exams.
yes, FOUR.
some of my coursemates have none.
of course, many say i'm heading for four days of hell, which i totally agree.
on the same note,
even though i have 4-day week, my timetable is packed.
even though i did plan for breaks, in actual fact, for most days i didn't have lunch until late afternoon.
why? i myself am not sure.
there's just too many fyp stuff to settle.
argh.
therein lies the benefit of starting fyp earlier.
however, i do not regret, because my IA experience has made me see things from a different perspective.
And I finally know where I'm heading to.
I have found motivation, what I need now, is discipline.
Like a little bird flying to a destination far away.
Without nutrients and water from the cage, which it has gotten used to.
Can it survive the arduous journey and emerge victorious?
Thursday, September 02, 2010
// Hurray to changes in education system //
I think it's very logical for to introduce the so-called 'through-train' programme to N level students.
All along, I've always thought that it is rather unfair for students in N(A) stream to undergo 2 national exams consecutively.
Students in the express stream are said to be stressed out by the O levels and teachers pressured by the need to finish the syllabus, so much so that it suppressed students' curiosity and fascination on a particular subject. Hence, the through-train programme was introduced.
What about N(A) stream students? I really thought they suffered a worse fate.
The through-train programme for N(A) students might sort of remove the stigma that these students are less capable than express students, hence parents might become more willing to send their children to N(A) stream if their PSLE grades are the in-betweens.
However, the pressure of students might not be totally gone, wouldn't the parents want their children to enter this programme in order to secure a place in poly, and finally uni?
As for the IP for express students, I wonder why there is a need for a JC to specify the feeder secondary schools.
Isn't that akin to segregating the student population?
Perhaps some schools, for eg VS IP students going to VJC seems reasonable.
But specifying some other non-affliated, non-related school to a JC seems to me, a signal telling the students, hey our IP students goes there, so if even if you're not, after your O levels, you should be heading to that JC too.
But of course, even without such 'obvious' differentiation in the non-IP era, many students of a secondary school would also flock to the same one or two JC, either due to similar culture or vicinity.
Sigh. The race to the top is never-ending.
I think it's very logical for to introduce the so-called 'through-train' programme to N level students.
All along, I've always thought that it is rather unfair for students in N(A) stream to undergo 2 national exams consecutively.
Students in the express stream are said to be stressed out by the O levels and teachers pressured by the need to finish the syllabus, so much so that it suppressed students' curiosity and fascination on a particular subject. Hence, the through-train programme was introduced.
What about N(A) stream students? I really thought they suffered a worse fate.
The through-train programme for N(A) students might sort of remove the stigma that these students are less capable than express students, hence parents might become more willing to send their children to N(A) stream if their PSLE grades are the in-betweens.
However, the pressure of students might not be totally gone, wouldn't the parents want their children to enter this programme in order to secure a place in poly, and finally uni?
As for the IP for express students, I wonder why there is a need for a JC to specify the feeder secondary schools.
Isn't that akin to segregating the student population?
Perhaps some schools, for eg VS IP students going to VJC seems reasonable.
But specifying some other non-affliated, non-related school to a JC seems to me, a signal telling the students, hey our IP students goes there, so if even if you're not, after your O levels, you should be heading to that JC too.
But of course, even without such 'obvious' differentiation in the non-IP era, many students of a secondary school would also flock to the same one or two JC, either due to similar culture or vicinity.
Sigh. The race to the top is never-ending.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
// the idiot who do not know how to use a pipette//
yup that's me!
DISCLAIMER: The rantings below do not reflect the IQ of a year 4 engineering undergrad. Please do not read further if it is too moronic for your comfort.
for every back-to-school week, I'm always full of complains and grudges
this sem is no exception.
No, i'm not going to whine how my 4 consecutive days of exams near end dec is going to slaughter me (my grades),
neither am I going to complain about the lack of online lecture recording.
I'm not even going to mention my communication breakdown (albeit one-sided) with the lecturer from germany.
well well well
fyp training has started and i'm totally caught off guard.
all the labs, equipment, chemicals seems super duper foreign to me.
i suppose others who did internship at research institutes wouldn't feel the same as me since they have been doing those 'chemical' type of lab work, if you know what I meant.
I mean, i had not touch a pipette since JC days and those were the ones with the orange rubber thingy that fitted on top of the calibrated glass tube.
Maybe the ones we now use are like, supposedly easier to use?
But then, how can it be easier to use when I don't even know what use the buttons on it are for?
I just don't get it.
All the mentors, trainers just took it for granted that every fyp student knows how to use a pipette.
Or that they thought those who do not know are intuitive enough to know what each button is meant to do.
Well, apparently I'm really not that intuitive enough.
If you give me the Iphone or Ipad to use, I probably could handle it for a day or two without the instruction manual.
I mean I haven't done that but I suppose so right?
since many tech gadgets nowadays are claiming to be user-friendly and intuitve etc.
One good thing about dealing with tech gadgets is that whenever I press something wrong, I can always reboot the whole thing.
Or when I type wrongly, save wrongly I can always delete it.
But for experiments, no way!
One step wrong and woebegone!
Re-doing is the only way out.
And due to lack of time, this really dumb person (guess who? :S) had to take the trainer's sample instead!
yes, I wasted probably tens of thousands of cells today.
I really hope karma would spare my incapability.
Maybe I sound like I'm implying that I should badger the trainer for the pipette instruction manual (if there's one) but be rest assured that I know doing so is like making a mountain out of a molehill.
What I (think I) need is someone to explain the function of each of the buttons on the pipette to me.
Not just telling me to press down once or release or wadeva.
When I get my access pass to the labs in a week or two, that's the first thing on my priority list.
And it didn't help that I have to decontaminate every single piece of tool I use.
I wonder such exaggerated decontamination work is required only for bio-related lab or in general, in every type of lab work.
I just feel very idiotic to be asking such question because I'm already a year 4 undergrad and I have no idea how to conduct a proper experiment.
or use the tools in a proper manner, for that matter.
It's just not second nature to me.
one thing I've learnt about myself,
experiments and research is so not my cup of tea.
try harder, hu/m/n.
yup that's me!
DISCLAIMER: The rantings below do not reflect the IQ of a year 4 engineering undergrad. Please do not read further if it is too moronic for your comfort.
for every back-to-school week, I'm always full of complains and grudges
this sem is no exception.
No, i'm not going to whine how my 4 consecutive days of exams near end dec is going to slaughter me (my grades),
neither am I going to complain about the lack of online lecture recording.
I'm not even going to mention my communication breakdown (albeit one-sided) with the lecturer from germany.
well well well
fyp training has started and i'm totally caught off guard.
all the labs, equipment, chemicals seems super duper foreign to me.
i suppose others who did internship at research institutes wouldn't feel the same as me since they have been doing those 'chemical' type of lab work, if you know what I meant.
I mean, i had not touch a pipette since JC days and those were the ones with the orange rubber thingy that fitted on top of the calibrated glass tube.
Maybe the ones we now use are like, supposedly easier to use?
But then, how can it be easier to use when I don't even know what use the buttons on it are for?
I just don't get it.
All the mentors, trainers just took it for granted that every fyp student knows how to use a pipette.
Or that they thought those who do not know are intuitive enough to know what each button is meant to do.
Well, apparently I'm really not that intuitive enough.
If you give me the Iphone or Ipad to use, I probably could handle it for a day or two without the instruction manual.
I mean I haven't done that but I suppose so right?
since many tech gadgets nowadays are claiming to be user-friendly and intuitve etc.
One good thing about dealing with tech gadgets is that whenever I press something wrong, I can always reboot the whole thing.
Or when I type wrongly, save wrongly I can always delete it.
But for experiments, no way!
One step wrong and woebegone!
Re-doing is the only way out.
And due to lack of time, this really dumb person (guess who? :S) had to take the trainer's sample instead!
yes, I wasted probably tens of thousands of cells today.
I really hope karma would spare my incapability.
Maybe I sound like I'm implying that I should badger the trainer for the pipette instruction manual (if there's one) but be rest assured that I know doing so is like making a mountain out of a molehill.
What I (think I) need is someone to explain the function of each of the buttons on the pipette to me.
Not just telling me to press down once or release or wadeva.
When I get my access pass to the labs in a week or two, that's the first thing on my priority list.
And it didn't help that I have to decontaminate every single piece of tool I use.
I wonder such exaggerated decontamination work is required only for bio-related lab or in general, in every type of lab work.
I just feel very idiotic to be asking such question because I'm already a year 4 undergrad and I have no idea how to conduct a proper experiment.
or use the tools in a proper manner, for that matter.
It's just not second nature to me.
one thing I've learnt about myself,
experiments and research is so not my cup of tea.
try harder, hu/m/n.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
//creating motivation//
can motivation be created?
probably can be inspired.
but for me, it's rather negative.
i have to prove critics wrong!
i dunno how, but I HAVE TO.
i seriously need some self-discipline.
there i was saying i want to prove critics wrong,
and i was already itching to either watch youtube videos or play viwawa games.
until.... i saw my last blog post,
last 2 sentences 'I must give my 100% in all the things i do. from now on.'
then i felt super guilty.
i have decided.
for this very last assignment before term starts, i am going to devote all my energy to do it.
even if the outcome is not as good as i would like it to be, at least i can say i tried my best.
and i need to remind myself about this resolution every second.
every second that i am conscious.
no more wasting of time. no procrastination. no restriction. no fatigue.
i must do it!!!
can motivation be created?
probably can be inspired.
but for me, it's rather negative.
i have to prove critics wrong!
i dunno how, but I HAVE TO.
i seriously need some self-discipline.
there i was saying i want to prove critics wrong,
and i was already itching to either watch youtube videos or play viwawa games.
until.... i saw my last blog post,
last 2 sentences 'I must give my 100% in all the things i do. from now on.'
then i felt super guilty.
i have decided.
for this very last assignment before term starts, i am going to devote all my energy to do it.
even if the outcome is not as good as i would like it to be, at least i can say i tried my best.
and i need to remind myself about this resolution every second.
every second that i am conscious.
no more wasting of time. no procrastination. no restriction. no fatigue.
i must do it!!!
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
//coffee can't keep me awake//
yea, i'm back to the blogosphere to rant again.
i have heard this many times, from different people or from different books and
it has haunt me over and over again.
although i can never exactly pinpoint the root of my troubles, they have always dampen my spirits somehow, and instil doubts in my self-belief.
until someone pointed it out plainly and bluntly.
that i had led a life so wrong.
and the cause of my misery is myself.
i myself had unknowingly constructed invisible barriers around me.
until it affected my communication with others.
i can no longer relate effectively to others.
the words i originally wanted to speak, remained in my mind.
the thoughts i had in my mind, i couldn't find the words to express.
the emotions i truly felt, kept locked away in a chest without access.
to communicate with others saps away my energy,
so i constantly feel lethargic.
so much so that coffee can't keep me awake anymore.
to understand others is making my head burst.
my mind is so full of my own thoughts that it can't contain other things.
i can't comprehend other people and they can't understand me.
i can never ever break out of this situation.
because there is no antidote to this.
yea, i'm back to the blogosphere to rant again.
i have heard this many times, from different people or from different books and
it has haunt me over and over again.
an issue that never get resolve will keep resurfacing in your
life.
although i can never exactly pinpoint the root of my troubles, they have always dampen my spirits somehow, and instil doubts in my self-belief.
until someone pointed it out plainly and bluntly.
that i had led a life so wrong.
and the cause of my misery is myself.
i myself had unknowingly constructed invisible barriers around me.
until it affected my communication with others.
i can no longer relate effectively to others.
the words i originally wanted to speak, remained in my mind.
the thoughts i had in my mind, i couldn't find the words to express.
the emotions i truly felt, kept locked away in a chest without access.
to communicate with others saps away my energy,
so i constantly feel lethargic.
so much so that coffee can't keep me awake anymore.
to understand others is making my head burst.
my mind is so full of my own thoughts that it can't contain other things.
i can't comprehend other people and they can't understand me.
i can never ever break out of this situation.
because there is no antidote to this.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
// searching for a solution //
i finally know what's wrong.
and there are just too many problems for me to rectify.
just listing down all of them would sap away all my energy.
do i even have any energy left to search for a solution?
or is the solution already there, just that I have failed to notice it?
i dunno, it seems like i'm looking for an antidote, but do not even know how it looks like in the first place.
i'll have to swallow a lot of poisons before i can find the antidote.
you tell me, it's there,
it's just there,
but i just cannot see it.
Haiz.
i finally know what's wrong.
and there are just too many problems for me to rectify.
just listing down all of them would sap away all my energy.
do i even have any energy left to search for a solution?
or is the solution already there, just that I have failed to notice it?
i dunno, it seems like i'm looking for an antidote, but do not even know how it looks like in the first place.
i'll have to swallow a lot of poisons before i can find the antidote.
you tell me, it's there,
it's just there,
but i just cannot see it.
Haiz.
Friday, July 16, 2010
//quirky//
Finally, had some time to do mindless surfing.
Funny
http://campus.udayton.edu/~swe/funstuff.htm
Dilbert's salary theorem
http://www.engineeringhumor.com/Theorems.html
i particularly like this:
why was the free electron so sad?
because it had nothing to be positive about!
Finally, had some time to do mindless surfing.
Funny
http://campus.udayton.edu/~swe/funstuff.htm
Dilbert's salary theorem
http://www.engineeringhumor.com/Theorems.html
i particularly like this:
why was the free electron so sad?
because it had nothing to be positive about!
Monday, July 12, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
// 365th post //
there's no particular reason for this post.
it's just that, i'm lost again.
Lost in thoughts, i mean.
Each time I whine about going back to school.
About doing projects.
About tutoring.
Or anything else.
I still have to continue to do so.
Suddenly, it seems as though there's no real meaning in life.
Everyone is stuck in this rat race, following the process of studying, graduating, working, marrying, child bearing, bringing up children, educating them, retiring, relaxing and finally, dying.
Years pass by without getting much notice.
People come in and out of your life without permanent stay.
It seems like a natural process.
The world is so huge and yet each individual is so insignificant.
Why are we so bothered by the rat race?
Afterall, everyone has to go through it, whether you emerge victorious or not, does it even matter?
I know I sound self-defeating, but really, does it matter?
So what if you are at the top of the world next?
The next moment, you could fall all the way to the bottom of the ladder.
Hence, I can't understand why people butter up their boss, backstab colleagues, become self-centred, display kiasuism...etc.
Perhaps, a moment of weakness? but something tells me it's more than that.
I don't know about others, but sometimes, at some moments, I get these crazy thoughts like,
what's my cousins doing in msia? my aunty probably out for a karaoke session, my uncle at mahjong and my cousins out on dates.
Also, I'll savour the memories of my past overseas trips.
I wonder if the friendly uncle in hokkaido is still selling the uber delicious curry omelette rice?
Wonder what's the temperature like at Mount Fuji?
Wonder how's the soft-spoken vietnamese tour guide is doing?
I would even go to the extent of imagining the scene of Beijing's Great Wall and Tiananmen, is it still as crowded?
Then, after which, I will feel incredulous that at this very moment, people are experiencing different weather, different living conditions, different incidents at different parts of the world.
Please don't tell me I'm going crazy =P
there's no particular reason for this post.
it's just that, i'm lost again.
Lost in thoughts, i mean.
Each time I whine about going back to school.
About doing projects.
About tutoring.
Or anything else.
I still have to continue to do so.
Suddenly, it seems as though there's no real meaning in life.
Everyone is stuck in this rat race, following the process of studying, graduating, working, marrying, child bearing, bringing up children, educating them, retiring, relaxing and finally, dying.
Years pass by without getting much notice.
People come in and out of your life without permanent stay.
It seems like a natural process.
The world is so huge and yet each individual is so insignificant.
Why are we so bothered by the rat race?
Afterall, everyone has to go through it, whether you emerge victorious or not, does it even matter?
I know I sound self-defeating, but really, does it matter?
So what if you are at the top of the world next?
The next moment, you could fall all the way to the bottom of the ladder.
Hence, I can't understand why people butter up their boss, backstab colleagues, become self-centred, display kiasuism...etc.
Perhaps, a moment of weakness? but something tells me it's more than that.
I don't know about others, but sometimes, at some moments, I get these crazy thoughts like,
what's my cousins doing in msia? my aunty probably out for a karaoke session, my uncle at mahjong and my cousins out on dates.
Also, I'll savour the memories of my past overseas trips.
I wonder if the friendly uncle in hokkaido is still selling the uber delicious curry omelette rice?
Wonder what's the temperature like at Mount Fuji?
Wonder how's the soft-spoken vietnamese tour guide is doing?
I would even go to the extent of imagining the scene of Beijing's Great Wall and Tiananmen, is it still as crowded?
Then, after which, I will feel incredulous that at this very moment, people are experiencing different weather, different living conditions, different incidents at different parts of the world.
Please don't tell me I'm going crazy =P
Thursday, July 08, 2010
// with age, comes wisdom //
I know it's still early to add another number to my age.
But celebrating some friends' birthdays still makes me feel old.
Esp if it's a threesome celebration!
Looking at the souvenir of a minature Effiel Tower really makes me feel like touring Europe!
I wonder if there's any possibility at all for me to backpack to Europe!
Afterall, it's always said to be too expensive and dangerous.
But it would be a dream come true to visit ancient castles and a change in scenery from the concrete jungle here.
Anyway, I guess, spending a few months abroad has made some people more streetsmart and wiser.
In fact, not only those who went overseas, i feel, being thrust into the working world has made all of us wiser.
For me, the aftermath of internship is that I've learnt to appreciate people whose words and actions are from the heart.
I have always thought that all humans are superficial to a certain extent.
And have never ever reflected that upon myself.
But now, I realised that I do act superficially at times too.
How?
For example, not really paying attention to what others say and blindly agree.
Only safe guarding self interest such that it might neglect the interests of others.
Insisting that I could do without help on the pretext of not wanting to inconvenience others when I really do need some help.
Not clarifying doubts.
And the list goes on.
I truly think cowardice on my part is the main culprit.
I now feel the need to constantly remind myself to speak and act from the heart.
And always act in the best interests of others. which is known as emphathy.
And I've experienced the benefits of doing so.
Somehow, people will be more receptive of your ideas and of course, a better relationship between people will be formed.
The world would become a better place.
Clarke Quay.
Last week at MBS. Obsessed with the structure! 
Evidence of poor photog skills...
I know it's still early to add another number to my age.
But celebrating some friends' birthdays still makes me feel old.
Esp if it's a threesome celebration!
Looking at the souvenir of a minature Effiel Tower really makes me feel like touring Europe!I wonder if there's any possibility at all for me to backpack to Europe!
Afterall, it's always said to be too expensive and dangerous.
But it would be a dream come true to visit ancient castles and a change in scenery from the concrete jungle here.
Anyway, I guess, spending a few months abroad has made some people more streetsmart and wiser.
In fact, not only those who went overseas, i feel, being thrust into the working world has made all of us wiser.
For me, the aftermath of internship is that I've learnt to appreciate people whose words and actions are from the heart.
I have always thought that all humans are superficial to a certain extent.
And have never ever reflected that upon myself.
But now, I realised that I do act superficially at times too.
How?
For example, not really paying attention to what others say and blindly agree.
Only safe guarding self interest such that it might neglect the interests of others.
Insisting that I could do without help on the pretext of not wanting to inconvenience others when I really do need some help.
Not clarifying doubts.
And the list goes on.
I truly think cowardice on my part is the main culprit.
I now feel the need to constantly remind myself to speak and act from the heart.
And always act in the best interests of others. which is known as emphathy.
And I've experienced the benefits of doing so.
Somehow, people will be more receptive of your ideas and of course, a better relationship between people will be formed.
The world would become a better place.
Clarke Quay.
Last week at MBS. Obsessed with the structure!
Evidence of poor photog skills...
// the online battle //
Even though there's still almost 2 months to start of year 4, the impending course registration has just thrown most students into a frenzy.
Heard from sources that it's nearly impossible to get all the modules of your choice.
At least that's what they say of yr 4 mse.
Unless, will the help of ultra fast clicking and lady luck.
I guess having a lightning computer speed would help too.
Especially major prescibed electives, most people will fight for the popular ones. (which I don't know what are those and couldn't care less)
Speaking of which, I still can't make a final decision yet.
Oh whatever, for the past 5 semesters no guy has ever made my heart thump harder than our dearest 'fastest finger first' system.
Or for that matter, sweaty palms and a sudden shoot up in temperature.
I daresay it's the most exciting event that happens in ntu every semester, with the exception of probably the youth olympics (which is exciting only cuz it's a once in a blue moon affair)
In fact I'm always more driven to get the modules that I want, rather than studying them during the semester.
The satisfaction that comes with securing a place in a module of your choice just falls short of getting an A grade.
No kidding.
Even though there's still almost 2 months to start of year 4, the impending course registration has just thrown most students into a frenzy.
Heard from sources that it's nearly impossible to get all the modules of your choice.
At least that's what they say of yr 4 mse.
Unless, will the help of ultra fast clicking and lady luck.
I guess having a lightning computer speed would help too.
Especially major prescibed electives, most people will fight for the popular ones. (which I don't know what are those and couldn't care less)
Speaking of which, I still can't make a final decision yet.
Oh whatever, for the past 5 semesters no guy has ever made my heart thump harder than our dearest 'fastest finger first' system.
Or for that matter, sweaty palms and a sudden shoot up in temperature.
I daresay it's the most exciting event that happens in ntu every semester, with the exception of probably the youth olympics (which is exciting only cuz it's a once in a blue moon affair)
In fact I'm always more driven to get the modules that I want, rather than studying them during the semester.
The satisfaction that comes with securing a place in a module of your choice just falls short of getting an A grade.
No kidding.
Friday, July 02, 2010
// the only constant is change //
Less than 2 months to the start of senior year..oh no.
Having exposed to the industry for some months, my view has changed from being afraid to more certain and now, looking forward.
Yet, it's time to go back to school.
I'm not so looking forward to fyp, surely.
My fyp haven even started and I'm already dreading it.
I'm regretting taking this bio-related project, after understanding it further.
Haiz, double haiz, triple haiz.
Have I chose the wrong project?
Even if that is so, it's too late for regrets.
Yes, I'm whining again.
Though i did not have an easy time during my IA, but at least I was still interested the work I was doing, which is totally materials related.
Looking forward to preparing samples.
Learning from the technicians.
Using the equipment.
Putting in the samples.
Waiting for the results.
Small things that kept me happy.
And it was this interest that drove me on.
Now that I am told that the 'materials' related part for my project is shaved off by alot
and the bio component is the mainstay, I'm super duper unhappy about it.
Sigh.
Initially I wanted to try new things but looks like I am still more happy doing something familiar.
Maybe I should have chosen a project related to my IA project.
In addition, throughout 3 years I have never set a foot into the actual MSE labs.
And for fyp we're supposed to be stuck there almost every week.
ARGH
Furthermore, the thought of studying really frightens me.
I don't mind attending lectures, tutorials.
But mugging for CAs, exams, yet again.
Facing kiasu people again.
These thoughts seriously saddens me.
I really really really really really really hope I can get a psychology module.
To motivate me to continue schooling.
Less than 2 months to the start of senior year..oh no.
Having exposed to the industry for some months, my view has changed from being afraid to more certain and now, looking forward.
Yet, it's time to go back to school.
I'm not so looking forward to fyp, surely.
My fyp haven even started and I'm already dreading it.
I'm regretting taking this bio-related project, after understanding it further.
Haiz, double haiz, triple haiz.
Have I chose the wrong project?
Even if that is so, it's too late for regrets.
Yes, I'm whining again.
Though i did not have an easy time during my IA, but at least I was still interested the work I was doing, which is totally materials related.
Looking forward to preparing samples.
Learning from the technicians.
Using the equipment.
Putting in the samples.
Waiting for the results.
Small things that kept me happy.
And it was this interest that drove me on.
Now that I am told that the 'materials' related part for my project is shaved off by alot
and the bio component is the mainstay, I'm super duper unhappy about it.
Sigh.
Initially I wanted to try new things but looks like I am still more happy doing something familiar.
Maybe I should have chosen a project related to my IA project.
In addition, throughout 3 years I have never set a foot into the actual MSE labs.
And for fyp we're supposed to be stuck there almost every week.
ARGH
Furthermore, the thought of studying really frightens me.
I don't mind attending lectures, tutorials.
But mugging for CAs, exams, yet again.
Facing kiasu people again.
These thoughts seriously saddens me.
I really really really really really really hope I can get a psychology module.
To motivate me to continue schooling.
Monday, June 28, 2010
// Toy Story 3 //
I have forgotten when had the previous Toy Story sequel been screened.
In fact, I can only vaguely remember the storyline.
But of course, no one forgets Sheriff Woody, Buzz Lightyear, or for that matter, Rex and the potato couple.
Maybe it's only me.
Even though reviews exclaimed the film to be touching or some tear-jerker,
the tale did not tug at my heart's strings.
Probably, I have to admit, I'm very much overaged for it.
Hence it didn't struck a chord with me, unlike the previous two movies.
The toys didn't grow, but like Andy, I did.
I was hoping the film to chronicle the feelings people have when they have outgrown toys but still, looking at the toys would bring back many happy memories.
This was kept till the last part, when I was already frozen in the cool air and yearning to thaw myself.
But of course, focusing on this wouldn't be fair as the main point is the toys' adventures in sunnyside daycare and the incineration plant.
Speaking of the incinerator, surprisingly, even to myself, I did not feel even a tad of anxiousness for the toys when they held hands before they were about to perish in the fire.
All the time, I was thinking that somehow they will be saved.
Rewind 5 years back, I might believed that they are about to perish and might even feel sad.
Alas, I'm indeed too overaged to appreciate this.
However, the wise cracks and humour do make it a winner.
What makes Toy Story so different from many other famed animated films, is that there is no ugly green monster, no superhero moves, just something as simple and everyday as toys talking, moving and feeling like humans do.
First launched way back in 1995, Toy Story made every child's dream come true.
In today's world, where traditional figurines are continuously being replaced by hi-tech toys like computer games, the success of Toy Story 3 is even more valuable.
I have forgotten when had the previous Toy Story sequel been screened.
In fact, I can only vaguely remember the storyline.
But of course, no one forgets Sheriff Woody, Buzz Lightyear, or for that matter, Rex and the potato couple.
Maybe it's only me.
Even though reviews exclaimed the film to be touching or some tear-jerker,
the tale did not tug at my heart's strings.
Probably, I have to admit, I'm very much overaged for it.
Hence it didn't struck a chord with me, unlike the previous two movies.
The toys didn't grow, but like Andy, I did.
I was hoping the film to chronicle the feelings people have when they have outgrown toys but still, looking at the toys would bring back many happy memories.
This was kept till the last part, when I was already frozen in the cool air and yearning to thaw myself.
But of course, focusing on this wouldn't be fair as the main point is the toys' adventures in sunnyside daycare and the incineration plant.
Speaking of the incinerator, surprisingly, even to myself, I did not feel even a tad of anxiousness for the toys when they held hands before they were about to perish in the fire.
All the time, I was thinking that somehow they will be saved.
Rewind 5 years back, I might believed that they are about to perish and might even feel sad.
Alas, I'm indeed too overaged to appreciate this.
However, the wise cracks and humour do make it a winner.
What makes Toy Story so different from many other famed animated films, is that there is no ugly green monster, no superhero moves, just something as simple and everyday as toys talking, moving and feeling like humans do.
First launched way back in 1995, Toy Story made every child's dream come true.
In today's world, where traditional figurines are continuously being replaced by hi-tech toys like computer games, the success of Toy Story 3 is even more valuable.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
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