//self-introspection//

Ok. After all the complaints, I’m staying on for the time being.
Actually I’ve already fulfilled my one week’s notice.
But people keep encouraging me to stay so I succumbed (typical of me)
Anyway, I shall take on life’s challenges as it comes.
Resigning is simply a way of escaping.
Sadly, that’s what I’m skilled at.
Escaping when there are problems.
Deep down, I know that some of the stress actually come from myself.
Whenever the environment doesn’t support me, I’ll feel stressed.
Whenever other people feel stressed, I do too.
Is that empathy or just plainly indicates that I’m a weakling?
Even if I hate to admit.
Strong people aren’t affected by the environment.
Strong people stand confident in the face of adversity.
I’m the exact opposite.
Succumbing to the environment and crumbling to adversity.
I know I shouldn’t stay like this.
But taking the first step to change and to continue with it is an absolutely daunting task.

//pricked by conscience//

Feeling extremely guilty.
It was 1745 already but one of the snack girls still asked me to submit a cv.
No choice.
I got to seek help from HER again.
I have yet to know her name but she has helped me without complains for many times.
How many times have I handed in late to her and she still give me a thumbs-up sign?
If it were other people, they would have rejected me and put me in a difficult position.
Or even scolded me.
But it’s not my fault!
Who ask them to give it to me late?
What more can I do??

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"What we know is not much. What we don't know is enormous."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 53%

Well, you don't have the worst job in the world, but it's not great. And don't worry, you're not the problem - your company is. Start looking around for another job, even if you're not totally fed up. Because in time, you're going to be dying to quit!

Should You Quit Your Job?

Your Life Is Worth...

$882,500

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Your Learning Style: Curious and Brilliant

You are a very abstract learner. You can grasp even the most complex theories. You Should Study: Astronomy Biology Chemistry Computer Science Linguistics Mathematics Philosophy Physics Psychology

What Should You Study?

Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Thinking

You are: Objective, honest, and credible Intellectually curious, with many diverse interests More inclined toward ideas than people Fiercely independent and unapologetically unconventional

What's Your Personality Cluster?

//A typical day at the worst local ban--part 1//

"Help! Stop adding!" I yelled, my voice fading as my arms were crushing under the weight of leather products the snack girls had bought.
"Wei Min, could you please help me photocopie these leatherrss?" animalmanure was saying.
"Sure!" I replied, in a half-hearted to fake a smile.
In actual fact, what was going through my mind was, "Wa lao eh? How to photocopie, I mean, photocopy leathers?"
My heart sank. The first task given to me was bound to be a faliure.

"Wei Min? Are you listening?" The lightly-accent voice interrupted my thoughts.
"Oh..oh yes" I assured animalmanure, at the same time relieved that I was holding letters, not leathers.

Letters from Iwo Jima

Initially interested in this movie because of a history lesson

when I was in sec 4.

The words "Iwo Jima" was kept in my mind till now.

I could never forget the gleam in his eyes and the excitement in his voice as my teacher related the story of the battle of Iwo Jima.

But still it cannot be compared to watching the "reel" action on the big screen!

This movie speaks of loyalty, fate, humanity, fear and the vulnerability of human beings in the dark times of war.

haha. gosh. i'm so nervous right now. 2.30pm. right.

" Enjoy what is there to enjoy.

Suffer what is there to suffer.

Treat both enjoyment and sufferings as facts of life."

//newfound freedom//


Finally I quitted my job!
Time for a BREAK!
After all, it’s been a good three months working…
So I guess it’s a normal thing to miss the workplace and the seniors?
I think, after these three months of slogging, I sort of got used to the routine.
So now to break away from that kind of lifestyle just rendered me bored.
Which means only one thing.
It’s time to get another job!


Lately, I’ve been incoherent in my entries.
Look at the first paragraph.
The first sentence and second sentence sort of contradicted each other.
It’s like this when your mind is confused.
It’s like this when your life is in your own control.
For the past 17-odd years you have been controlled in many ways.
Be it your parents, your friends, your teachers.
But now, the present me…maybe I should say, ever since ‘A’ level exams ended, everyone else had minimal control over my life.
Over how I spend my time.
Over what I wear, what I eat, drink.
Everyday.
All of these were decisions made by myself.


Even to quit the job.
It’s solely my own decision.
But there may regrets.


Now, I totally understand the difficulty in making decisions when facing uncertainties.