//getting a glimpse of light//
finally!
I've thought things through and decided not to run away from my project and tutorials (for now, that is.)
my brain is functioning!
I just thought of something to do abt the project
and as for tutorials...
i'm logging off now to do them =D
Sunday, August 31, 2008
//escape from reality//
I'm more and more certain that I'm a reality escapist. (if there is such a term)
Running away from real-life problems seems like second nature to me.
And I don't know why.
For example, when our project run into problems, I can easily put them at the back of my mind.
I don't know if I have little willpower or what... but whenever I see a complex problem to solve, I'll just put it aside and never try to solve it, be it homework or project work.
Maybe it's because I don't even trust myself.
And there are signs of this.
Whenever I found some web articles to analyse, usually my mind draws a blank...and even if I have form a certain views or impression about the article, I doubt myself whether my views would even be convincing to the others.
Whenever I found a way to solve a problem, I have doubts whether my concept of the topic is even correct.
Why why why?
perhaps it's sheer cowardice.
i see myself as such a weird person.
i don't seem to think like a normal person would.
i seem to have different understanding of a certain thing...sometimes very different from others.
most importantly, i don't dare to voice out.
i'm such a coward.
currently, my mind is in a turmoil and it's telling my to forget about doing my homework and just copy answers during tutorials.
tomorrow will be better.
tomorrow all lectures and tutorials would make me forget about the turmoil i'm going through now.
i'm just escaping from today.
it's hard to battle with my mind.
// Zoo! //
it has been a good five years since i visited that "only for children and tourists" place.
what can i say?
it's such a good break from the busy school life.
I don't really adore animals
but
it felt good
just walking among trees,
on the grasses,
admiring the flora and fauna,
inhaling the fresh air.
walking in nature has always been so relaxing.
not to forget, I simply love the GREEN-NESS of that place =D
I'm more and more certain that I'm a reality escapist. (if there is such a term)
Running away from real-life problems seems like second nature to me.
And I don't know why.
For example, when our project run into problems, I can easily put them at the back of my mind.
I don't know if I have little willpower or what... but whenever I see a complex problem to solve, I'll just put it aside and never try to solve it, be it homework or project work.
Maybe it's because I don't even trust myself.
And there are signs of this.
Whenever I found some web articles to analyse, usually my mind draws a blank...and even if I have form a certain views or impression about the article, I doubt myself whether my views would even be convincing to the others.
Whenever I found a way to solve a problem, I have doubts whether my concept of the topic is even correct.
Why why why?
perhaps it's sheer cowardice.
i see myself as such a weird person.
i don't seem to think like a normal person would.
i seem to have different understanding of a certain thing...sometimes very different from others.
most importantly, i don't dare to voice out.
i'm such a coward.
currently, my mind is in a turmoil and it's telling my to forget about doing my homework and just copy answers during tutorials.
tomorrow will be better.
tomorrow all lectures and tutorials would make me forget about the turmoil i'm going through now.
i'm just escaping from today.
it's hard to battle with my mind.
// Zoo! //
it has been a good five years since i visited that "only for children and tourists" place.
what can i say?
it's such a good break from the busy school life.
I don't really adore animals
but
it felt good
just walking among trees,
on the grasses,
admiring the flora and fauna,
inhaling the fresh air.
walking in nature has always been so relaxing.
not to forget, I simply love the GREEN-NESS of that place =D
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
//a pessimistic optimist//
Today's lessons ended rather early (so will tml, due to union's day)
and I had some time to think outside of physics and found the inspiration to blog a short entry.
Well, today's tech com class was rather embarrassing as I e-mailed a crap piece of in-text citations to the tutor (on behalf of the grp).
As we had not decide on the topic for the project, we actually wasted alot of time deciding the topic when we were supposed to do the citations.
Anyway, as I was typing for my life in order to hand up the piece of work, I read my friend's handwriting wrongly. (if only I had some common sense)
It was a rush as we were supposed to e-mail him and he would project his laptop screen and check his account in real time. (as such everyone can see your mistakes =S)
we were the last grp to hand in and made the most mistakes.
argh. I think the tutor will forever remember my name as I sent to him through my e-mail account.
it was also the first time lugging my laptop to sch.
as i wanted my bag to be lighter, i purposely did not bring my umbrella to school.
as you would have guessed, i was crossing my fingers and hoping it would not rain.
on the way back home, after alighting from the mrt, guess what- it was pouring so heavily at khatib-i was cursing my bad luck and decided to take shelter at the bus stop (with my 2.4 kg laptop) if it was still raining after my bus ride.
when the bus was near those factories at yck, it rained even harder and i thought i was destined to wait for the rain to stop.
BUT the weather is so unpredictable!
somehow, at the few bus stops before i alight, the rain suddenly trickled to a light drizzle.
Haha. imagine how glad I was!
Today's lessons ended rather early (so will tml, due to union's day)
and I had some time to think outside of physics and found the inspiration to blog a short entry.
Well, today's tech com class was rather embarrassing as I e-mailed a crap piece of in-text citations to the tutor (on behalf of the grp).
As we had not decide on the topic for the project, we actually wasted alot of time deciding the topic when we were supposed to do the citations.
Anyway, as I was typing for my life in order to hand up the piece of work, I read my friend's handwriting wrongly. (if only I had some common sense)
It was a rush as we were supposed to e-mail him and he would project his laptop screen and check his account in real time. (as such everyone can see your mistakes =S)
we were the last grp to hand in and made the most mistakes.
argh. I think the tutor will forever remember my name as I sent to him through my e-mail account.
it was also the first time lugging my laptop to sch.
as i wanted my bag to be lighter, i purposely did not bring my umbrella to school.
as you would have guessed, i was crossing my fingers and hoping it would not rain.
on the way back home, after alighting from the mrt, guess what- it was pouring so heavily at khatib-i was cursing my bad luck and decided to take shelter at the bus stop (with my 2.4 kg laptop) if it was still raining after my bus ride.
when the bus was near those factories at yck, it rained even harder and i thought i was destined to wait for the rain to stop.
BUT the weather is so unpredictable!
somehow, at the few bus stops before i alight, the rain suddenly trickled to a light drizzle.
Haha. imagine how glad I was!
Thought of the Day:
Life is like a bus journey.
there is no telling whether your destination is shining or raining.
Monday, August 18, 2008
//brain freeze//
year 2 subjects are oh-so-hard.
it's hard to figure out what the ms2002 lecturer is talking about.
it's difficult to draw free body diagrams for ms2005.
it's a daunting task to complete the ms2008 tutorial.
and I haven't got a single idea of how to do my ms2010 tutorial.
my mind seems to detach itself from all the engineering stuff.
it's currently full of Olympics events, senses and perception (psychology) and consumer/producer surplus. (yes it's back to econs after a 3-yr hiatus)
now I wonder why am I here in MSE.
gotta 're-discover' my motivation in coming here.
year 2 subjects are oh-so-hard.
it's hard to figure out what the ms2002 lecturer is talking about.
it's difficult to draw free body diagrams for ms2005.
it's a daunting task to complete the ms2008 tutorial.
and I haven't got a single idea of how to do my ms2010 tutorial.
my mind seems to detach itself from all the engineering stuff.
it's currently full of Olympics events, senses and perception (psychology) and consumer/producer surplus. (yes it's back to econs after a 3-yr hiatus)
now I wonder why am I here in MSE.
gotta 're-discover' my motivation in coming here.
// an Olympic Silver for Singapore? //
Though yesterday marked the end of a 48-year medal drought for Singapore, the debate about foreign talent is never-ending.
Perhaps this medal the table-tennis team has won for Singapore would shut the skeptics up, but my guess is that, it would not be for long.
It seems to me that only the country's leaders are excited and joyful about this occasion, as shown by ministers turning up for the matches and PM Lee doing away the live telecast of the National Day Rally (the finals against China was shown instead).
On the other hand, many people in the general population are still sceptical of the win and some may even not feel any joy or happiness.
I can understand those feelings.
Afterall, the ones who represented Singapore are not born and bred here.
However, on the other side of the coin, if the foreign talent policy did not exist, Singapore may have to wait 60, 80 or even another 100 years to win another Olympic medal.
This brings me to the question why is this so.
It's not that we don't have the local talent.
It's simply because we do not develop our homegrown talents.
There is always an opportunity cost to incur when we favour to do one thing over another.
In our society, sadly, the chase for paper and material gains has caused our sporting talents to be under-developed.
No matter how good one is in a sports, the tendency is that one would follow the society's invisble command to take on a 9-5 job, taking sports as a recreation activity.
That shows how practical Singaporeans are.
Exactly how many out there are playing sports as though it's their life?
Therein lies the difference between great athletes and average ones.
In my opinion, if you like sports, you do it for it's own sake.
You don't train for the money.
Though yesterday marked the end of a 48-year medal drought for Singapore, the debate about foreign talent is never-ending.
Perhaps this medal the table-tennis team has won for Singapore would shut the skeptics up, but my guess is that, it would not be for long.
It seems to me that only the country's leaders are excited and joyful about this occasion, as shown by ministers turning up for the matches and PM Lee doing away the live telecast of the National Day Rally (the finals against China was shown instead).
On the other hand, many people in the general population are still sceptical of the win and some may even not feel any joy or happiness.
I can understand those feelings.
Afterall, the ones who represented Singapore are not born and bred here.
However, on the other side of the coin, if the foreign talent policy did not exist, Singapore may have to wait 60, 80 or even another 100 years to win another Olympic medal.
This brings me to the question why is this so.
It's not that we don't have the local talent.
It's simply because we do not develop our homegrown talents.
There is always an opportunity cost to incur when we favour to do one thing over another.
In our society, sadly, the chase for paper and material gains has caused our sporting talents to be under-developed.
No matter how good one is in a sports, the tendency is that one would follow the society's invisble command to take on a 9-5 job, taking sports as a recreation activity.
That shows how practical Singaporeans are.
Exactly how many out there are playing sports as though it's their life?
Therein lies the difference between great athletes and average ones.
In my opinion, if you like sports, you do it for it's own sake.
You don't train for the money.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Friday, August 08, 2008
// no longer a freshie- going into sophomore year//
my, how fast, one academic year has already passed.
to me, it's the feeling of trepidation as the prospect of a working life inches closer.
perhaps i should not think too much.
live for the moment, as some people might say.
anyway, it's goodbye canteen A and hello the new foodcourt.
eating has never been so cool (literally, with air-con)
however, the taste of the food did not improve.
some stalls have changed hands, like the western food (said to be a branch originally from NUS)
those which did remained have charged higher prices.
well, other than this, i also have another grumble.
today i ate char siew rice (rice is the chicken rice type) from the chicken rice stall.
it was so greasy, the char siew (they translate into BBQ pork) and rice was practically glistening at me.
my stomach did a flip flop as I tried to finish it (drinking lots of soya milk in the process)
no wonder the stall had a lack of patrons in comparison to other stalls.
i doubt the chicken rice would taste any better.
although a perennial favourite among students, i guess it will lose it appeal as it is not cooked by singaporeans.
(FYI: the cook is from a certain country that experiences winter- that explains the ultra oily dish-i don't think i need to say more)
on the academic side, it's a headache in planning the timetable as we have to think whether we want to go for overseas exchange programs in yr 3(which by the way is super ex, unless you have high GPA) whether to take a minor, whether to do yr 3 attachment overseas.
but i guess i will more or less see how it goes before deciding.
i believe, whichever road that is meant for me will appear when the time comes.
no point fretting about it now as there are so many unpredictable factors.
today i went with wt to see our mentor.
when he saw wt's cGPA, he let out a loud WOW.
lol.
well, i have WOW-ed before already, at her ~4.7 GPA
then he says to her "you are a confirmed, very safe in the first class honours region"
then they kept talking about some research programme which only the top 5% can get into .
all the while i pretended to nod and pay attention.
then, the focus turned to me.
well my Cs in math and physics did not escape his eyes and he began to frighten me off by saying I will suffer in two of the modules this sem and one module in yr 3 as those relied heavily on physics concepts.
he said it in such a matter-of-fact way that i had to agree.
the two solutions he offered:
1. ignore your weaknesses (if in future you don't intend to stay in engin industry)
2. fix your weaknesses (if you really want to become an engineer)
he says "if you can get an 'A' in MS2008 this sem, you would have eliminated your weakness"
my reaction: totally fat hope
my, how fast, one academic year has already passed.
to me, it's the feeling of trepidation as the prospect of a working life inches closer.
perhaps i should not think too much.
live for the moment, as some people might say.
anyway, it's goodbye canteen A and hello the new foodcourt.
eating has never been so cool (literally, with air-con)
however, the taste of the food did not improve.
some stalls have changed hands, like the western food (said to be a branch originally from NUS)
those which did remained have charged higher prices.
well, other than this, i also have another grumble.
today i ate char siew rice (rice is the chicken rice type) from the chicken rice stall.
it was so greasy, the char siew (they translate into BBQ pork) and rice was practically glistening at me.
my stomach did a flip flop as I tried to finish it (drinking lots of soya milk in the process)
no wonder the stall had a lack of patrons in comparison to other stalls.
i doubt the chicken rice would taste any better.
although a perennial favourite among students, i guess it will lose it appeal as it is not cooked by singaporeans.
(FYI: the cook is from a certain country that experiences winter- that explains the ultra oily dish-i don't think i need to say more)
on the academic side, it's a headache in planning the timetable as we have to think whether we want to go for overseas exchange programs in yr 3(which by the way is super ex, unless you have high GPA) whether to take a minor, whether to do yr 3 attachment overseas.
but i guess i will more or less see how it goes before deciding.
i believe, whichever road that is meant for me will appear when the time comes.
no point fretting about it now as there are so many unpredictable factors.
today i went with wt to see our mentor.
when he saw wt's cGPA, he let out a loud WOW.
lol.
well, i have WOW-ed before already, at her ~4.7 GPA
then he says to her "you are a confirmed, very safe in the first class honours region"
then they kept talking about some research programme which only the top 5% can get into .
all the while i pretended to nod and pay attention.
then, the focus turned to me.
well my Cs in math and physics did not escape his eyes and he began to frighten me off by saying I will suffer in two of the modules this sem and one module in yr 3 as those relied heavily on physics concepts.
he said it in such a matter-of-fact way that i had to agree.
the two solutions he offered:
1. ignore your weaknesses (if in future you don't intend to stay in engin industry)
2. fix your weaknesses (if you really want to become an engineer)
he says "if you can get an 'A' in MS2008 this sem, you would have eliminated your weakness"
my reaction: totally fat hope
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