//weather is turning better-for the moment//

Class bbq was good.
Everything was organised and no dilly-dally-ing
Haha...and food was edible and nice.
No regrets that I went =)
Topics of the day were finding jobs and driving tests...
Wow...what a change from last time...
No one talked about A levels, Uni, faculties...
I wonder if a change of environment and going into separate paths has made us cherish other people more

//blessings from the weather//

23-25 Dec: Student Kenshu(camp)
An experience like never before.
"Thrown face"countless times during that short 3 days.
But maybe that is not a bad thing after all.
We can learn from our mistakes so as to handle the same situation better next time.
Hmm..all those mistakes made are attributed to the lack of preparation on our part.
That's why the group cheers are so sian that nobody in our group felt like cheering while other groups' cheers seemed so special and unique.
That’s why I stuttered in front of so many people during the intro to our group performance on fun night. (btw, I got the script only about half hour before our group's turn)
That’s why I fell down on the muddy grass as I was turning round and round, with my head on the stick during the "survivor" game.

Tired…super tired…slept only 3-4 hours each day of the camp
But it's nice to know some Malaysian student believers better =P
Though sleeping time was sacrificed.
By the end of the last day, I was so tired that I couldn't feel reality.
People around me seemed so unreal…like I’m in a dream.
Scary right?
But I really tried not to doze off during Buddhist lectures.
Well…learnt quite a lot.

Compassion is to help people that you know to make the right judgment and not to pretend that you never see anything when people do something wrong.

Among the many paths of life, which should we take?
Buried in the many troubles in life, what should we do?
Nobody can give anyone a satisfying answer.
Instead of praying for good grades and getting what you want, we should actually pray sincerely for the wisdom, strength and willpower to overcome the difficulties in life and find the path that will really suit us.


Work is getting less stressful everyday…
I guess once you get the hang of it, you won't keep thinking of slacking at home.
However the down side is that, you have less time for TV, blogging, contacting friends, replying people etc…
Everyday, joining the morning rush really makes me feel at least 6 years older.
Like I’m working permanently…for people working in the same company, doing the same old thing forever…how can they managed it?
Work is so boring that I think I will keep job-hopping when it's time for me to join the morning rush permanently.
Well…I guess excitement comes when you see people when you least expect it.
Like mr potato chua chatting in Chinese over lunch with a lady at the food centre you frequent during lunch.

Or the elderly man who calls himself "national treasure" in the video you watched on the eve of national day in school. (The multi-tasking busker wearing clogs, juggling florescent green tennis balls and blowing a harmonica, all at the same time….And I almost banged into him! For his superb entertainment, he earned my $1 = )

Or when you were thinking " why is this person wearing shades indoors?" Then, your jaw dropped when you realise it is Fiona Xie smiling and walking into the office like a common person.

//bit of rain//

haha. see see! I also got my own virtual pet!
Feed haro with bamboo, thanks!
There is just too much to blog about, from attending my cousin's wedding in malaysia to my job.
But i've been too busy and lazy =X

Just like i've said, our camping group is just going to fall to pieces.
I can't co-operate with my co-leader because he is too arrogant and nonsensical.
Two members already dropped out.
The mentors talked to us today and I had to wait 1hr plus at the mrt station after my work for them to arrive.
Then they just beat around the bush without pinpointing anything.
Why must people be afraid to say what is wrong?

The trip to malaysia was a nice break even though I had to take 4 days' no-pay leave.
I was one of the "jie mei" accompanying the bride, since my cousin did not have any bridesmaid.
It was easy, and I earned a hongbao in ringgit. Basically just follow the bride everywhere.
At the banquet, food was not bad, but when can they ever stop engaging karaoke singers to entertain us?
It seem to be a trend there.
I have nothing against it just that someday, it'll just break someone's eardrums and render him/her deaf.
The next day, it off to A'famosa, a short route from malacca's city centre.
My uncle got free "bungalow" chalets for a night and cowboy town tickets.
Next morning it's shopping at malacca city centre.
The road was too bumpy and my aunt vomitted at the roadside halfway...well i definitely agree! Sitting in a car makes me feel like i'm on some roller coaster.
Then, my sis was looking for a pair of shoes.
Strangely, all the shops sell the same few designs at practically the same price.
What do they earn???


Ok, though my work is oh-so-boring because i practically key in ticketing numbers, costs and customer details by the same procedures everyday, still look forward to it lah.
Or else just stay home and slack is so bo-liao.
Some more no money to spend.
Actually i'm just looking forward to my first pay cheque. haha.
Now I also take calls, give forms to people who come in for interviews, photocopy stuff, and find invoices and send it to other departments.
At least can walk around so my back does not ache.
In the morning, I look forward to lunch break.
After lunch, I look forward to tea break.
So nice...all those airlines send cakes to us...or boss lady will buy something =)
Wonder how long I can last in this company.....
After tea break, I look forward to going home.
Shower.
Dinner.
Tv.
Watch Doha games or online.
Sleep.

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.7
Mind:	6.9
Body:	8.4
Spirit:	7.5
Friends/Family:	3.5
Love:	0
Finance:	5.5
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Your Life Analysis:

Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score leaves room for improvement. (I'll be a saint if I have a perfect life) You can make changes to improve your trouble areas, and this will bring you greater satisfaction. Focus on your weakest points and set about to change them. Do not delay your happiness and success.

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have an excellent body score, which means you are incredibly focused on maintaining a healthy lifestyle. Continue in that focus, and your body will remain healthy and strong.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score suffers, yet it does not need to be this way. ( I think it's perfectly fine) Strengthen your social network by reaffirming old bonds. Seek out new friendships, and they will provide you the reward you need. Try using MeetUp.com to find people near you who share your interests.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. There is love out there for you. Seek the advice of wise people on how to go about finding it. Do not lose hope. (well, thanks, but I haven't)

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your finances are somewhat in the middle, neither bad or exceptional. Keep doing what works for you, and improve what doesn't. Focus on long-term financial stability as your goal.(Ah, yes, I need more cash)

This is my 97th post... Yippie! I'll reach 100 before the year ends!

// why does the weather keep changing? //

wow... just realised I haven't blogged for nearly a month.
well, about nearly a month ago, I thought I couldn't live without the Internet, but after all the self-psycho-ing (er, u get what I mean) I managed to abandon the habit for almost a month. The work of willpower.
At the same time, I deserted my handphone at the most unnoticeable place and only checked it twice daily.
Erm...so habits die hard and I may appeared to be "missing in action" even after the A levels.
Sigh. So I shall cross my fingers and hope that all that I did was worth it.

It seems like after the As, everything came charging at me.
Firstly came the expected, tidying the mess I created during the exams.
It is just a surprise that mum did not scold me. haha.
She simply said: "Tidy your stuff, no need to pack them in the store room, you'll never know when you might need them" (Oh-oh..is that a bad omen)

Then, for Saturday and Sunday, I went to the Propagation Centre to attend student and youth meetings. (FYI : the PC is the place my family and I go for religious teachings and practice) haha. so hardworking right.
I'm supposed to lead a group of about 25 students to the camp in Dec.
Sigh. Sherlyn doesn't know me well. If she had, she wouldn't put my name down.
Anyone seen me lead before? No right? I'm dead.

Ok... as for now, I'm busy looking for a holiday job, will-be busy with the camp stuff, looking forward to my new specs, looking for good books to read, and...back to blogging. (back to life =)

// PSI reads 73 but I think it's like 150//

Recently, there is this highly publicised suicide case involving a man jumping off the platform at Chinese Gardens MRT.
Sad, I would say, when financial help begins to pour in only when a person dies.
This just brings attention to the issue whether the government is doing enough to help the poor.
Usually, only after a case garnered such media attention, community self-help groups or other agencies would come out to defend themselves, saying that they did not receive any application for help from the family.
Another case I would think of is the incident whereby an undergraduate resorted to robbery to pay his university school fees.

There are 2 good reasons I can think of why people are reluctant to approach the respective self-help groups.

1. They are too ashamed of their situation and do not want others to know.
Many articles on this particular suicide case have cited this reason. Doesn't it mean that there is no care in this society?
Everybody doing their own business do not even bother about other people. You have no idea what your neighbour is doing and you have never been to their home. As long as you have your leather sofa, LCD TVs, home theatre systems, who cares about what your neighbour has? Thus, I think the blame should not be blamed solely on the family who have failed to gather help. Instead of the government heaping more help on the poor, relationships between neighbours should be promoted. However this may be difficult as even the family unit may not be as closed-knit nowadays.

2. Singapore, as one of the world's most uncorrupted countries, values evidence and proofs.
However, there may be certain loop-holes as it would be hard to prove that you are so penniless that you have been surviving on instant noodles everyday for who knows how long. If i'm not wrong, there is certain regulations that make it easier for people to upgrade their homes, say for example, from a four-room to a five room flat, and harder for people to downgrade. Well, this sort of regulation probabbly exist for a good reason but it certainly would not do the poor any justice. Many financial helping schemes probabbly requires a look at the size of your home. In addition, there are so many requirements to meet, they probabbly serve to deter people from getting the approval, rather than to serve as a platform for the poor to receive help.

// A little rain to clear the haze //

People say that when you have done your best, you will have no regrets.
Can anyone tell me what is best?

Received mel's e-mail some days ago.
I understood it fully.
It is something I'm trying to deceive myself of.
People are always superficial in front of others.
So why do I expect others to be true to themselves and other people?
It is definitely an impossible task.
Accepting superficiality of people would probabbly be a better choice.
I wish I can be less idealistic.

//haze-reduced visibility to under 5 km//

Silence is golden.
But what can gold buy?
Gold can buy smiles and laughter.
But it cannot buy happiness, nor an A level cert.

PM Lee calls for responsible journalism which will help improve the lives of people

Mr Lee was speaking at the 7th Asian-European Editors' Forum.
Citing Japan, Mr Lee said that it has been very successful at improving people's lives without an aggressive media.
He said: "Their approach is different from the Western one but it suits Japan's culture and circumstances and has contributed to Japan's success. As with the political system, in the media too, each country will have to evolve its own model of the media that works for it."
Mr Lee said that even in this Internet age, there will still be a role for serious journalism.
That's because people still want information sources which are reliable and insightful.
Using Singapore as an example, Mr Lee said that the government manages the Internet with a light touch but still applies the same defamation and sedition laws to it.
And the government is mindful of the increasing impact of the new and changing technology.
Mr Lee said: "Our position will evolve as we feel our way forward, but we do not believe that we should just drift with the tide. We still need anchor points that reflect our values, our vulnerabilities and our ambitions.
"The media in Singapore must adapt to these changes, do their best to stay relevant and continue to contribute constructively to nation building."
As economies develop, Mr Lee emphasised the need for good governance.
Mr Lee added that as new generations come of age, they will want to have more say in their countries' affairs.
"Leaders must be able to respond creatively to this new situation and political systems must evolve to remain effective. Each country, including Singapore, will have to make changes in its own way and strike its own point of balance, taking into account its unique circumstances," he said.
Mr Lee said Asian countries face major challenges despite the positive economic outlook.
But groupings like ASEAN and the Asia-Europe Summit Meetings can help establish greater relations and encourage dialogues.
Mr Lee said: "ASEAN aims to be the centre of these networks of cooperation both within Asia, between Asia and Europe, as well as the Pacific with the US. But to play this role, ASEAN must also be a strong and cohesive organisation, able to partner China and India effectively."
Mr Lee was addressing some 40 international editors from countries like China and France.
When asked during a question and answer session about Temasek Holdings' deal with ShinCorp, Mr Lee said it was a commercial decision which also reflected Singapore's confidence in Thailand's economy.
He added that Temasek complied with the rules and requirements of Thailand when inking the deal.
On Mr Lee wanting to build a more open society, a German editor asked why that was not reflected in Singapore's treatment towards civil society organisations during the International Monetary Fund-World Bank Meetings here recently.
Mr Lee said Singapore allows views to be articulated, at the same time, ensuring a stable and honest political system.
He explained why certain civil society representatives were barred from entering Singapore, citing one who had run-ins with the law in other countries.
He said: "There was one chap who had broken into the World Bank offices in Washington and stolen confidential documents and had gone to Seattle and broken some other laws. And he had every intention of coming here to do no good.
"Why should I allow him in? So we said, these, we have to vet one by one. It became an issue so we said, 'all right, if you vouch for them, I'll let most of them in but these last 5, I want to make absolutely sure they're not going to cause trouble here'. I think that's quite reasonable.
"I don't mind anybody coming to have a dialogue, debate, conversation. But I don't see why I should have a riot as happened in Prague in 2000 or in Hong Kong in 2005, last year, at the WTO Meeting. That's not democracy." - CNA/ir

//evaluation//
-erm...fret not, I think the media here is very loyal to the govt. haha.
so there will still be the so-called "responsible media" for years to come... that is discounting online media and printed newsletters by WP and CSJ.
-oh..sure we are all so lucky to have such a kind govt who protects our peace and stability so much... but one wonders if such policy has made s'poreans become frogs in the well...
-as stated, riot is not equal to democracy? hmm... then it means that we are the best example of democracy?

// hazy but can still see the moon //

Mooncake festival!
Quite dumb, but when I was eating mooncake just now I was thinking about Zhu Yuan Zhang, and the history of mooncake.
Thanks to this great man, we got to savour mooncakes on this day.
Ok lah, no holiday, but it's something to look forward to every year.
Well.. I can't make a choice between traditional skin or iced skin, can't live without both =p

Anyway, enough said about that...
prelims results were back last week and I got CDE C5
an improvement from mid yr but no change from promos..
ok, it's impossible to get to uni with this kind of results..
so just got to work harder and cross my fingers.
Either I get into uni or try appealing into MI.
At worst, just be a private candidate next yr.
No fear.

//rain is threatening to pour again//

Ominous hung in the air.
Just feel like banging the head against the wall so that I can skipped the prelims and hopefully the As.
Sounds dangerous I know and I'm not going to succumb to that temptation.
Does working hard pays?
And, what if people started the marathon early and you start only when the race is ending?

You Are 35% Left Brained, 65% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Meatball Pizza

Unusual and uncompromising. You're usually the first to discover a new trend. You appreciate a good meal and good company. You're an interesting blend of traditional and modern.

What's Your Pizza Personality?

Your Aura is Violet

Idealistic and thoughtful, you have the mind and ideas to change the world. And you have the charisma of a great leader, even if you don't always use it! The purpose of your life: saying truths that other people dare not say Famous purples include: Mahatma Gandhi, Martin Luther King, Jr., Susan B. Anthony Careers for you to try: Political Activist, Inventor, Life Coach

What Color Is Your Aura?

You Are From Pluto

You are a dark, mysterious soul, full of magic and the secrets of the universe. You can get the scoop on anything, but you keep your own secrets locked in your heart. You love change and you use it to your advantage, whether by choice or chance. You don't like to compromise, to the point of being self-destructive with your stubborness. Live life with love, and your deep powers will open the world to you.

What Planet Are You From?

Great..i'm a dwarf.

// cloudy //

Last Saturday, well, haha.. ended up watching "Lovewrecked" when we wanted to watch "The Devil Wears Prada"
That's how it goes when you meet Christy. Unexpected things always happens.
Anyway, IT was a pretty comical show...and in my opinion, something taken out from the story books we girls used to read...like the BSC series or Sweet Valley.
A teenage girl met her fav rock star at a Carribean Islands resort she was doing vacation work at. Then she became disillusioned and actually erm.. sort of kidnapped or should I say, star-napped the rock star. [don't ask me how it happen, it just did]
Then, there was this sort of catfight between her and her nemesis.
Well...then just before things get out of control, she decided to speak the truth.
I think the scriptwriter is really good, peppering the entire show with humour, but I can't say the same for the story writer. The story is really incredulous and hard to believe.
But, well, just enjoy the movie without cracking your brains and wasting the brain cells that you'll need for this period of time before and during THE prelims.
Be sure to choose a threatre that is not too cold so you wouldn't bolt out of the door once the show is over and then miss the best part of the show- the credits (otherwise known as the fate of the rock star :)

// Soaking wet socks //

I shall always remember what my sec sch phy teacher once said to the class, "Time flies"
It is such a simple phrase, yet seemed so meaningful because the words came from him at the time when the O level prelims were nearing.
Time is such a strange thing, it goes on and on forever… that is, until Armageddon.
Time allows you create memories; at the same time it erases others.
My phy teacher was transferred to another sch barely a year after he made that statement.
Time allows you to plan ahead your schedule, yet it reveals the unpredictable nature of life.
To me, It seemed like yesterday that my phy teacher talk to the class.
However, in reality, I’m now facing the A level prelims in a week or so.
Time seems to come to a standstill sometimes; at other times, it seems to pass by with the blink of an eye.
Learn to treasure what you have now and don't look back with regrets.
Give the world the best you have.

// we are living in an unfair world and... am I socio-phobic?//

I was having this heated debate with mum that day.
Actually, my initial intent was to complain about the stereotyping of how girls/guys should behave.
Basically, from my own observations, it's like this:
It is perfectly alright for guys to go on their own. It means they are independent individuals. (du 2 li 4)
However, if a girl goes on their own, It is deemed as weird. IT means they are anti-social. (gu 1 du 2)
In Chinese, both words share the same word, du 2, but convey different meanings.
ah. the beauty of the language.
The thing is, my mum was bearing grudges with me for my dislike for group activities and becoming isolated from everyone in the world.
No man is an island.
But I seriously see nothing wrong with what i'm doing.
I enjoy the freedom of being alone because when I'm with others, I'll have to remind myself constantly to think of other people's feelings.
It's tiring.
I know I seem anti-social but sometimes, I have to concede that having company could be great.
Just like what GP teaches us, It's unwise to have too extreme views. Balance!

Your EQ is 107

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

You Are a Auditory Learner

You tend to remember what you hear, and you have a knack for speaking well. You excel at debating, foreign languages, and music. You would be an excellent diplomat - or rock star!

What's Your Learning Style?

excel at debating....wad nonsense?!

You Will Die at Age 82

Congratulations! You take good care of yourself. You're poised to live a long, healthy life.

What Age Will You Die?

82? can't imagine it, man

You Should Be a Science Fiction Writer

Your ideas are very strange, and people often wonder what planet you're from. And while you may have some problems being "normal," you'll have no problems writing sci-fi. Whether it's epic films, important novels, or vivid comics... Your own little universe could leave an important mark on the world!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

// sun, sea, sand and fun! //

It has been a long, long time since i went to a beach.
And an even longer time since i went to Sentosa.
Went kayaking. 1st time ok. Haha.
At least i'm safe. And mel kept laughing at me.
it's not hilarious to me at all cause i don't want to fall into water.
yi ling actually don't want to get wet too.
But in the end we all did.
But not as wet as the guys. LOL.

I daresay everyone had fun.
Who wouldn't have fun when you are immersed in an island of sun, sea, and sandy beaches?
Just makes you forget your troubles, your ambitions, your fears and hopes.
In Sentosa, you know that all you want to do is to relax and slack.
I almost forgot about the A- levels too. Hee.

But the truth hits hard when you reached home, facing your pile of undone homework which begin to pile up because your teachers use your 2-day holiday as an excuse to give more.
Luckily you have got your sunburnt skin to remind you of the fun you had.
You thought that you were so tired that you had to rest. But in actual fact you were never as energetic as now.
Gosh. Experience the power of unwinding.

Your Japanese Name Is...

Mayoko Kajuji

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest: You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future. At Your Lowest: You feel in a slump and lack creativity. In Love: You tend to be many people's ideal partner. How You're Attractive: You make people feel confident and accepted. Your Eternal Question: "What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's Your Power Color?

// 2 weeks into the aftermath of PTM //

people say that time can heal.
it really did.
i'm not as depressed as i was 2 weeks ago.
thanks to the people who have encouraged me.

now it's time to celebrate our nation's 41st birthday!
this year's NDP song is sung by Kaira GOng.
I think its not catchy enough.

My all-time favourite NDP song is by Tanya Chua-


Where I Belong
Morning comes around and I can't wait to see my sunny island
In its glorious greenery, whether rain or shine, it's still beautiful
Bright lights shine on the streets and night guiding me closer to home
To a place where I'll be safe and warm where I belong

Friends and families by my side seeing me through as I grow and learn
Everyday's experience, bitter, sweet or sour, they are still wonderful
As they become precious memories, they'll be kept close to my heart
And no matter where I am I will always know where I belong

Where I belong, where I keep my heart & soul
Where dreams come true for us
Where we walk together hand in hand
Towards a future so bright

Where I belong, where I keep my heart & soul
Where we are one big family
I want the whole world to know, I want to shout it out loud
That this is where I know I belong

don't u just find the song catchy and touching at the same time?

// Dark Friday//

I hope this will be the last Parent-Teacher Meeting that I ever have to attend.
I shouldn’t have gone at all.
Suddenly, I not only feel disappointed with myself, but utterly demoralised.
The absolute worst thing was that I couldn’t see properly.
I don’t know whether it was the cold wind from the freezing air-con that stung my eyes and made it watery or there were really tears of guilt.
It doesn’t matter.

That feeling of guilt kept lingering.
Until now, I still can feel it.
It is always easy to tell people that they can succeed, they can achieve this, achieve that.
And I’ve always thought that such encouragement do work.
Turns out that I was terribly wrong.
Unless you have really experience that “down and out” feeling, you can’t really understand the trauma they are going through.
What’s worse, It is hard to express it in words, even more difficult to relate to other people.
After all, people only can see your outward appearance, they can’t fathom what’s on your mind.
However, It would be unfair to discredit people who dish out encouragement, they are really the people with good intentions and kind hearts.

Sometimes, the truth really hurts.
I’m not as resilient a person as I thought I would be.
A few upsets in life can easily leave me discouraged and pessimistic, even to the point of threatening all aspects of my life.
And, as much as I try to psycho myself to persevere, I can’t bounce back at all.
This is truly the reality.

// the pot calling the kettle black//

Thailand: Drop Sedition Charges Used to Silence Opponents

The Thai government should withdraw sedition charges against prominent critics of caretaker Prime Minister Thaksin Shinawatra, Human Rights Watch said today. Along with a series of criminal and civil defamation suits filed by Thaksin and others, the sedition charges threaten political pluralism in the run-up to national elections expected later this year.

Thaksin is trying to muzzle critics by filing sedition charges and an avalanche of defamation suits. The use of such draconian laws against political opponents is an extremely unhealthy signal in the run-up to elections. The government should drop these charges and engage in an open debate with its opponents.

"Thaksin is trying to muzzle critics by filing sedition charges and an avalanche of defamation suits." said Brad Adams, Asia director at Human Rights Watch. "The use of such draconian laws against political opponents is an extremely unhealthy signal in the run-up to elections. The government should drop these charges and engage in an open debate with its opponents."

On April 12, 2006, the Bangkok Metropolitan Police ordered the five leaders of the People's Alliance for Democracy (PAD) ( Sondhi Limthongkul, Pipob Thongchai, Somsak Kosaisuk, Somkiat Pongpaiboon and Chamlong Srimuang ) to appear at the National Police Headquarters to be served with sedition charges.

According to Bangkok Metropolitan Police Deputy Commissioner Major-General Chatchawan Suksomchit, the PAD leaders made numerous public statements in violation of articles 116, 215 and 216 of the Thai penal code. The police claimed that these comments were illegal as they were aimed at overthrowing the government, instigating public unrest, and inciting people to break the law.

In recent months, Sondhi and his associates in the PAD have become Thaksin's most outspoken and high-profile critics. They have organized large, peaceful anti-government rallies in Bangkok and other major cities. The government has responded by branding critics as unpatriotic, and alleging that they are using unconstitutional tactics to overthrow the Thaksin government and undermine the democratic process in Thailand.

On June 29, sedition charges were also filed against eight other PAD members (Suriyasai Katasila, Karun Saingam, Rosana Tositrakul, Pian Yongnu, Suvit Watnu, Chaiwat Sinsuwong, Uychai Watta and Serichai Mai-ngam.)

In recent remarks at a gathering of senior government officials on June 29, Thaksin vowed to protect democracy with his life. He said, "I will not allow any attempts to erode democracy while I am prime minister." Yet, since coming to power in 2001, Thaksin has used a potent combination of state and corporate power to intimidate and silence critics. In its confrontation with the PAD, the Thai government has moved aggressively to freeze freedom of expression and of the media by filing, or having surrogates file, criminal defamation suits and exorbitant civil defamation claims against prominent activists and independent journalists and media organizations.

Last year, Sondhi faced more than 10 years in prison and fines and damages of over US$50 million from six defamation suits filed by the prime minister. The cases were dropped after the intervention of King Bhumibol Adulyadej, who urged Thaksin to accept criticism. However, in June 2006, the prime minister filed a new set of criminal and civil defamation charges against the PAD and Sondhi's Manager Media Group, as well as editors of Matichon newspaper, Khao Sod newspaper and Daily News newspaper. He also filed a civil defamation lawsuit against the opposition Democrat Party and its leaders, seeking compensation of US$25 million in response to their comments on corruption scandals in the government.

Human Rights Watch said that freedom of expression is a cornerstone upon which the very existence of a democratic society rests, and political speech and public debate are most highly valued as part of that right.

It is a strange thing that the same sedition act is subjected to different uses in Singapore and Thailand. Many people involved in politics have alot of charisma. They are empowered by the ability to charm their people and sway votes, and this may eventually lead them to abuse this ability. This is evident in dictatorial, possibly corrupted countries where the people hail their leaders as heroes. Being charmed by someone is often accompanied by a degree of fear. This is perhaps one way to explain why people in such countries honour their leaders despite the atrocities done to them. Even though this article states what Thailand should do, it is really doubtful when this change will eventually be accomplished.

//there's no time to be depressed//

got back the mid yrs
maths- F
chem- O
phy- D
GP- D7

no. of subjects passed at a-lvl: 1

its an all-time low.

no matter how hard the journey is, i gotta make it thru'
no point wasting yrs spent in schs
I gotta climb back to where i was. In 3 and 1/2 mths.


(sorry i wasn't in blogging mood so its abit short and in bad language)

You Are a Seeker Soul

You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges. You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions. Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist. Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!). Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others. And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you. You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically. Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas. Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading... You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose. Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily. But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

You Are Brownie Batter Ice Cream

You've been known to lick *everything* clean

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

You Are a Little Scary

You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.

How Scary Are You?

You Are 64% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

//Life is how tough you make it to be//

Another Failure. Another Sigh. All for my big fat F in Maths.
Is there time to be depressed?
No.

Think positively, since my grades has hit the rock bottom, the only way is to go up.
I want to see the daylight, feel the sunshine and not stay submerged in the murky waters, where I can't see where I'm heading and I can't feel the tears.

Is there time to change everything?
Believe with your heart and soul, there is.

//World Cup//









Some people may say, what's so interesting about 11 people chasing over a ball?
Obviously, these people do not know much about soccer.
Firstly, as the players are divided into different positions on the field (for example, defenders, midfielders and strikers) chances are, you will not see so many people fighting for the ball at one time.
Furthermore, most of the running are done by players on the field.
The game itself, to put it simply, is about controlling the ball and getting it into the net.
Thus, strictly speaking, only the goalkeeper needs to chase after the ball.

Undoubtedly, for the past few weeks, the world has been thrown into a frenzy due to diehard fans and hardcore gamblers. Yes, even in Singapore, where it is an almost impossible task for the national team to qualify for the World Cup. Who cares about S-league when the World Cup is ongoing? The publicity and media glitz given to the World Cup is comparable to our very own polling day. Owing to our exposure to the English Premier League, it is no surprise that many locals are supporters of the England team.

Quotable quotes:

"Many England players are mature club players, but immature international players."
"I am going to get you sent off."
"I can never play with him again."
"I feel the time is right to pass on the armband."

Puzzling news headlines:

"Brazil seek ref's aid"
"Netherlands coach upset by team-bus slogan"
"Shocked Brazil fans cry an Amazon river of tears"

You are 87% Scorpio

How Scorpio Are You?

a true scorpio...even in the bones =p

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas

You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept. You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking. You should major in: Natural sciences Computer science Creative writing Math Architecture Journalism

What Should You Major In?

actually, i was torn between two options in certain qns...i'm fickle-minded..=P

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

omg...u mean i shouldn't study science subjects???!!

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker. What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions. You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself. Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

How Do You Communicate?

You Are Storm

Exotic and powerful, Storm descended from a line of African priestesses. Emotions can effect your powers, but you are generally serene. Powers: controlling weather, creating winds that lift you into flight, generating lightning

Which of the X-Men Are You?

// de-Natured //

Have you ever came across this situation when in the middle of the night, when you are enjoying the music from your favourite radio station, suddenly there's this choking smell which irritates your nose and reminds you of all this cancer-causing carcinogens...and you are suddenly reminded that your secondary school general science teacher once told you that passive smokers are more at risk from lung cancer than the smokers themselves because when these carcinogens are released into the air, they are at least a thousand times more harmful to the human body...

You panicked... you run amok, all over your home, trying to find the source of that horrible smell
And you realise it's from the kitchen. You close the window, so that the overwhelming smell does not come in, yet, at the same time you are afraid that the smell does not flow out.

Yes..so what if the govt bans smoking in bus stops or segregate smokers from non-smokers in public places?
Once these people are at home, they have the right to smoke at their windows, so that their neighbours below, above or next to them can become passive smokers and innocently suffer the same ghastly consequences as they themselves.



An excerpt:

The National Environment Agency (NEA) and Health Promotion Board (HPB) are reviewing the list of places not covered under the current smoking ban, such as pubs, bus shelters, bus interchanges, public toilets, coffee shops and hawker centres. The current smoking ban covers 26 categories of places, and was last reviewed in 1997.
2. It is widely acknowledged that passive smoking, or breathing in the tobacco smoke from smokers, contributes to the risks of cancer and heart disease. Coffeeshops and hawker centres are places where families and children as well as non-smokers go often for meals. It is difficult for them to get away from second-hand smoke from smokers sitting around them.
3. The Feedback Unit is organizing four dialogue sessions to consult the public (both smokers and non-smokers) on the extension of the smoking ban to coffee shops and hawker centres. Please note that for the English and Malay speaking session, there will be English translation for feedback given in Malay.


yea...like if we sit 1m away from smokers we will not breathe in any...
like they only smoke in coffeeshops..
haiz..at least there's something being done..

//scotching//

The b-ball match was so exciting.
What got our adrenalin first pumping was the rush to get a cab outside sch.
We practically ran all the way.
And the auntie driver was so nice to allow us, 5 slim girls, in. haha.
Aj! jia you!
Actually i felt weird cheering like that.
ok. I think i just discovered my loyalty to aj today.
Hmm.... i don't know why, but there seem to be this super-strong desire for aj to win.
Until i forgot my palms turned super red and numb.
Maybe it's in human nature to want to beat someone supposedly stronger.
Or maybe i didn't realise i love aj so much =X
I have to admit that HCI put on a good show
Defence, attack and cheers.
But i'm proud to say that in aj, the spirit came alive!

//Rise and shine//

This is, perhaps, one of the few times that I felt democracy, is not the best form of solution. When the situation favours you, you tend to take everything for granted, however, when the tide turn against you, you tend to think deeper and realise what may seem ideal may not please everybody.

And I, for one, just realise that democracy, which I have been so glad for so many years that our govt is upholding it, may not create a win-win situation after all.
Perhaps it is due to the fact that I’ve always been part of the majority.

Face it. Humans, in their most inner, truest nature, are self-centred.
Many try to protect their own interest by providing a weak solution or a lame excuse out of thin air. But, of course, I’ve always believe that people should do what they want with their life and not be dictated by others. However, in certain cases, one should first consider the situation faced by other people.

Democracy- a process of majority wins
It is too broad a definition and definitely not one that can work in today’s world.
Democracy should be exercised with flexibility and priorities should be given to strong reasons and not something built from the air.

To create a win-win situation, it all boils down to having the foresight and the right plan in mind, a suitable atmosphere for discussions and getting your priorities right.
One have to learn that last-minute decisions and desperate measures will simply not work.

// Inspiration from the Sun //

I remembered, from the nuclear physics lecture during which, amazingly, I did not fall asleep, that between nuclear fission and fusion, that the latter can only occur in the Sun.

Have we take for granted this "free" source of energy?
Of course i'm not saying that you should worship the Sun.
But it is in the depths of human nature to take certain things for granted.
Certain things like family, friendship...even our very own healthy body.
We often complain of not having this, not having that...
Have we ever considered those less fortunate than us?

In Singapore, have we take our govt for granted?
Lots of time we talk about mundane things like lifts upgrading, re-roofing, block-painting.
But where are the ideals?
We want the opposition to represent our unhappiness on some govt policies.
Where are the votes?
Ultimately, most people vote to show their defiance. To be rebellious.
After all, a opposition party which have proven itself to better the present govt have yet to evolved.
In the first place, putting words into action could prove difficult for some opposition as they may have the heart but are lacking in resources.
A credible opposition can only evolve if there is a more level playing field on both sides.

// Shine and rain //

over.
OVER!

the harmonica concert.
C'est La vie.

瞬间，百感交集。
是松了一口气， 还是一丝的不舍？

戏一开演，
站在舞台上的每个人都是主角，
当灯光息灭，徐徐落幕的那一刻，
大家又归回平凡的自己。
当时那一幕幕的精彩，那一波接一波的高潮。。。
总是受到时间的威胁
随时从记忆消失。。。

人质

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙
在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差

人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎

this song has a special name, lyrics, tune =D

Your true color is Green!


What's Your True Color?

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You Are 56% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

Your World View

You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content. You value kindness and try to live by your ideals. You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material. You respect truth and are flexible. You like people, and they can readily make friends with you. You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you.

What Is Your World View?

You Are 20 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

haha...a total no-brainer...

You Are Bart Simpson

Very misunderstood, most people just dismiss you as "trouble." Little do they know that you're wise and well accomplished beyond your years. You will be remembered for: starring in your own TV show and saving the town from a comet Your life philosophy: "I don't know why I did it, I don't know why I enjoyed it, and I don't know why I'll do it again!"

The Simpsons Personality Test

You Are an Espresso

At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

that tues.
i was trying to do my electrochem mcqs...
suddenly i saw this familiar figure walking towards the elementz lab.
It was choo!
at that moment, I thought i was dreaming.
mr choo!
He's now teaching at st. nicks.
Happy and carefree.
Good...

After that tearful farewell last yr on teacher's day...
As the last cheers of " 4E3...oh yea!" faded away...
I thought I would never see him again.
Little did I expect to see him again in less than a year.

I'm so glad that choo has chosen to remain in the education service.
His warrior spirit will definitely impact more young lives.

//rainy...//

A soul-less person.
Singing a weeping song.
Can anyone see the invisible tears?

Clear mirror.
Skewed reflection.
Where is the inner self?

Humans have unlimited potential.
Yet powerless to save themselves.
From the pits of darkness or from the verge of death.

No man is an island.
Fates interlinked.
Bliss or tragedy?

crap.
slack.
fail.
immune.
sleep.

lifestyle since last year.
hate it.
no one choose to be born a loser but there are definitely people who are born losers.
change your fate.
choose to be a winner.
strong willpower.
easier said than done.

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?

Your Luck Quotient: 60%

You have an average luck quotient.There's been times when you've been extremely lucky... but also times when you've been very unlucky.You probably know that you can make your own luck in life, if you're open to it.So listen to your intuition as much as you can. It's right more often than you might expect.

How Lucky Are You?

//sudden downpour//

Nothing has ever suceeded.
I found this similarity between myself and the main character of the comic strip "Born Loser".

//Scotching sun//

that day mel fululu was saying that I only have 100m left…
whereas she still have 4km to cover.
That is… if the A-levels is a 5km run.
Haha. Words from a netballer.
Anyway, I still prefer to think that I have 400 metres left.
Ok..i’m probably trying to escape from reality.
Glad that she's doing well in maths.
More kiasu, more pia, fretting more over results.


Today there is this J1 and J2 bonding.
We played "zhong ji mi ma"
I was SUPER, DUPER HENG!!!
Luckily ee kent was game enough.
Anyway got a free lunch… hee.. pizza!
But I don't know why fululu was giving me this weird look when I cheered.
Haha. I bet you never see me cheer before.


Then, I went to causeway point with lynette and christabel.
we were like so excited taking neoprints.
haha. when the time given for decoration was up, all 3 of us screamed!
er- i think it was the 1st time this year that i actually screamed.
A pity wei zi couldnt join us =(
Watched "The Shaggy Dog"
It was a so-so movie.
And, we were late because of the popcorns and drinks.
Actually, I don't know whether to classify it as a comedy.
There are many funny, or I should say, not-so-funny scenes.
It is because while I thought some parts were quite funny, it was not funny enough to evoke laughter.
So, for most of the movie, I was struggling between to laugh or not to laugh.
Yea. It was that strange kind of movie.
Also… it reminded me of the exorcism of Emily rose due to the courtroom scenes.
At the same time it was quite heart-warming as it shows that each family member tries not to hurt the others through a high level of tolerance.
Actually the best part was when the credits roll and pictures comparing dogs in different poses with humans in the same pose.
The similarities were uncanning.
ok ok..i'm not exactly an animal lover..

oh. no. i'm 44% abnormal.
wadeva that means.

today not in a very good mood.
i know she is trying not to lose her temper.
too many a time i caught her trying to control herself when she felt like scolding people.
in the end, however, she did.
i thought she was going mad.
with anger.

what have we done to deserve this?
i know many people are concerned about our gp grades.
please do not commit the fallancy of "hasty generalisations"
but people, having dreams is definitely not enough.
we lack the action.
to turn dreams into realiy.


yesterday afternoon pe was like mad.
running with filled i-sport bottles.
did standing broad jumps until legs hurt like crazy, until can only jumped less than 1 metre.


wednesday was super busy.
as usual i will flunk my chem test...
chines "ao" get B3...mediocre results.
but i'm not re-taking.. no.
who cares about the bell-shaped curve.
so what if i'm average?
studying is for the sake of gaining knowledge and experiences, not to achieve perfect grades.
in other words, grades are the result of stuying.
becoming a more knowledgeable and having a critical mind are the effects of studying on a person.

Futhermore, i think life is a gamble and everyone should have one fair and equal chance.
so today, a second chance is given to me...
but there is no guarantee that the next time i will still have one more chance.
reminds me of jack neo movie "one more chance"..
face it.
facts are cruel.

You Are 44% Abnormal

You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

Your Birthdate: November 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense.You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends.Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone.Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive. Your strength: Your universal compassion Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings Your power color: Mauve Your power symbol: Butterfly Your Hidden Talent You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.And while this may not seem big, it can be.It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. What's" Your Hidden Talent?

// Sunny! //

// dont make people to go against their will //
// my motto //

Today mrs chng sent me on a strange errand
Find a person in 0905
And I don’t know who is she and what she look like

I thought I would need the rest of the periods to find her
Moreover, my phone battery died on me so I couldnt find help
Since its during her break, it would be even harder to find
She could be in the canteen ordering food or eating or at the ohana or outside audi or mugging in some classroom or at the library or reading room, or in the nexus or even in the toilet
Great…

I was at the canteen when I saw my saviour, ho ying
It suddenly came to my mind that shes from 09.
Seeing that she was packing her bag, looking ready to leave, I almost ran towards her
She directed me to the girl sitting alone on a bench, her eyes glued to the edu tv.
I waved at her, trying to catch her attention.
Just then, I saw some guys seated at the table behind her giving me strange looks.
No idea why.

I asked to confirm her identity and told her mrs chng wanted to see her.
Mrs WAD? She asked.
Me: mrs chng
She: who is she?
Me: my gp tutor.
In fact, in less than the 2 mins or so, she shot at me several questions.
She: See me for wad?
Me: I have no idea.
She: I hope its not that I have to write some commonwealth essay.
She: how did u managed to find me?
Me: she says you will be having lunch.
Bell rings
She: now I have lessons.
Me: oh
She: you are the rep?
Me: uh-huh
She: You have lessons now?
Me: Ya.
She: Only one class having lessons in an LT?
Before I could answer, we already reach LT5 and she was in front of me.
Well, she walks real fast.
Apparently, she was eager to go for her lessons, on the other hand, I was not-so-eager to get back to class.

Then I looked at the clock.
I had managed to find her within 10 mins.
Mrs chng was surprised.
So was I.

Currently i'm also having a bout of bad luck.
chem pre-spa. skill D score 1/8, 2/8, 0/8
I lost my GP times and prelim papers and file.
I have no idea where it went. thought it was always in the locker.
and i disseminate wrong info about what to bring for gp to shuiyong and hoe seng. paiseh. :-P

//Sunny//

wow.
harmo practices are getting more n more intensive!
until 7+ lah
It's such a big change from last year
when it was quite slack
but it's ok...
can crap more with lyn and bel...haha
ok, we don't talk crap!

What's wrong with me har?
Anyway, many people say my last few entries are depressing...
well, my prayers are answered...
suddenly got this career guide selling.
And i just had a grab a copy...

Ok, i promise to be more inspiring in future..
yea. that's the way.

What is your problem?

I kept asking myself...
Losing interest in sch?
No friends?
Lousy teachers?
JC is not your cup of tea?
Or just plain stupid?


Silence...
Nothingness...
My words just fade into the background
No answer.
No echo.
This time round, silence is NOT golden.
Its due to a mixture of fear, intimidation, confusion.


So the career test did enlighten me, teething...
And i've decided to buy the straits times career guide to see what kind of occupation suits me
and whether i can make it
But i "you xin wu li"...
"li bu cong xin"
haiz~


Some more...
I began to fear the a-lvls
I realised.
From the 2nd intake last year till now...
I've never gotten even a B grade in ANY of my TESTs or EXAMs for ANY subject.
I've never been so DEAD before.
That time the Maths target setting form..
I still dare to put A for my a-lvls
well done...I
'm just waiting to meet my DOOM.


So what if I've dropped Econs?
Time and tide waits for no man.
Should not have taken right from the start.
Perhaps I have over-estimate my abilitiesIts too late.
Maybe if I had taken 3 subs right from the start, things may have been different.
Perhaps...


From primary schoolS...then secondary schoolS
NO teacher has ever need to tell me to buck up.
now...firstly, last year chio tells me that maybe i'm not putting in enough effort
How much is considered enough?
And also... maybe my method of studying is wrong.
maybe discussing qns with my classmates will help.
maybe I had needed time to adapt...


So...it has been like, a year.
Excuses made last year cannot be recycled this year.
They have exceeded their validity date.
This year ms goh ask me...why are you not getting an A?
I stunned...
I quickly replied that I have never even gotten a B.
An A grade to me is like..so far and yet so far..near infinity.
Stress mounting up high.
Push yourself hard, she says
I nodded.
You have to try to get close to A, then get A, so that u can know the feeling
I said, yes, I'll try.
But there is this significantly louder voice within me that says:
Are you sure you can do it?
The words kept whirling through my mind.
And all my past failures,
be it academic or everyday-related,
keeps reeling..
like films..
in my head.


Now I ask myself...I
s it a psychological barrier?
Or is it plain stupidness?

Silence repeats itself.



P.S. on a lighter note, I don't know how to tag mt's blog and teehting, please meet up with us to collect your prezzieS!

You Should Learn Spanish

For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication.Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possiblities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro!

What Language Should You Learn?

Your Career Type: Investigative

You are precise, scientific, and intellectual.Your talents lie in understanding and solving math and science problems. You would make an excellent: Architect - Biologist - ChemistDentist - Electrical Technician - MathematicianMedical Technician - Meteorologist - PharmacistPhysician - Surveyor - Veterinarian The worst career options for your are enterprising careers, like lawyer or real estate agent.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism.You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

// the weather is hot, the wind cold//

I dunno what to do with my own life.
Sound stupid? It probably is.
Everybody that I know knows what they want.
Business, biotech, engineering, accountancy...whatvever.
But why am I LOST?

sometimes I think I need a BREAK.
And learn meditation and meditate for 3 days so that i will come into conscious knowing what I want.
Crazy.
But no kidding.

//sunny!//

haiya..
I had thought "memoirs of a geisha" would be a nice show to watch.
The conclusion christy n grace n me got was that this is a jap's wartime portrayal of present-day DOMs in s'pore hankering over young china girls.
haha.
btw, i think it should be rated nc-12
Cuz a young child was crying when ziyi zhang (that's what the westerners call her) was forcibly undo her kimono
ok. some parts of the movie left me fuming mad. maybe we should take comfort that we live in present-day s'pore where women are treated with respect..









CNY is soon gonna be over.
so sad.
nevermind i still have my new year goodies to eat.
yea!
this year i didnt go malaysia because no coach tickets! ='(
but i went to the Istana...1st time ok
then my mum got to shake hands with the president.
wow.

i know i should start to study now but i feel like an engine without oil. stuck.
Stuck in the grey area between the possible and impossible.
In other words, lost.
where should i start from?
today i went to a blk 11 toilet and there was some paper stuck behind the doors which says something like...
"start with the neccessary, then the possible then achieve the impossible..."
ya. something like that.
i want to do something like that.
but time do not permits.