// holidays.vacation //

YAY! EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!
This marks the half time in varsity life haha.
Oops I'm still in applied chem/thermo mode.

Taking a plane later.
Everthing is going too fast. too furious.
I need to adjust my mind to post-exam happiness.

日本 - here i come!!!

// slack abit //

Finally finished my 3 vector calculus tutorials! (albeit with the help of solutions)
hahaha a sense of achievement cuz i didn't have time to do it during term.
PLEASE don't let me forget everything during exam!!!
I have a tendency to do that perhaps due to nerves or STM.
5 down, 2 more to go!
I hope my memory doesn't fail me!
Anyway for maths, there's still Laplace and Matrices to study.
Matrices should be Ok, if i remember correctly but er-hem Laplace is a tough one.
There's still tomorrow.
I hope I will be able to chiong finish all.

Played some memory game called Match It at viwawa.
It's a lame/dumb game but rather addictive.
Most of all, i hope can improve my memory errrrmm imperceptibly.

Feel somewhat high now..
Caffeine?
Unlikely.
I think it's cuz i have put my tutor responsibilities on hold...for 3 weeks.
Yay! A break from tutees who makes my blood boil everytime without fail.

// self-consolation vs. self-motivation//

totally bored with all the readings I have to do.
i regret so much taking so many modules.
yucks. ='(

sometimes i really think there is no use studying cuz it ain't going to
do any thing much to my GPA anyway.

i need to get out of this vicious cycle of hating what i'm doing.

think far.
look ahead.

// Boo.Yea//

I have been writing less and less because I've been pre-occupied with 2 major things.
Exams and Japan.
Exams gonna start on tuesday and I can't believe I'm still online wasting time.
Well, but that's me.
I hope i hope i can do better than previous semesters but don't think it's possible.
Everything becomes impossible when you're face to face with thermodynamics.
In every semester, there is always one module that is out to kill.
Furthermore, I regret taking so many modules.
Argh. I'm still on my psych project! due on monday.
Anyway, researching on psychology is the same as engineering.
That's one thing I've found out.
Popular search engines just like to throw out those results that are totally irrelevant to
your search, because they only look at the keywords you input.
As such the web they give probably only contains a small paragraph of what you need.
And they still place it at the top of the searches.
Hence, so much time is being wasted in sieveing the websites.
Sigh.
I hope some computer geek can invent a better search engine than
google or yahoo.

// starved.stuffed //

I think I'm a bit slow but anyway, recently I read 'Angels and Demons' by Dan Brown.
It's supposedly a prelude to the all famous 'Da Vinci Code',
and I hope it'll be made into movie too!

I shan't dwell on the religious aspect of it since I'm non-christian.
What really caught my interest was the way the book explains that
everything has an opposite.
For instance, in the scientific point of view, every matter has its equivalent of anti-matter.
The idea about anti-matter is so intriguing because it has properties that is the exact opposite
of matter.
In fact, once matter is in contact with anti-matter, they annihilate each other.
Since even air is matter, anti-matter has to be created and stored in vacuum.
Haha. ok, it is getting boring.

Anyway, i read this book some time ago, just that i was reminded of it today as
i was so starved that i stuffed myself.
To be fair, i didn't want to eat so much but food was especially easy to reach haha.
My bloated-ness was more than sufficient in eliminating my hunger though. lol.
I needed that energy to deal with an inquisitive P6 kid anyway so
in a sense it's justified? haha.

exams exams exams
the torture all over again.
fighting fighting fighting
the ends justify the process.
three mths of freedom comes with a hefty price.