//random//




VOTE for Singapore to be on the new monopoly world edition! =P

http://www.hasbro.com/games/kid-games/monopoly/

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//new to multiply//

//rainy day//



gosh.
3 chapters (le chatelier's principle, entropy & free energy, rxn in aq solutions) in one lecture.
meet my motor-mouth chem lecturer.




like the faceless, gloomy walls
she dwell in misery
laughter is not the best antidote
to worries, unsecurities or fear
just providing a moment of relief
to ease weariness
just providing an escape route
to keep away troubles on the mind

like the barrier between immates and their relatives
she is disconnected from the world
articulation is not a difficult task to many
spoken words, written letters
perhaps she's just the exception~
perhaps...

//sometimes//

Sometimes I just wonder who I am.
You know...a loss of identity.

Most of the times, I go with the flow.
I observe rules and regulations, for fear of treading over the line.
But sometimes, rebellious thoughts just occur in my mind.
I did everything that is the opposite of what I should have done.

Sometimes I can talk alot but usually I don't want to.
Just dreamily observing people.
Around me or just on the streets.

Sometimes I will stay strong in times of adversity.
Other times, I will just crack under the pressure.

I don't know why I am typing this post.
Or for that matter, the other posts.
Especially when I have lots of other stuff to do.
Maybe I can just conclude that this blog is an outlet to vent my feelings.

Currently I'm feeling quite down.
Who wouldn't be when your mum just reprimanded you?
For your info, she is not that unreasonable.
But the thing is I can't talk reason with her.
She will just say that I'm retorting her.

The matter is that I'm too busy (or don't want to make time) for those minor things.
So I hope that she wouldn't act as though it's the end of the world when I forgot to do them.
Seriously, I'm not that FREE!
If you look at my (soon-to-be) schedule posted last entry.
I also have a bad memory for remembering details and doing little things.

So I was being rebellious when I locked myself (just now) inside the study room.
After a long and hard day at school and tuition, the last thing I want to hear is someone nagging at me.

// Busy!! //

Oh man, I'm so far behind time in my tutorials.
Last week, I missed out on all the tutorials except physics.
Why?
Thanks to my non-stop cough.
And I'm still suffering from it. (a tweeny-weeny bit better though)

Physics: tutorial 1-absolutely know idea what is it...E-fields make me see stars
tutorial 2- not done even though it is due tomorrow..what on earth is Gauss Law?

Maths: tutorial 1- 7 more questions to cover

Chem: Haven't even start- due on fri

Computing: Haven't even start

Effective Com: Haven't even taken a look at it

Fundamentals of Social Research: tutorial 2 due on thurs

Impact of Chem on society: No tutorials =)

And in addition, there is still this endless list of things to do.

Student division (religion): Complete powerpoint presentation for this sun's activity
Do up the script for presentation (I'm getting cold feet!)
Call up members to inform them of the activity-(done!)
Thurs nights are sometimes reserved for home visits.

MuSE : Two articles due next tues

Furthermore, there's tuition!
Oh man why did the school term start so fast?
Mon,tues,wed nights
Saturday morning afternoon
Burnt!

One more tutee means a busier schedule.
One thing I can conclude: This market is definitely lack of tutors.

And, er-hem...kids who hire private tutors definitely need them!

Well, take me as a case study, my tutees have one or more of the following characteristics

1. Too hyper
2. Too lazy
3. Need people to supervise them or else they will NOT do work
4. Gets distracted easily
5. Doesn't pay attention in class
6. Needs umpteen times of explanation before they get the rough idea

I used to think giving tuition was easy money.
And what I thought couldn't be further from the truth.

Blah blah blah. Feeling too restless to do anything.
This blog entry serves as a "To-do" list for me.

//ramdom//

bored at home.
didn't go school cuz i'm coughing non-stop!
Like Pringles, once you start, you can't stop.
lame i know -.-
Especially at night, it's worse.
I can't sleep well.

So today, I missed the first computing tutorial.
And physics tutorial.
Not to mention the first lecture of Impact of Chem on Society.
Argh.
I had really wanted to go for the computing tut cuz I have no idea what programming is about.
Nevermind, it's over.

By the way, I have no idea why I can't install my Trend Micro internet security on my laptop.
I wonder why.
There is a error message everytime I try to install it.

Well, just got to know that mel fu is super hardworking.
She stays in the office till 8pm!
So late! I can't imagine lah.

//online window shopping//

Hmm...nowadays there's nothing much to do online.
Especially now that I promised my mum not to play Audition during term time.
Recently saw the "Romantic Princess" advert on TV.
Feel so cheated!!
I was watching it on youtube recently and now it's gonna show on TV.
Why?
Basically I'm a lazy person.
Watching short, one-episode videos on youtube does not prove much of a challenge but watching a drama serial is.
To me, it is so troublesome, I have to click on a link to get to the next part every ten mintues.
Bother!
Lol.
Watching it on TV is much more easier.
But anyway, I already finished watching it.
No use crying over spilled milk.
Haha! I'm so proud that I managed to recognise the "Gong Moli" to be Genie Zhuo Wen Xuan.
Wanted to catch the Vic Zhou and Patty Hou show on youtube...but forget it!
The show may be shown on TV after some time.

So now, the latest thing I'm hooked onto is online window shopping!
So far haven't bought anything yet but saw some stuff that I quite like.
Most are pay first, receive goods later...so don't really know which sites are trustworthy.
Shimin recommended me one though...
Most sell stuff that are reasonably priced but the qualiy...I wouldn't know how much it differs from the photos.
Some sell second hand stuff...which I wouldn't dare to buy.
Haha. I prefer sites that helps people to order stuff from Korea, Japan and Taiwan fashion stores.

//home visit-thurs//

Back from amk home visit.
Went to 2 students' homes.
Before we got to the first one, ruifang was telling me what her patients did in IMH.
It was to prepare my mentality when we went to visit the first student.
This is because her family has a history of schizoprenia.
Father is ~ so two daughters also abit ~
I was told that the last time someone visited them 2 years ago, the flat was in total darkness.

When we arrived at #02-12, there was a taller-than-us bookshelf-turned-shoe rack smacked right at their doorstep.
We were at a loss as the house was apparently uninhibited.
Right at this moment, their Indian neighbours was peering at what we were trying to do.

So we decided to ask them about the family's whereabouts.
Initially we were shocked to learn that the family had moved out 2 years ago and the flat had been unoccupied since then.
They told us that the family either moved to Woodlands...then corrected that they moved to SengKang. Lol.
The funniest thing was that they said the couple had two girls who are toddlers.
We were supposed to look for a 14 and 19-year old.
Then we realised that in our anxiety, we had read the address wrongly.
We had walked past the unit #02-16.
Lol.

I commented to Ruifang that it was a good sign that there appears to be light coming out of the translucent window.
And it really was not so bad as we had imagined.
A teenage girl, the younger 14-year old opened the door after some assurance that we are not some salesgirls.
In fact, judging from our conversation separated by the metal grille, (we were not allowed in) her family appears to be in a not-so-good situation, but at least everything about her appeared to be normal.
A 14-year old, enrolled in secondary 2 answering calls on her handphone occasionally.
However, our eyes did not miss the pair of legs peeking out from the door.
Our guess is that they belonged to her father's. As her father is rather ill.
I tried to take a closer view of the living room and realised that the house is rather spartan with old furnitures. Wah. this brings me to the question of how she got the money to acquire a rather new handphone. What about the bills?
Perhaps she shares it with her elder sis who should be working already.
I also did notice that her eyes were rather big but the way she looked at me is strange.
Friendly definitely...but strange.
Was it because that I got to know about her background so I tend to stereotype?
I don't know.

The second home was also in amk, but we had to take another bus from the interchange.
Quite near aj, in fact.
I met this girl before at a camp but don't really know her personally.
Haha. That time, I was in the treasury/admin com so I was supposed to collect money from the campers.
At that time I had no idea of her family's financial situation so I actually came up to her to collect the camp fees. She gave me a blur look. Then another person told me she didn't have to pay.
Now, having completed her Os and working at a bookstore, she looked different.
More confident and energetic than before.
Plus, she talked more too.
Maybe an additional income to the family really had helped.
I don't know much about her family.
But I can gathered that her dad must have caused trouble to the family.
Ruifang says that no matter how much we hate our parents, we must still be thankful to them cuz they gave us life.
It is our negative kharma.
Afterall, one of the debts of gratitude is one of to our parents.
Really hope that she can have the strength to do so.
Though it won't be easy to show compassion towards someone you dislike.

I guess it is good to home visit people sometimes.
I got to see more of the society's other facades.
In comparison, our lives are not bad.
And I felt that we are really fortunate people.
To have a good family and kind parents.

// ushering the new year and new semester //

Can't believe it.. 2008 has arrived.
It seems like yesterday when people were getting excited at welcoming the new millenium.
Looking forward to many things....amongst them, the Beijing Olympics.
But it won't be so soon i guess.

In the new semester, I will "look forward" to computing and the expected, physics.
At the same time, I hope my electives will be interesting.
Impact of Chemistry on society and Fundamentals of social research.
Next sem, i must try to secure the Intro to psychology..
Hmm.. i don't know what else to write about.
Stuck.

Ok, anyway, for this week, we'll only be having lectures and no tutorials.
By the way, my latest days are until 4.30pm!
Haha. so happy =)
But so sian...got to give tuition at nights.
Blah.

Hope I can do better this sem.
At least a 4.0 man!
Jia you!
Physics... Grr ... I must conquer it!