From now onwards, I just want to be me.
Nobody will get to stand in between me and myself.
And the journey of becoming a better me starts now.

Keeping cool

It's difficult to keep cool and collected when frustrations are piling up.
Blowing off the top would only worsen matters, but offers the soul an outlet to release frustration.
Always have to keep in mind: when the other party is defensive and agitated , keep the cool and wait for the storm to be over.
This must be the most important realization of the week.

On another note, sometimes I just dislike my own horoscope.
Scorpios somehow are known to be the worst out of the twelve, in terms of temperament and character.
Selfish, over-sensitive, jealous and bear grudges are some of the bad qualities.
All the while I have tried not to be a scorpio, to ignore such intuitive bad qualities, to psych myself to be more forgiving and big-hearted.
I regard myself to be successful in doing this, in fact so much so that I am losing an identity of myself.
Trying to stay neutral to all matters and avoid gossips or rumours.
Trying not to take any sides.
Trying to treat everyone equally.
Trying to accommodate others in every single way possible.
Trying to ignore and forget the unhappiness others once inflicted on me.
Maybe they are happy.
But what about me?
Deep down definitely not.
I do not want to vent any frustrations.
But It's getting harder trying to turn those negative thoughts into positive energies.
Especially when things are getting more complicated and many circumstances forces you to show the true colors.
I'm all black inside.