Thursday, July 24, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
//my desk is on the verge of collapsing-thankfully my world is not//
well my ultra messy desk has a lot of junk- and just a handful of useful stuff.
most of my books are on the shelves so i'm wondering why is it collapsing.
a signal that i should clear up my junk?
anyhow, i've just realise that as we grow older the world seems to get messier.
just like my desk.
we accumulate more junk as we grow.
on the other hand, we acquire more knowledge and experience as we grow.
is that considered a good thing?
i dunno.
it just seems to me that the knowledge and experience that we supposedly gain are for practical purposes like living and working in the real world.
which simply helps to contribute to our already messed-up world.
perhaps i should take back my words.
from another perspective, the world never become messier.
it's just that as we grow older, we become more aware of things happening in our country and even at the other end of the world.
i doubt if anyone would get my drift cuz i'm not too sure myself.
just some impulsive thoughts.
just want to comment that as we grow older
many things become out-of-reach.
and impossible.
for example.
a naive seven-year-old tells you,
she wants to grow up to become a teacher.
Grown-ups: Wah good girl! To be a teacher is being a useful person!
when she's eight, she says
i want to be a doctor.
Grown-ups: Good! Doctors can earn a lot of money and save people.
when she's nine, she changes her mind yet again.
i want to fly in spaceships! i want to be an astronaut.
Grown-ups: Good! What an adventurous girl!
when she's ten, her fickle mind can't stop.
i want to be a lawyer! so cool man.
Grown-ups: Yea! just talk a few sentence and you'll earn loads of money.
when she's eleven, she thought over and over. thinking very hard.
she says, i dunno what i should be in the future.
but the job must
1. make a difference in someone else's life
2. allow me to have a sense of satisfaction
3.allow me to travel to other parts of the world
Grown-ups: Girl, stop daydreaming, there's no such perfect job. just be a teacher/doctor/lawyer. you can earn loads.
At twelve, she has no time to think of a new ambition.
she has to study for Please Stop Learning Everything.
when she's in secondary school, she stops her daydreams.
she studied. she ate books.(figuratively) she swallowed that irritating "Air-math" ten-year-series.
in fact.
she studied for the sake of studying.
in jc.
she realised she could never fulfil any of her ambitions.
because she didn't want to?
because she couldn't?
because she has finally gotten a glimpse of the rat race.
she couldn't forget how horrible it is.
how impossible it is to achieve her dreams.
how elitist the society is.
how you have to be the very best to get what you want.
in the end, she realised.
perhaps she should just lead a normal life.
hold a normal nine-to-five office bound job.
earn a healthy income.
forget her ambitions.
forget her dreams.
she has to be practical.
she has to be logical.
oh how she hates the word practical.
oh, by the way, if you haven't already guessed so, the once-naive seven-year-old is yours truly =)
well my ultra messy desk has a lot of junk- and just a handful of useful stuff.
most of my books are on the shelves so i'm wondering why is it collapsing.
a signal that i should clear up my junk?
anyhow, i've just realise that as we grow older the world seems to get messier.
just like my desk.
we accumulate more junk as we grow.
on the other hand, we acquire more knowledge and experience as we grow.
is that considered a good thing?
i dunno.
it just seems to me that the knowledge and experience that we supposedly gain are for practical purposes like living and working in the real world.
which simply helps to contribute to our already messed-up world.
perhaps i should take back my words.
from another perspective, the world never become messier.
it's just that as we grow older, we become more aware of things happening in our country and even at the other end of the world.
i doubt if anyone would get my drift cuz i'm not too sure myself.
just some impulsive thoughts.
just want to comment that as we grow older
many things become out-of-reach.
and impossible.
for example.
a naive seven-year-old tells you,
she wants to grow up to become a teacher.
Grown-ups: Wah good girl! To be a teacher is being a useful person!
when she's eight, she says
i want to be a doctor.
Grown-ups: Good! Doctors can earn a lot of money and save people.
when she's nine, she changes her mind yet again.
i want to fly in spaceships! i want to be an astronaut.
Grown-ups: Good! What an adventurous girl!
when she's ten, her fickle mind can't stop.
i want to be a lawyer! so cool man.
Grown-ups: Yea! just talk a few sentence and you'll earn loads of money.
when she's eleven, she thought over and over. thinking very hard.
she says, i dunno what i should be in the future.
but the job must
1. make a difference in someone else's life
2. allow me to have a sense of satisfaction
3.allow me to travel to other parts of the world
Grown-ups: Girl, stop daydreaming, there's no such perfect job. just be a teacher/doctor/lawyer. you can earn loads.
At twelve, she has no time to think of a new ambition.
she has to study for Please Stop Learning Everything.
when she's in secondary school, she stops her daydreams.
she studied. she ate books.(figuratively) she swallowed that irritating "Air-math" ten-year-series.
in fact.
she studied for the sake of studying.
in jc.
she realised she could never fulfil any of her ambitions.
because she didn't want to?
because she couldn't?
because she has finally gotten a glimpse of the rat race.
she couldn't forget how horrible it is.
how impossible it is to achieve her dreams.
how elitist the society is.
how you have to be the very best to get what you want.
in the end, she realised.
perhaps she should just lead a normal life.
hold a normal nine-to-five office bound job.
earn a healthy income.
forget her ambitions.
forget her dreams.
she has to be practical.
she has to be logical.
oh how she hates the word practical.
oh, by the way, if you haven't already guessed so, the once-naive seven-year-old is yours truly =)
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
//trying to get the spirits up//
yesterday.
was supposed to throw a surprise birthday celebration for a friend.
was running late, but
i cannot believe how coincidental is that.
to meet her at the door of the mrt just as i was about to alight.
then i had to fake some reason why i came despite the fact that the night before i just told her i couldn't make it for the "shopping trip"
of course that was only a smokescreen.
luckily,
still she believed my reason to be there and the surprise wasn't spoiled.
anyway, everyone went on low budget yesterday.
no popcorn or drinks for the movie, Red Cliff. 赤壁.
well, critics from ST said Red Cliff part I had less battle scenes than part II
truth be told, I thought part I had really a lot of battle scenes.
anyway, this film is rather easy to understand, even for me, a noob of the Three Kingdoms.
(i vaguely remembered my chinese sec3/4 textbook had this excerpt 赤壁之戰 whereby 周瑜 led 130 thousand troops and won the battle against 曹操 800 thousand troops. at that time i was amazed by the victory)
but i don't really understand why it had costed so much ($80 million) to film this movie.
my guess is that they spent a lot paying the extras, and for the props (a lot of ships and horses, weapons and armour)
if you ask me which part of the movie I like most, I would say the acting.
especially Takeshi Kaneshiro as 诸葛亮, and Chang Chen as 孙权.
Tony Leung Chiu-Wai as 周瑜 didn't leave much of an impression on me, though.
Vicki Zhao as Sun Shangxiang 孙尚香 fitted her onscreen personality though i'm rather taken aback by how much she has aged, even as her playful character amuses the audience, as always.
and it was unanimously agreed that the scenes in which Chiling Lin appears as 小乔 as Tony's wife, were meaningless.
perhaps in Part II her role will become more useful as the devilish 曹操 had a crush on her since aeons ago.
anyway, even though i was yawning through and half asleep at the start of the movie where 曹操 army emerged victorious against 刘备troops. (maybe the righteous side of me hated to see the devil prevail over the good)
i was wide awake when they discussed the military strategies and the first victory battle claimed by the 刘备-孙权 alliance.
but since the real 赤壁之戰 haven't been shown yet, perhaps perhaps i might catch Part II when it is showing. (who knows when?)
yesterday.
was supposed to throw a surprise birthday celebration for a friend.
was running late, but
i cannot believe how coincidental is that.
to meet her at the door of the mrt just as i was about to alight.
then i had to fake some reason why i came despite the fact that the night before i just told her i couldn't make it for the "shopping trip"
of course that was only a smokescreen.
luckily,
still she believed my reason to be there and the surprise wasn't spoiled.
anyway, everyone went on low budget yesterday.
no popcorn or drinks for the movie, Red Cliff. 赤壁.
well, critics from ST said Red Cliff part I had less battle scenes than part II
truth be told, I thought part I had really a lot of battle scenes.
anyway, this film is rather easy to understand, even for me, a noob of the Three Kingdoms.
(i vaguely remembered my chinese sec3/4 textbook had this excerpt 赤壁之戰 whereby 周瑜 led 130 thousand troops and won the battle against 曹操 800 thousand troops. at that time i was amazed by the victory)
but i don't really understand why it had costed so much ($80 million) to film this movie.
my guess is that they spent a lot paying the extras, and for the props (a lot of ships and horses, weapons and armour)
if you ask me which part of the movie I like most, I would say the acting.
especially Takeshi Kaneshiro as 诸葛亮, and Chang Chen as 孙权.
Tony Leung Chiu-Wai as 周瑜 didn't leave much of an impression on me, though.
Vicki Zhao as Sun Shangxiang 孙尚香 fitted her onscreen personality though i'm rather taken aback by how much she has aged, even as her playful character amuses the audience, as always.
and it was unanimously agreed that the scenes in which Chiling Lin appears as 小乔 as Tony's wife, were meaningless.
perhaps in Part II her role will become more useful as the devilish 曹操 had a crush on her since aeons ago.
anyway, even though i was yawning through and half asleep at the start of the movie where 曹操 army emerged victorious against 刘备troops. (maybe the righteous side of me hated to see the devil prevail over the good)
i was wide awake when they discussed the military strategies and the first victory battle claimed by the 刘备-孙权 alliance.
but since the real 赤壁之戰 haven't been shown yet, perhaps perhaps i might catch Part II when it is showing. (who knows when?)
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
//lazy//
recently just too lazy to blog.
haha.
anyway, contributing to my lazy mood is due to the lazing around that I've been doing since 11 june, the day which mark the end of my jap exam.
Just to comment that I felt so lucky that I got the jap module for this special semester.
Last week, I received an e-mail that from next year onwards, NTU gonna charge 500 bucks for special sem!
Haha! I did not need to pay any additional school fees for this special sem.
While lazing around, well, I've been finding work but to no avail.
Anyway, I'm surviving on my income as a tutor.
Which serves fine except that I'm so bored in the afternoons.
Newspapers filled my mornings and that's fine cuz I don't rise early.
It's habitual, I think.
someone said before that if you are born in the morning, you'll tend to rise early and if you are born in the night, you'll tend to sleep late and it's quite true for me.
updating my life is so boring because it's truly plain.
recently just too lazy to blog.
haha.
anyway, contributing to my lazy mood is due to the lazing around that I've been doing since 11 june, the day which mark the end of my jap exam.
Just to comment that I felt so lucky that I got the jap module for this special semester.
Last week, I received an e-mail that from next year onwards, NTU gonna charge 500 bucks for special sem!
Haha! I did not need to pay any additional school fees for this special sem.
While lazing around, well, I've been finding work but to no avail.
Anyway, I'm surviving on my income as a tutor.
Which serves fine except that I'm so bored in the afternoons.
Newspapers filled my mornings and that's fine cuz I don't rise early.
It's habitual, I think.
someone said before that if you are born in the morning, you'll tend to rise early and if you are born in the night, you'll tend to sleep late and it's quite true for me.
updating my life is so boring because it's truly plain.
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