// Sunny! //

// dont make people to go against their will //
// my motto //

Today mrs chng sent me on a strange errand
Find a person in 0905
And I don’t know who is she and what she look like

I thought I would need the rest of the periods to find her
Moreover, my phone battery died on me so I couldnt find help
Since its during her break, it would be even harder to find
She could be in the canteen ordering food or eating or at the ohana or outside audi or mugging in some classroom or at the library or reading room, or in the nexus or even in the toilet
Great…

I was at the canteen when I saw my saviour, ho ying
It suddenly came to my mind that shes from 09.
Seeing that she was packing her bag, looking ready to leave, I almost ran towards her
She directed me to the girl sitting alone on a bench, her eyes glued to the edu tv.
I waved at her, trying to catch her attention.
Just then, I saw some guys seated at the table behind her giving me strange looks.
No idea why.

I asked to confirm her identity and told her mrs chng wanted to see her.
Mrs WAD? She asked.
Me: mrs chng
She: who is she?
Me: my gp tutor.
In fact, in less than the 2 mins or so, she shot at me several questions.
She: See me for wad?
Me: I have no idea.
She: I hope its not that I have to write some commonwealth essay.
She: how did u managed to find me?
Me: she says you will be having lunch.
Bell rings
She: now I have lessons.
Me: oh
She: you are the rep?
Me: uh-huh
She: You have lessons now?
Me: Ya.
She: Only one class having lessons in an LT?
Before I could answer, we already reach LT5 and she was in front of me.
Well, she walks real fast.
Apparently, she was eager to go for her lessons, on the other hand, I was not-so-eager to get back to class.

Then I looked at the clock.
I had managed to find her within 10 mins.
Mrs chng was surprised.
So was I.

Currently i'm also having a bout of bad luck.
chem pre-spa. skill D score 1/8, 2/8, 0/8
I lost my GP times and prelim papers and file.
I have no idea where it went. thought it was always in the locker.
and i disseminate wrong info about what to bring for gp to shuiyong and hoe seng. paiseh. :-P

//Sunny//

wow.
harmo practices are getting more n more intensive!
until 7+ lah
It's such a big change from last year
when it was quite slack
but it's ok...
can crap more with lyn and bel...haha
ok, we don't talk crap!

What's wrong with me har?
Anyway, many people say my last few entries are depressing...
well, my prayers are answered...
suddenly got this career guide selling.
And i just had a grab a copy...

Ok, i promise to be more inspiring in future..
yea. that's the way.

What is your problem?

I kept asking myself...
Losing interest in sch?
No friends?
Lousy teachers?
JC is not your cup of tea?
Or just plain stupid?


Silence...
Nothingness...
My words just fade into the background
No answer.
No echo.
This time round, silence is NOT golden.
Its due to a mixture of fear, intimidation, confusion.


So the career test did enlighten me, teething...
And i've decided to buy the straits times career guide to see what kind of occupation suits me
and whether i can make it
But i "you xin wu li"...
"li bu cong xin"
haiz~


Some more...
I began to fear the a-lvls
I realised.
From the 2nd intake last year till now...
I've never gotten even a B grade in ANY of my TESTs or EXAMs for ANY subject.
I've never been so DEAD before.
That time the Maths target setting form..
I still dare to put A for my a-lvls
well done...I
'm just waiting to meet my DOOM.


So what if I've dropped Econs?
Time and tide waits for no man.
Should not have taken right from the start.
Perhaps I have over-estimate my abilitiesIts too late.
Maybe if I had taken 3 subs right from the start, things may have been different.
Perhaps...


From primary schoolS...then secondary schoolS
NO teacher has ever need to tell me to buck up.
now...firstly, last year chio tells me that maybe i'm not putting in enough effort
How much is considered enough?
And also... maybe my method of studying is wrong.
maybe discussing qns with my classmates will help.
maybe I had needed time to adapt...


So...it has been like, a year.
Excuses made last year cannot be recycled this year.
They have exceeded their validity date.
This year ms goh ask me...why are you not getting an A?
I stunned...
I quickly replied that I have never even gotten a B.
An A grade to me is like..so far and yet so far..near infinity.
Stress mounting up high.
Push yourself hard, she says
I nodded.
You have to try to get close to A, then get A, so that u can know the feeling
I said, yes, I'll try.
But there is this significantly louder voice within me that says:
Are you sure you can do it?
The words kept whirling through my mind.
And all my past failures,
be it academic or everyday-related,
keeps reeling..
like films..
in my head.


Now I ask myself...I
s it a psychological barrier?
Or is it plain stupidness?

Silence repeats itself.



P.S. on a lighter note, I don't know how to tag mt's blog and teehting, please meet up with us to collect your prezzieS!

You Should Learn Spanish

For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication.Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possiblities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro!

What Language Should You Learn?

Your Career Type: Investigative

You are precise, scientific, and intellectual.Your talents lie in understanding and solving math and science problems. You would make an excellent: Architect - Biologist - ChemistDentist - Electrical Technician - MathematicianMedical Technician - Meteorologist - PharmacistPhysician - Surveyor - Veterinarian The worst career options for your are enterprising careers, like lawyer or real estate agent.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism.You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

// the weather is hot, the wind cold//

I dunno what to do with my own life.
Sound stupid? It probably is.
Everybody that I know knows what they want.
Business, biotech, engineering, accountancy...whatvever.
But why am I LOST?

sometimes I think I need a BREAK.
And learn meditation and meditate for 3 days so that i will come into conscious knowing what I want.
Crazy.
But no kidding.

//sunny!//

haiya..
I had thought "memoirs of a geisha" would be a nice show to watch.
The conclusion christy n grace n me got was that this is a jap's wartime portrayal of present-day DOMs in s'pore hankering over young china girls.
haha.
btw, i think it should be rated nc-12
Cuz a young child was crying when ziyi zhang (that's what the westerners call her) was forcibly undo her kimono
ok. some parts of the movie left me fuming mad. maybe we should take comfort that we live in present-day s'pore where women are treated with respect..









CNY is soon gonna be over.
so sad.
nevermind i still have my new year goodies to eat.
yea!
this year i didnt go malaysia because no coach tickets! ='(
but i went to the Istana...1st time ok
then my mum got to shake hands with the president.
wow.

i know i should start to study now but i feel like an engine without oil. stuck.
Stuck in the grey area between the possible and impossible.
In other words, lost.
where should i start from?
today i went to a blk 11 toilet and there was some paper stuck behind the doors which says something like...
"start with the neccessary, then the possible then achieve the impossible..."
ya. something like that.
i want to do something like that.
but time do not permits.

// heng- it stopped raining after i got off the bus //

Last week was a "suay" week for me.
Mon- got burnt during chem pract
Wed- idiotic people totally irritates me! feel like wacking people!
Fri-hearing the same old preach from different teachers totally make me sian.

btw, i made a small pile playing poker during cny...
haha.
if not that i got gp homework to do, i wld have made an even bigger pile..
aiya. cny hols r over so soon.
time to buck up!!
i noe u dun wish to hear the same old preach from teachers again and again.
oops. talking to myself.