Thursday, July 23, 2015

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Year of Change

It's been a long time since I last visited this place.
Anyway, I came to realise that no matter how busy I am, I would usually blog at the start of a new year.
Sustaining this throughout the year, though, is another thing altogether.

I guess I would aim for one entry per month though, to reflect on certain aspects of my life and certain happenings. Another driver would be to keep my writing standards from dropping.
Undoubtedly in work, I do utilize my writing skills, by sending out plenty of emails and doing up a few presentations here and there, but that's definitely very different from what I have enjoyed doing during English lessons back in the school days.

I guess I am pretty much someone who is motivated by the fruits that comes from my own labour. By that, I don't mean results per se. Sure, I have enjoyed Math because it was really satisfying when I managed to get the correct answer. I preferred free writing as opposed to comprehension (which had definite answers), especially when I thought of a phrase or a sentence that is very apt to express my idea or analogy.

After stepping into the working world for 3+ years, the fact that one wouldn't get as much free play in work compared to when in school had settled in my mind. The rules of the game has certainly increase, and what makes it much worse are the unspoken rules. I am very much fortunate that thus far I have not severely offended people or become victimized, despite my blur and slow nature.

Many said it before, the only constant is change. There are many types of changes, whether it is anticipated or unxpected, foreseen or unforeseen. The Year of Change, as titled, suggested that I foresee upcoming changes due to the unexpected leaving of my boss.
Even though sometimes I do have my reserves about my boss's decisions, things almost always ended with a happy ending, mainly due to her experience, which honed her foresight.
It is definitely a loss, yet signifies a change as well.
Totally unrelated, but my job scope for 2+ years is changing in this year as well.
If this hadn't change, I would be more at ease despite the change of boss, as she had provided me ample guidance in my current role.
Now, it's as if walking into that darkness again, without any light or beacon.