//a lesson of enlightenment//

learning to let go is probably the hardest thing to master.
whether it is to let go of anger, hatred, grievances or to let go of familiarity and loved ones.
but the only way to move forward is to let go of the past misery, which served no purpose.
how then, to let go?
some people laugh it off, others physically hurt themselves.
but some never did, and bottle it in their hearts for many years.
all it matters is the perception.
to view grievances not as unfairness or misery
but as a way to toughen up and emerge stronger.
because life is wasted on being unhappy and indignant.
a minute of anger means sixty seconds less of happiness.

so why bother?
if you truly believe in yourself, believe you are doing the right thing.
unkind criticism from others means nothing.
seeking validation from within, not from others.
one day, others might realise their mistake
but that is not important to you anymore
cuz you have already surpass the stage of seeking others' approval.
you have a clear conscience and nothing at all to fear.

有许多话哽咽在喉咙，不知从何说起。
但非常感激，我上了宝贵的一课，一些从来没有人教我的道理。
犹如雨过天晴，原本封锁的心，渐渐被释放。
虽然暂时不能把全部放下，但开始真正懂得珍惜生命，体会其中的美妙。
这一课，我铭记在心。

sudden all things come to realisation.
time is ticking.
i have only three days to put them in place.
i can't afford to sleep.
which is crazy.

// friendship //

友谊，有很多种。
有些，一见如故，可以聊到没完没了。
有些，靠时间一点一滴累积，慢慢习惯。
我渐渐发现，每个出现在我生命里的人都有一定有原因。
一起共度患难的朋友，肯定值得珍惜。
对于那些伤心时赐予安慰，沮丧时给予鼓励的朋友，我万分感激。
但就有一些人，或许我和他们，从没有机会深一层的了解彼此，
却因某种情况相识。
我原本以为这些人只是生命中的过客， 日子一久就变成抛在脑后的记忆，迟早被遗忘。
可是，别小看这既毫不起眼又平凡的友情。
事隔几年再见，我却因那熟悉的笑容与言行举止, 心中出现一股莫名其妙的暖意，脑海里浮现一些当年的画面。
不深刻的朋友也不一定在心中毫无地位。

// lackadaiscal //

journals +
report
=
frustration +
panic

// grateful //

i'm grateful for the tolerance shown.
i'm thankful for the confidence in me.
i hope this will strengthen my resolution.
after all, the enemy to overcome is myself.