Life is full of impermanence.
Life is full of redundancy.

What matters more is not yesterday and tomorrow but today.

//Discovery of paradoxes//

Principles of life contains many paradoxes.
In order to pursue the perfections, we have to understand the imperfections.
To do what is impossible means to re-think what is possible.

Perhaps I have taken the wrong approach to become a better person.
To become better doesn't neccessary to mean only to model after the best, or to find means to be better.
There is another way - To eliminate the faults.
When trying your best doesn't seems to work, it could be because your own faults are pulling you towards the counter direction.
Coincidentally it is analogous to newton's law: an object travelling in the same speed and direction continues to do so if all the forces are balanced.
Only a net force would do the trick, and that net force could come from either way.

Many people would say that growing older grants us greater freedom though more responsibilities.
Is that the truth?
When we were young, true enough that we were controlled by parents; in particular Asian parents who tends to hold a tighter rein.
The control I would say, is more of physically.
Mentally, it is the opposite.
Though a child has lesser knowledge, nothing is stopping the child's imagination in that limited world of his.
On the contrary, it seems that an adult has more physical freedom, yet lesser mental freedom.
Ironically, it is that wealth of knowledge of an adults that imposes those 'so-called' restrictions on his mind, impeding his ability to think out of the box or to accept new perspectives.
Not to mention all those mundane stuff that people have to do for a living, things which clouds the mind and barr it from functioning the best it should.

Having graduated for almost a year (this time last yr I was probably celebrating the end of school) means having a year of freedom.
Mind is free from manipulate physics formulae or memorising facts which who-knows when I will really use it. Yet the mundane work life kick in, taking up an even larger portion of my waking time.
With more people (me included) indulging in entertainment technology as an excuse to relieve stress, self-retrospection became an even rarer thing.

I really envy people who can speak ever so passionately about what they do, giving the blow-by-blow details of their work to other people, never caring about whether their audience ever got bored by their account.
Passion, confidence, intelligence.
Intangible things which I am seriously lacking in.
But someday, somehow, I need to find them.