the moment of truth

How do we know if someone is lying or telling the truth?
Behind every truth, is there always something more that meets the eye?
If the truth hurts, would you choose to accept it or live in denial?

The truth, probably is, not many people can accept the truth, there is a greater tendency for people to live in denial.. until it escalates to something huge, to a breaking point that one has no choice but to accept or run away. Fight or Flight. It's a choice. At least for now.

Some truths... you have no say over it. So the best is just to let the truth dwell in and walk away as though nothing had happened.

Many a time, the harsh, cruelity of the truth is prettily packaged and masked as something beneficial. In such cases, ignorance is bliss. Perhaps, not reading into something too much will prevent headaches.

Whatever, the truth has dawned upon us, whether with hidden intentions or not is still a mystery yet to be revealed.

Some people say that as humans grow old, they tend to revert to kiddish behaviour.
Well, this surely contains some truth.
Elderly, like kids are mostly harmless.
Other than due to their weaker physique, it has also got to do with their blatant honesty.
Elderly, like kids like to blabber alot, shooting off whatever is in their mind.
Being with them just makes you feel safe.
You can be pretty much sure that all that comes out from them are truths.
No hidden agenda, no concealing of likes and dislikes.
Sadly, this also makes them more prone to being scammed and made used of.

Fast ending weekends

The question, why does the weekends seem to pass so quickly must be the number one unanswered question in the minds of working class.
No matter how much one laments, monday would always come too fast, meetings come too furious.
To be able to live everyday like the weekends must be on everyone's wish list and that comes in the form of a holiday!

To combat the pre-monday blues on a sunday, I search in my mind for times or moments which I truly felt happy and at peace.
First and most recent happening that came to mind, the lone biz trip to Ireland.
In a week's notice, I had my luggage packed, armed with a few apps and maps of that place, I plunged into that part of the world very much unknown to me.
Despite all the amazing sceneries, fascinating culture and sumptuous food, the most memorable thing was the realization that I am living, breathing, walking on a foreign land all alone.
Nothing beats the feeling of being independent and in control.
I told myself that I will be returning next year on my own to experience it again.

While overseas trips are rare and limited, another easier way is through jogging.
With the breathing and footsteps in rhythm.
The shining sun beats on your back, as if it were an invisible force pushing you ahead, and giving you energy to increase your mileage.
The wind brushes against your skin, relieving heat and perspiration.
Eyes set on completing the winding jogging path, even though it seems to be a long road ahead, you know that with every step forward, eventually you will complete the route.
Nothing else except peace fills the mind.

Have to always keep in mind:
Stress is a state of mind.
You can always choose not to be in that state.
Your choice will not change the facts but will determine your mood.

Life does not have all the answers

Call me no ambition or coward as you like.
Sometimes... Sometimes I can't help but wish life could be simpler.
Everytime I pass by the neighbourhood bakery, I am reminded of how early it closes, at 8pm.
Often, by the time I get home, It is closing or already closed.

Maybe it has got to do with childhood influence, I can hardly ignore the aroma of baked breads and cakes wafting through any neighbourhood or shopping mall.
If I can open a bakery and sell delicious breads and nice-looking cakes, wouldn't that be good?
I imagined there would be endless satisfaction when customers frequent the shop, wanting for more breads and cakes.
Maybe I am thinking about it too lightly, after all, owning a business would never be as simple as I thought.
Perhaps I am just tired or whatever.
Perhaps I am just seeking temporal escapade from things.
Perhaps I just do not know where's my place in this complicated world.
Perhaps I am not meant for challenges at all...

Does the graph of income and happiness has a reciprocal relation?
Sometimes, talking with operators just made me feel that they are much happier, much satisfied with life.
Earning lesser doesn't take away their joys in life, as long as there is enough to go around.
Earning lesser doesn't make them any less intelligent/innovative/imaginative than me.
They just did not have the opportunity for further studies, for whatever reason.
Education-wise I am luckier than them, having the opportunity to get a degree.

Because of this, I have always reminded myself of how fortunate I am that my education route has been smooth. Of how I should put things that I have learnt to good use.

On the other hand, having studied for many years can be a bane.
We are always somehow or other 'guided' or 'prompted' to follow and tweak our mindset to get the correct answer.
There's no room for alternative ways of answering.
The aim has always been: Get the correct answers.
I myself am a victim of such mindset.
So much so that once stepped out into the working world, I am constantly seeking answers to questions that have no definite answers.
Where is the answer key that I have clinged so tightly to during my studying years?
Where is the dog-eared guidebook or notes which I have memorised by heart?

The realisation has dawned on me that there is now no correct formula that guarantee scoring.
There is no one method that promises success.
In the real world, there are actually more hypotheses than facts.
There are actually more variables than constants.
More confunding variables than known variables.
More grey areas than clear-cut black and white.

No answer key to dictate how you should phrase your answers.
No formula to assure you it will work.

Ironically, life is like a gamble, you can dictate only when in luck.
When not in luck, your life might be dictated.