Life does not have all the answers

Call me no ambition or coward as you like.
Sometimes... Sometimes I can't help but wish life could be simpler.
Everytime I pass by the neighbourhood bakery, I am reminded of how early it closes, at 8pm.
Often, by the time I get home, It is closing or already closed.

Maybe it has got to do with childhood influence, I can hardly ignore the aroma of baked breads and cakes wafting through any neighbourhood or shopping mall.
If I can open a bakery and sell delicious breads and nice-looking cakes, wouldn't that be good?
I imagined there would be endless satisfaction when customers frequent the shop, wanting for more breads and cakes.
Maybe I am thinking about it too lightly, after all, owning a business would never be as simple as I thought.
Perhaps I am just tired or whatever.
Perhaps I am just seeking temporal escapade from things.
Perhaps I just do not know where's my place in this complicated world.
Perhaps I am not meant for challenges at all...

Does the graph of income and happiness has a reciprocal relation?
Sometimes, talking with operators just made me feel that they are much happier, much satisfied with life.
Earning lesser doesn't take away their joys in life, as long as there is enough to go around.
Earning lesser doesn't make them any less intelligent/innovative/imaginative than me.
They just did not have the opportunity for further studies, for whatever reason.
Education-wise I am luckier than them, having the opportunity to get a degree.

Because of this, I have always reminded myself of how fortunate I am that my education route has been smooth. Of how I should put things that I have learnt to good use.

On the other hand, having studied for many years can be a bane.
We are always somehow or other 'guided' or 'prompted' to follow and tweak our mindset to get the correct answer.
There's no room for alternative ways of answering.
The aim has always been: Get the correct answers.
I myself am a victim of such mindset.
So much so that once stepped out into the working world, I am constantly seeking answers to questions that have no definite answers.
Where is the answer key that I have clinged so tightly to during my studying years?
Where is the dog-eared guidebook or notes which I have memorised by heart?

The realisation has dawned on me that there is now no correct formula that guarantee scoring.
There is no one method that promises success.
In the real world, there are actually more hypotheses than facts.
There are actually more variables than constants.
More confunding variables than known variables.
More grey areas than clear-cut black and white.

No answer key to dictate how you should phrase your answers.
No formula to assure you it will work.

Ironically, life is like a gamble, you can dictate only when in luck.
When not in luck, your life might be dictated.