Can anyone get tired without doing anything constructive?
*Raise Hands*
Yes, me.

This routine causing me fatigue.

I think too much when I don't have to.
I can't think when I have to.

Many a times in life, a tough choice has to be made between leading the life you want and leading the life you should.
From major decisions like choosing a career to minor ones like deciding whether to snack at night.
An engineering student should find a job as an engineer right?
An engineer should be logical and have common sense, right?

For major stuff, I usually follow the mind whereas for minor ones, the heart rules.
I wonder if I am doing it right.

Actually, everything probably boils down to striking a balance.
Yet it is difficult because the middle line is practically invisible.

Everyone has a metre rule; the 50cm mark is defined by oneself.
Yet, to be acceptable, yours have to be within the range defined by the majority.

// the same old brand new thing: learning //

How ironic it seems.
After all, haven't I been learning in school?
Realisation dawned on me how different it is, learning in school and at work.
Hence, it's time for me to learn how to learn.

The first foray into working life is marked by a period of adjustment.
Baby steps like adjusting the body clock to wake up at 6, changing mindsets about learning, testing the waters when communicating with others.
How should i start learning?
Monkey see monkey do?
Tag along like an obedient puppy?
Fire questions like a buzzing mosquito?
I guess, most things in life require striking a balance.
For now, well I'm pretty much like a headless housefly.

is it impossible to avoid stereotyping?
oh wells, the human mind is programmed to take the shortest route to reach an answer.
people simply love judging others using the least bit of truth.

insecure, unsure, confused.
what's the role i am supposed to play?
am i prepared for it?

whatever it is, whatever it takes, i need to prove that i did not make a wrong decision.
scorpios care alot about pride.
we do not like to be told that we are wrong.
even if we realise something is a mistake, we insist on going ahead.
On full steam.