it's already mid-term.
but i'm still wondering what is happening.
lessons are progressing at such a fast pace that
i'm lost
lectures and tutorials.
i'm stuck.
i mean, i knew an
what i didn't know is that
i couldn't rise up to the challenge.
last sem was bad.
thus i wanted a change this sem.
but to improve things?
easier said than done.
self-motivation is losing steam.
self-comforting is hurting pride.
self-esteem is at all-time low.
i crave for more time
to study and understand
the abstract concepts
and formulae
but some other things are competing for my time.
travelling time.
it's definitely nice to return home to a comfortable place
but is it worth sacrificing 1/6 of a day travelling?
tuition.
it's great to have more allowance
and even leftover money to save every month
but is it worth spending the time?
a trade-off between money and time.
and I don't understand why we need to have tutorials for tech com module
cuz it's never productive.
just give lectures and record it
so that i can skip it and watch online recording in record time.
as for the constant disturbance in the house.
who dares defy the matriarch?
no point defending yourself or you will be accused of shifting reponsibility.
no point explaining or you will be accused of giving unreasonable excuse.
little things that makes no sense.
why argue?
my precious time will be wasted.
just admit to whatever teeny-wheeny accusation.
hence
i can't be bothered.
i'm
silence is simply the best solution.
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