// blabberings //

would you tell a person who is obviously very wrong, the truth?
would you help a person at your inconvenience?

sometimes, i think, it is a wonder that there are so many types of people in the world.
other than nationality, races, religion, which are those differences which we more or less cannot change, the fact that different people have different ideologies is fascinating. (well, at least to me)

what you think is important might not be as important to others.
what you want to achieve is not the same as other people.
what you hold so dear in your heart might just be a piece of trash to other people.

because of the supposed truth you believed in, you are ever so determined.
no matter you are right or wrong.
i know for certain questions, there can never be a right or wrong answer.
but sometimes, when someone, either a family member or a friend believing in something so wrong, i have no courage to correct them.
also, for my staunch belief that everyone is entitled to their own views.
however, an extremely small incident made me re-think, that perhaps i should muster my courage to at least point out to people when they're (in obvious) wrong.
it all happened when i was running late for tuition due to some stuff i had to settle in school.
hence i had to call my tutee and it so happens that her dad picked up the phone.
he told me that he wants me to tutor his daughter every single day in the duration of her PSLE examination.
anyway, his tone was more of a command than anything else.
he said that my tutee did not do well for her Maths prelim just so because i didn't have time to tutor her the day before that particular paper.
it came like an accusation to me.
i said i would try to do so during the actual PSLE as i understand it is an important exam.
finally did his attitude soften and said he hope so (not want)
speak of kiasu parents!
i so badly wanted to point out that even if i did tutor her the day before her prelim paper, the mere 1.5hr would not make any difference to her marks.
after all, according to my experience, diligence and willingness to learn is the key in primary school education.
no amount of last-minute cramming can replace that.
besides, i really couldn't fork out the time at that point and i did call my tutee to remind her not to be careless and told her to call me if she has any questions.
I done what i could, didn't I?
(initially i didn't want to take up this job as i was afraid i couldn't cope but her mum came up with some sob story about her previous tuition teacher ran away without warning and left her daughter in the lurch. no choice, have I?)

next, my IA, yes I've (or rather, had to) made my choice.
i have chosen a company which satisfy my criteria of work field and location.
(actually it's a compromise between both criteria)
now, it's up to the company to decide if i satisfy their criteria.
many people seems to bank on famous companies like Shell and Exxon Mobil, I do hope they are sincerely interested in petrol chem industry instead of blindly follow where the money is.
it would make people who have a genuine interest in that area but did not apply there(for whatever reason) feel better.

on another note, just today, when i was waiting in queue for a bus home, i noticed a visually-impaired person walking towards the queue.
he stopped some distance away from the queue, just before he walk onto the bus lane (phew)
i began to wonder how he knows when the bus he wants to board comes, as there were 2 queues for 2 different bus numbers.
the other bus came first and people from the other queue boarded the bus, however, the man did not board that bus.
so was he waiting for the same bus as me?
how would he know?
just then, the bus i was waiting for arrived behind the first bus.
coincidentally, there was a jam in the interchange because several buses obstructed the lanes, the other bus wasn't able to pull out of the berth, so the bus driver of the bus i want to take honked.
on cue, the people at the front started to walk towards the bus, each and every one bypassed the visually-impaired man, never stopping to ask if he needed help or if he wants to board that particular bus.
all of them. including me.
i had half a mind to stop and ask him but just couldn't do it.
maybe cuz it was out of my convenience to do so.
if i did, people behind me in the queue would probably be unhappy that the queue stopped moving.
and the bus driver, as his view was obstructed by the bus caught in the berth, would thought that the queue had ended and might drove off.
what a bunch of lame excuses, hui min!
so i watched the man, still standing very near the berth, as the bus passed the berth and drove off.