// how does one fights inertia? //

This week, I've just had a lecture on motivated forgetting.
If I remember correctly, it is a phenomenon whereby you intentionally forget something.
For some people, it could be a traumatic experience which they can't recall...
yes, which means what you see on TV- victims forgetting their trauma in those crime serials are probably true.
For me, well it another type of motivated forgetting which is an everyday occurence.
It comes in the form of procrastination.
How?
Well, when I'm are stuck between choices, when I'm are faced with something unpleasant or not enjoyable, I have a tendency to put off those things until..
I'm forced to choose or when the deadline is near.
That, according to cognitive psych, is a form of motivated forgetting.
When I got to know of this, I couldn't believe my ears.
WH-AAT?
Becuz, it's so VERY often that I 'forgot' to do something.
For example, I could very well forget what my mum told me to do ten minutes later.
Or forget what assignment is to be done after being told about it the day before.
All the while, I thought I had short term memory.
Now, it turns out that I was subconsciously suppressing my retrieval of such information.
Psych just makes everything seems incredible...and complicated.
Anyway, my prof suggested that to overcome this, we should do those unpleasurable things
as early as possible, so that the pain will be over faster.
According to him, there's some research which have shown this.
This really explains why I'm always feeling overwhelmed by things to do.
Things which I can never get down to doing until the deadline is near.
I really hate the feeling of doing last min work, but I can't bring myself to do it earlier.
But I can't help it, I'm an idealist - always waiting for the most ideal answer.

I Never Find Perfection haunts me again!

No matter how many different personality tests I take, the result remains the same -
IDEALIST-seeking a unity of mind, body and spirit
Of course, every personality type have their good and bad.
It seems I've experience more of the cons of being an idealist, esp
"More prone to inner turmoil"
I guess this is really true.
I mean, when most people are in a dilemma, they probably get stuck for a few days, decide, stick to their guns and move on.
Most don't care two hoots, in a making a decision, one thing have to be sacrificed for another.
For me, I take a very long time to decide which to sacrifice and really regret after that.
Little things can haunt me for a long time.

Since it's the time of the year for Scorpio, I shall also share abit about my star sign.
Well, anyway it's claimed to be the most misunderstood of all signs.
Probably cuz Scorpion is poisonous?

Scorpio is the only star sign that has 3 animal totems.
First, the Scorpion itself, it represents vengeance and dangerous nature of Scorpio.
He is always thinking of hurting those around him by wielding his power.
Secondly, the Lizard, it represents the Scorpio who hides from life and never achieves its full mesure.
He is always in critical of himself, hence drowning in sorrow and having low self-esteem.
Thirdly, the Phoenix, it represents the Scorpio who rises out of ashes and rises high above surface circumstances.
He is able to transform the painful and poisonous possessive passions into a higher consciousness based on universal love.

And of course, I'm pretty sure I'm the Lizard.
A long long way to go to become a Phoenix.