//nothing's definite//

seems like i need to convince myself that each and every small step i take is towards clearing the mountain-high pile of work i've owed.

one step taken is one step forward.
not backward.
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// luck//
sometimes you feel lucky to get into a train just in time.
sometimes you feel unlucky cuz you just missed a train.
sometimes you feel heaven must be playing a joke on you when you did not miss any bus at all but still had to wait a long time for one.

sometimes you feel irritated when you were rushing home and yet someone had decided to block the right hand path (of the escalator)
but you'd definitely feel lucky that you were slowed down when lightning just struck 3 steps in front of you.
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//getting over it//
avoidance is moving forward,
not backward.
i will do better next time.
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// the truth//
sometimes, knowing the truth about yourself might not be the best thing.
esp if you can't cope with the truth.
knowing one's own strengths might lead one to be overconfident or arrogant.
knowing one's own weaknesses is detrimental to one's self-esteem.
perhaps i'm just not mature enough to handle it.
so much so that i have lost the ability to paint the facade of self-confidence,
that had once fooled many.