// Shine and rain //

over.
OVER!

the harmonica concert.
C'est La vie.

瞬间，百感交集。
是松了一口气， 还是一丝的不舍？

戏一开演，
站在舞台上的每个人都是主角，
当灯光息灭，徐徐落幕的那一刻，
大家又归回平凡的自己。
当时那一幕幕的精彩，那一波接一波的高潮。。。
总是受到时间的威胁
随时从记忆消失。。。

人质

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你
相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙
在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差

人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎

this song has a special name, lyrics, tune =D

Your true color is Green!


What's Your True Color?

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You Are 56% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

Your World View

You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content. You value kindness and try to live by your ideals. You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material. You respect truth and are flexible. You like people, and they can readily make friends with you. You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you.

What Is Your World View?

You Are 20 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

haha...a total no-brainer...

You Are Bart Simpson

Very misunderstood, most people just dismiss you as "trouble." Little do they know that you're wise and well accomplished beyond your years. You will be remembered for: starring in your own TV show and saving the town from a comet Your life philosophy: "I don't know why I did it, I don't know why I enjoyed it, and I don't know why I'll do it again!"

The Simpsons Personality Test

You Are an Espresso

At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

that tues.
i was trying to do my electrochem mcqs...
suddenly i saw this familiar figure walking towards the elementz lab.
It was choo!
at that moment, I thought i was dreaming.
mr choo!
He's now teaching at st. nicks.
Happy and carefree.
Good...

After that tearful farewell last yr on teacher's day...
As the last cheers of " 4E3...oh yea!" faded away...
I thought I would never see him again.
Little did I expect to see him again in less than a year.

I'm so glad that choo has chosen to remain in the education service.
His warrior spirit will definitely impact more young lives.

//rainy...//

A soul-less person.
Singing a weeping song.
Can anyone see the invisible tears?

Clear mirror.
Skewed reflection.
Where is the inner self?

Humans have unlimited potential.
Yet powerless to save themselves.
From the pits of darkness or from the verge of death.

No man is an island.
Fates interlinked.
Bliss or tragedy?

crap.
slack.
fail.
immune.
sleep.

lifestyle since last year.
hate it.
no one choose to be born a loser but there are definitely people who are born losers.
change your fate.
choose to be a winner.
strong willpower.
easier said than done.

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?

Your Luck Quotient: 60%

You have an average luck quotient.There's been times when you've been extremely lucky... but also times when you've been very unlucky.You probably know that you can make your own luck in life, if you're open to it.So listen to your intuition as much as you can. It's right more often than you might expect.

How Lucky Are You?

//sudden downpour//

Nothing has ever suceeded.
I found this similarity between myself and the main character of the comic strip "Born Loser".

//Scotching sun//

that day mel fululu was saying that I only have 100m left…
whereas she still have 4km to cover.
That is… if the A-levels is a 5km run.
Haha. Words from a netballer.
Anyway, I still prefer to think that I have 400 metres left.
Ok..i’m probably trying to escape from reality.
Glad that she's doing well in maths.
More kiasu, more pia, fretting more over results.


Today there is this J1 and J2 bonding.
We played "zhong ji mi ma"
I was SUPER, DUPER HENG!!!
Luckily ee kent was game enough.
Anyway got a free lunch… hee.. pizza!
But I don't know why fululu was giving me this weird look when I cheered.
Haha. I bet you never see me cheer before.


Then, I went to causeway point with lynette and christabel.
we were like so excited taking neoprints.
haha. when the time given for decoration was up, all 3 of us screamed!
er- i think it was the 1st time this year that i actually screamed.
A pity wei zi couldnt join us =(
Watched "The Shaggy Dog"
It was a so-so movie.
And, we were late because of the popcorns and drinks.
Actually, I don't know whether to classify it as a comedy.
There are many funny, or I should say, not-so-funny scenes.
It is because while I thought some parts were quite funny, it was not funny enough to evoke laughter.
So, for most of the movie, I was struggling between to laugh or not to laugh.
Yea. It was that strange kind of movie.
Also… it reminded me of the exorcism of Emily rose due to the courtroom scenes.
At the same time it was quite heart-warming as it shows that each family member tries not to hurt the others through a high level of tolerance.
Actually the best part was when the credits roll and pictures comparing dogs in different poses with humans in the same pose.
The similarities were uncanning.
ok ok..i'm not exactly an animal lover..

oh. no. i'm 44% abnormal.
wadeva that means.

today not in a very good mood.
i know she is trying not to lose her temper.
too many a time i caught her trying to control herself when she felt like scolding people.
in the end, however, she did.
i thought she was going mad.
with anger.

what have we done to deserve this?
i know many people are concerned about our gp grades.
please do not commit the fallancy of "hasty generalisations"
but people, having dreams is definitely not enough.
we lack the action.
to turn dreams into realiy.


yesterday afternoon pe was like mad.
running with filled i-sport bottles.
did standing broad jumps until legs hurt like crazy, until can only jumped less than 1 metre.


wednesday was super busy.
as usual i will flunk my chem test...
chines "ao" get B3...mediocre results.
but i'm not re-taking.. no.
who cares about the bell-shaped curve.
so what if i'm average?
studying is for the sake of gaining knowledge and experiences, not to achieve perfect grades.
in other words, grades are the result of stuying.
becoming a more knowledgeable and having a critical mind are the effects of studying on a person.

Futhermore, i think life is a gamble and everyone should have one fair and equal chance.
so today, a second chance is given to me...
but there is no guarantee that the next time i will still have one more chance.
reminds me of jack neo movie "one more chance"..
face it.
facts are cruel.

You Are 44% Abnormal

You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

Your Birthdate: November 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense.You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends.Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone.Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive. Your strength: Your universal compassion Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings Your power color: Mauve Your power symbol: Butterfly Your Hidden Talent You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.And while this may not seem big, it can be.It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. What's" Your Hidden Talent?

// Sunny! //

// dont make people to go against their will //
// my motto //

Today mrs chng sent me on a strange errand
Find a person in 0905
And I don’t know who is she and what she look like

I thought I would need the rest of the periods to find her
Moreover, my phone battery died on me so I couldnt find help
Since its during her break, it would be even harder to find
She could be in the canteen ordering food or eating or at the ohana or outside audi or mugging in some classroom or at the library or reading room, or in the nexus or even in the toilet
Great…

I was at the canteen when I saw my saviour, ho ying
It suddenly came to my mind that shes from 09.
Seeing that she was packing her bag, looking ready to leave, I almost ran towards her
She directed me to the girl sitting alone on a bench, her eyes glued to the edu tv.
I waved at her, trying to catch her attention.
Just then, I saw some guys seated at the table behind her giving me strange looks.
No idea why.

I asked to confirm her identity and told her mrs chng wanted to see her.
Mrs WAD? She asked.
Me: mrs chng
She: who is she?
Me: my gp tutor.
In fact, in less than the 2 mins or so, she shot at me several questions.
She: See me for wad?
Me: I have no idea.
She: I hope its not that I have to write some commonwealth essay.
She: how did u managed to find me?
Me: she says you will be having lunch.
Bell rings
She: now I have lessons.
Me: oh
She: you are the rep?
Me: uh-huh
She: You have lessons now?
Me: Ya.
She: Only one class having lessons in an LT?
Before I could answer, we already reach LT5 and she was in front of me.
Well, she walks real fast.
Apparently, she was eager to go for her lessons, on the other hand, I was not-so-eager to get back to class.

Then I looked at the clock.
I had managed to find her within 10 mins.
Mrs chng was surprised.
So was I.

Currently i'm also having a bout of bad luck.
chem pre-spa. skill D score 1/8, 2/8, 0/8
I lost my GP times and prelim papers and file.
I have no idea where it went. thought it was always in the locker.
and i disseminate wrong info about what to bring for gp to shuiyong and hoe seng. paiseh. :-P

//Sunny//

wow.
harmo practices are getting more n more intensive!
until 7+ lah
It's such a big change from last year
when it was quite slack
but it's ok...
can crap more with lyn and bel...haha
ok, we don't talk crap!

What's wrong with me har?
Anyway, many people say my last few entries are depressing...
well, my prayers are answered...
suddenly got this career guide selling.
And i just had a grab a copy...

Ok, i promise to be more inspiring in future..
yea. that's the way.

What is your problem?

I kept asking myself...
Losing interest in sch?
No friends?
Lousy teachers?
JC is not your cup of tea?
Or just plain stupid?


Silence...
Nothingness...
My words just fade into the background
No answer.
No echo.
This time round, silence is NOT golden.
Its due to a mixture of fear, intimidation, confusion.


So the career test did enlighten me, teething...
And i've decided to buy the straits times career guide to see what kind of occupation suits me
and whether i can make it
But i "you xin wu li"...
"li bu cong xin"
haiz~


Some more...
I began to fear the a-lvls
I realised.
From the 2nd intake last year till now...
I've never gotten even a B grade in ANY of my TESTs or EXAMs for ANY subject.
I've never been so DEAD before.
That time the Maths target setting form..
I still dare to put A for my a-lvls
well done...I
'm just waiting to meet my DOOM.


So what if I've dropped Econs?
Time and tide waits for no man.
Should not have taken right from the start.
Perhaps I have over-estimate my abilitiesIts too late.
Maybe if I had taken 3 subs right from the start, things may have been different.
Perhaps...


From primary schoolS...then secondary schoolS
NO teacher has ever need to tell me to buck up.
now...firstly, last year chio tells me that maybe i'm not putting in enough effort
How much is considered enough?
And also... maybe my method of studying is wrong.
maybe discussing qns with my classmates will help.
maybe I had needed time to adapt...


So...it has been like, a year.
Excuses made last year cannot be recycled this year.
They have exceeded their validity date.
This year ms goh ask me...why are you not getting an A?
I stunned...
I quickly replied that I have never even gotten a B.
An A grade to me is like..so far and yet so far..near infinity.
Stress mounting up high.
Push yourself hard, she says
I nodded.
You have to try to get close to A, then get A, so that u can know the feeling
I said, yes, I'll try.
But there is this significantly louder voice within me that says:
Are you sure you can do it?
The words kept whirling through my mind.
And all my past failures,
be it academic or everyday-related,
keeps reeling..
like films..
in my head.


Now I ask myself...I
s it a psychological barrier?
Or is it plain stupidness?

Silence repeats itself.



P.S. on a lighter note, I don't know how to tag mt's blog and teehting, please meet up with us to collect your prezzieS!