// to believe in what you do //

sometimes the truth really hurts.
the reality is harsh.
i mean, i think i'm too idealistic for my own good.

if i'm in primary or secondary school,
then yes, having idealistic thinking is considered
a good thing.
it can ignite your imagination.
but as i'm edging towards the working world,
having such impractical thinking is more
of a bane than boon.
i can't think of any examples since i'm not working yet.
but i think my concern is really justified.

even now, in lectures, we learnt that
theory is different from real situations.
in theory, for easy understanding,
we always assume, for eg,
a material to be pure and free of impurities.
a crystal to be free of imperfections.
heat loss/gain by a system to be negligible.
pressure/volume of an ideal gas to be constant.

assumptions after assumptions.
if only life is that easy.

that's why when i was studying for my exams in yr 1,
i kept hypothesizng the different ways the questions could
twist and turn to become more difficult.
actually i ended up scaring myself for nothing.
nowadays i realise questions are getting more generic.
of course some prof will try to throw us off the track by
setting those kind of high level questions
similar to those that i hypothesized.
haha.
don't think that i can answer those questions.
cuz i actually do not know the answer to
those questions that i thought of.

from what i heard, ntu engineering courses are 'reputed'
to be practical in training right?
from what i learn, it is rightly so.
yes i believe it's a good thing.
but practical situations are really scary to deal with.

anyway, sometimes i envy those who can afford
to dream, immerse in unlimited possibities
and you know, indulge in idealistic thinking.
like my P6 tutee.
she: teacher, i know what i want to be next time.
me: what do you want to be?
she: i want to be engineer!
me: (speechless and stunned)
she: (without noticing how stunned i was)
seems like very cool leh!
You know, I watch the nine o'clock show, "未来不是梦"
I want to be like the people in the show.
me: (recovered from shock)
I never watch the show. But those people wear
masks ah, gloves one leh!
she: ya! looks very cool!
me: really meh?
you know, actually i'm studying to
become an engineer next time.
she: (it's now her time to be shocked)
Really ah?!
me: (gloomily) ya. maybe next time you can go university to study engineering.
(not wanting to throw cold water on her
by saying how i'm struggling to study at the moment)


her innocent thinking inspires me.
ignorance is a blessing.