// too used to it //

somehow i feel that i'm seriously lacking in motivation this semester.
what a huge change from last semester.
i really hope this sem will pass over soon.

well, that's me, always living in denial, ever looking for ways to escape.
i can't face up to the fact that i suck at psychology.
even though i has no interest whatsoever in engineering, i've always tried to look at it in a positive way.
but that hypocritical side of me can't sustain for long.
i'm more and more positive that i don't suit this course.
while peers are getting better in understanding and explaining those concepts we learnt.
i can't even put two and two together.

we're supposed to be trained to have that kind of analytical mind.
but mine seems to have stop functioning.

if i can't even understand what i'm supposed to do for the assignments, how am i going to complete it??

i can't wait for the exams to end soon but i don't want it to start at all.