// the only constant is change //

Less than 2 months to the start of senior year..oh no.
Having exposed to the industry for some months, my view has changed from being afraid to more certain and now, looking forward.
Yet, it's time to go back to school.
I'm not so looking forward to fyp, surely.
My fyp haven even started and I'm already dreading it.
I'm regretting taking this bio-related project, after understanding it further.
Haiz, double haiz, triple haiz.
Have I chose the wrong project?
Even if that is so, it's too late for regrets.
Yes, I'm whining again.

Though i did not have an easy time during my IA, but at least I was still interested the work I was doing, which is totally materials related.
Looking forward to preparing samples.
Learning from the technicians.
Using the equipment.
Putting in the samples.
Waiting for the results.
Small things that kept me happy.
And it was this interest that drove me on.

Now that I am told that the 'materials' related part for my project is shaved off by alot
and the bio component is the mainstay, I'm super duper unhappy about it.
Sigh.
Initially I wanted to try new things but looks like I am still more happy doing something familiar.
Maybe I should have chosen a project related to my IA project.

In addition, throughout 3 years I have never set a foot into the actual MSE labs.
And for fyp we're supposed to be stuck there almost every week.
ARGH

Furthermore, the thought of studying really frightens me.
I don't mind attending lectures, tutorials.
But mugging for CAs, exams, yet again.
Facing kiasu people again.
These thoughts seriously saddens me.

I really really really really really really hope I can get a psychology module.
To motivate me to continue schooling.