//release//

i think i'm a great pretender.
ok maybe not.
皮在笑，心在泣。

a sudden realisation that many things in this world is out of one's control.
i'm at a loss.
how should i behave and act in front of others?
it wasn't so complicated last time.

纯真。。。根本不存在现实里！
我好想躲进自己虚拟的世界里，永远都不想回到现实。
因为大人的世界原来那么可怕。

the wall between me and the outside world is getting thicker.
i don't want to get out.
just let me stay in my own world.
my innocent world.
i hate to be vulnerable to outer influences.

sometimes i just don't know why i'm fretting over minor things.
but these minor things make me cringe.
either i need to delete them from my memory or accept them as it is.

maybe i should try to accept people as they are.
i'm such a greenhorn, have never seen many different types of people.
once i accept this fact, maybe it wouldn't hurt that much,
maybe if i let go of those worthless principles.
i can start to breathe once more.