// short post //
Meiting and Weiqi: Thanks for the present!
Tomorrow is another physics CA.
I will PERSIST.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
// alternating between shine and rain //
Gosh I'm feeling super bloated right now.
Sometimes I just don't know what is happening to me.
Here am I feeling so full yet I'm craving for a snack, like those lying on the dining table.
A piece of strawberry chocolate, a banana, some raisins or a few rolled biscuits?
All seems to be equally tempting to me. (yes, even on a bloated stomach)
Perhaps it is due to my lack of discipline.
Oh my, I just went to close the window to keep off the second hand smoke (courtesy of my neighbour) when I spotted some colourful steamed kuehs on the coffee table.
Yes, my home is probably a *snackophile's haven.
Suddenly this realisation dawned upon me... that my lack of discipline IS the root of all my troubles.
Maybe I shouldn't have the belief that "people should have all the freedom to do what they want". Come to think of it, the whole world would be in chaos if this really come true!
Because of this belief, I chose blogging and surfing the internet now instead of mugging for my CAs in the upcoming week.
Because of this belief, I chose to talk back to my mum instead of heeding her advice.
Because of this belief, I chose to slack around instead of studying for the physics re-test.
Because of this belief, I thought that I shouldn't correct others even if what they did would hurt other people.
Although I do not know how other people like my family and my friends see me, I sort of get the feeling that they see me as a hardworking, serious and peace-loving type of person.
Surprisingly, I myself do not feel this way and have no qualms about telling people I'm not like what you think.
I am, in fact, a slacker trying to work hard.
Motivation... my dear friends have given me a lot...especially through this blog.
That is why I still have the strength to go on and not totally give up on myself.
What I lacked is really the intrinsic motivation that arises from within myself.
Anyway, at this point of my life, I yearn to fulfil my resolutions.
I seek to be more discipined, more self-motivated, better management of time and emotions.
And, of course, better organisation of thoughts.
In this entry, my thoughts are all scattered. I'm simply typing out what I feel and think at that very moment.
To borrow a phrase from one of Westlife's old songs, "To be a better (hu)man"
Today I was supposed to type a happy entry because my family held a (very) early birthday celebration for me.
That's why, with the dinner and cake, I was super full.
However, perhaps the guilt of being out the whole day had overwhelmed me.
I was supposed to be studying!
My slow progress: -Materials science not even touched yet,
- Physics (heat and optics) half way done
Don't even ask me anything about studying for the semestral exams.
I just want to focus on clearing this coming week's CAs first.
Anyway, I finally got my laptop!
It's a compaq model with good specifications.(intel core 2 duo T7300, 2GB ram, 160 HDD)
Came with a free printer (now I have 3 printers?!)
The harvey norman saleman threw in a webcam, PC-cilin software, optical mouse and 1 GB thumbdrive.
At $1999, I think it's quite a good deal.
Haha. I can't wait to use it!
*snackophile - a word invented by me- intuitively
Gosh I'm feeling super bloated right now.
Sometimes I just don't know what is happening to me.
Here am I feeling so full yet I'm craving for a snack, like those lying on the dining table.
A piece of strawberry chocolate, a banana, some raisins or a few rolled biscuits?
All seems to be equally tempting to me. (yes, even on a bloated stomach)
Perhaps it is due to my lack of discipline.
Oh my, I just went to close the window to keep off the second hand smoke (courtesy of my neighbour) when I spotted some colourful steamed kuehs on the coffee table.
Yes, my home is probably a *snackophile's haven.
Suddenly this realisation dawned upon me... that my lack of discipline IS the root of all my troubles.
Maybe I shouldn't have the belief that "people should have all the freedom to do what they want". Come to think of it, the whole world would be in chaos if this really come true!
Because of this belief, I chose blogging and surfing the internet now instead of mugging for my CAs in the upcoming week.
Because of this belief, I chose to talk back to my mum instead of heeding her advice.
Because of this belief, I chose to slack around instead of studying for the physics re-test.
Because of this belief, I thought that I shouldn't correct others even if what they did would hurt other people.
Although I do not know how other people like my family and my friends see me, I sort of get the feeling that they see me as a hardworking, serious and peace-loving type of person.
Surprisingly, I myself do not feel this way and have no qualms about telling people I'm not like what you think.
I am, in fact, a slacker trying to work hard.
Motivation... my dear friends have given me a lot...especially through this blog.
That is why I still have the strength to go on and not totally give up on myself.
What I lacked is really the intrinsic motivation that arises from within myself.
Anyway, at this point of my life, I yearn to fulfil my resolutions.
I seek to be more discipined, more self-motivated, better management of time and emotions.
And, of course, better organisation of thoughts.
In this entry, my thoughts are all scattered. I'm simply typing out what I feel and think at that very moment.
To borrow a phrase from one of Westlife's old songs, "To be a better (hu)man"
Today I was supposed to type a happy entry because my family held a (very) early birthday celebration for me.
That's why, with the dinner and cake, I was super full.
However, perhaps the guilt of being out the whole day had overwhelmed me.
I was supposed to be studying!
My slow progress: -Materials science not even touched yet,
- Physics (heat and optics) half way done
Don't even ask me anything about studying for the semestral exams.
I just want to focus on clearing this coming week's CAs first.
Anyway, I finally got my laptop!
It's a compaq model with good specifications.(intel core 2 duo T7300, 2GB ram, 160 HDD)
Came with a free printer (now I have 3 printers?!)
The harvey norman saleman threw in a webcam, PC-cilin software, optical mouse and 1 GB thumbdrive.
At $1999, I think it's quite a good deal.
Haha. I can't wait to use it!
*snackophile - a word invented by me- intuitively
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
// cool night //
For the physics re-test, guess how much I got?
48/100!
Pathetic right?
Seriously I wasn't surprised at all.
Just surprised that this time round, the prof replied to my friend's e-mail listing our names to request for the scores.
But then again, when I only needed 2 more marks to pass.
2 more. what a waste.
Come to think of it, it is quite strange why I should be struggling with mechanics when most of the stuff were covered in A levels.
Perhaps it's because the questions were really unfamiliar.
I think my brain must be rusty le.
Conclusion: Uni is tough! not slack.
I'm feeling the heat already.
Let that be a negative form of motivation. Pressure.
For the physics re-test, guess how much I got?
48/100!
Pathetic right?
Seriously I wasn't surprised at all.
Just surprised that this time round, the prof replied to my friend's e-mail listing our names to request for the scores.
But then again, when I only needed 2 more marks to pass.
2 more. what a waste.
Come to think of it, it is quite strange why I should be struggling with mechanics when most of the stuff were covered in A levels.
Perhaps it's because the questions were really unfamiliar.
I think my brain must be rusty le.
Conclusion: Uni is tough! not slack.
I'm feeling the heat already.
Let that be a negative form of motivation. Pressure.
Things to do:
By tomorrow: 5 Personal Learning Journals for management
By this week: Study for CA2s coming next week!
By this month: Study for semestral exams! (commencing from 14 -22nov)
Friday, October 19, 2007
//the intermittent rain//
Sometimes, this kind of rain that keeps stopping and resuming irritates me.
It seems like the rain can't make up its mind whether to rain or stop.
However, it shares the same kind of ambivalent attitude that I myself have.
According to the test I took, INFPs seems to be able to see the good side of a thing no matter how bad the situation turned out to be.
Thus INFPs may experience both positive and negative feelings towards a thing or person simultaneously.
That sounds like schizoprenic, isn't it?
haha.
Anyway, this week wasn't a good one for me.
I solemnly swear that the next time round, I will start on my formal lab report early.
That's the lesson I learnt.
While most others had the luxury of doing their lab report during the recess week, my group was quite unlucky to be the ones doing after the recess week.
Thinking that I still had all the time in the world to complete the report, I did nothing in the first week.
Then came the bomb: A re-test for physics
Argh. now I had to salvage my pathetic physics first...
In the end, I only started my 15-page report on saturday when it was due on monday.
Tough. I ended up with minimal sleep and the effect snowballed throughout the week.
Come to think of it, it is really my own doing that landed myself in this state.
Blame it on myself.
Yesterday, the life science lecture was cancelled and none of us was even informed of it beforehand.
Actually, many people already sensed something was amiss when the notes weren't uploaded onto the net.
In the end, in the evening, the prof mass e-mailed to everyone to apologise for his absence due to "unforseen circumstances" and that he'll put up last year's recorded lecture onto the net.
What is this man?!
After which, it was the dreary math lecture which I had unknowingly slept through half of it.
Argh, I didn't want to sleep through it at all!
You know how much sleep you are deprived of when the lecturer's voice becomes softer by the second and finally your ears simply shuts off. Then you have reach a state of concussion where your mind stops telling you that you are in a lecture hall.
After lessons, it was badminton with yv, wx and his friends.
I was such a lousy player.
Then, I learnt table-tennis from yv! yea. she's a school player. so pro right.
Table-tennis requires less stength to hit but it is really no easier than badminton.
On the whole, it was fun!
Finally, to end the day, I went for the mse club publications meeting.
Okay, I can't believe I'm officially inducted as a school magazine writer!
haha. It was too good to be true.
I simply replied to the recruitment e-mail they sent last week and crossed my fingers to hope for the best.
Yesterday, the editor e-mailed me that I got shortlisted.
Cool.
I hope this new school magazine would take off with a good start.
Sometimes, this kind of rain that keeps stopping and resuming irritates me.
It seems like the rain can't make up its mind whether to rain or stop.
However, it shares the same kind of ambivalent attitude that I myself have.
According to the test I took, INFPs seems to be able to see the good side of a thing no matter how bad the situation turned out to be.
Thus INFPs may experience both positive and negative feelings towards a thing or person simultaneously.
That sounds like schizoprenic, isn't it?
haha.
Anyway, this week wasn't a good one for me.
I solemnly swear that the next time round, I will start on my formal lab report early.
That's the lesson I learnt.
While most others had the luxury of doing their lab report during the recess week, my group was quite unlucky to be the ones doing after the recess week.
Thinking that I still had all the time in the world to complete the report, I did nothing in the first week.
Then came the bomb: A re-test for physics
Argh. now I had to salvage my pathetic physics first...
In the end, I only started my 15-page report on saturday when it was due on monday.
Tough. I ended up with minimal sleep and the effect snowballed throughout the week.
Come to think of it, it is really my own doing that landed myself in this state.
Blame it on myself.
Yesterday, the life science lecture was cancelled and none of us was even informed of it beforehand.
Actually, many people already sensed something was amiss when the notes weren't uploaded onto the net.
In the end, in the evening, the prof mass e-mailed to everyone to apologise for his absence due to "unforseen circumstances" and that he'll put up last year's recorded lecture onto the net.
What is this man?!
After which, it was the dreary math lecture which I had unknowingly slept through half of it.
Argh, I didn't want to sleep through it at all!
You know how much sleep you are deprived of when the lecturer's voice becomes softer by the second and finally your ears simply shuts off. Then you have reach a state of concussion where your mind stops telling you that you are in a lecture hall.
After lessons, it was badminton with yv, wx and his friends.
I was such a lousy player.
Then, I learnt table-tennis from yv! yea. she's a school player. so pro right.
Table-tennis requires less stength to hit but it is really no easier than badminton.
On the whole, it was fun!
Finally, to end the day, I went for the mse club publications meeting.
Okay, I can't believe I'm officially inducted as a school magazine writer!
haha. It was too good to be true.
I simply replied to the recruitment e-mail they sent last week and crossed my fingers to hope for the best.
Yesterday, the editor e-mailed me that I got shortlisted.
Cool.
I hope this new school magazine would take off with a good start.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
//rainy day//
Recently I had this management lecture which discusses about the myer-bridges personality test. Last time, I had done a shorter free version at haleonline.com but now the site is charging 99 cents! So I decided to check out other websites.
INFP
Introverted Feeling
INFPs live primarily in a rich inner world of introverted Feeling. Being inward-turning, the natural attraction is away from world and toward essence and ideal. This introversion of dominant Feeling, receiving its data from extraverted intuition, must be the source of the quixotic nature of these usually gentle beings. Feeling is caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same. The "object," be it homo sapiens or a mere representation of an organism, is valued only to the degree that the object contains some measure of the inner Essence or greater Good. Doing a good deed, for example, may provide intrinsic satisfaction which is only secondary to the greater good of striking a blow against Man's Inhumanity to Mankind.
Extraverted iNtuition
Extraverted intuition faces outward, greeting the world on behalf of Feeling. What the observer usually sees is creativity with implied good will. Intuition spawns this type's philosophical bent and strengthens pattern perception. It combines as auxiliary with introverted Feeling and gives rise to unusual skill in both character development and fluency with language--a sound basis for the development of literary facility. If INTPs aspire to word mechanics, INFPs would be verbal artists.
Introverted Sensing
Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling's strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect. This introverted Sensing is somewhat categorical, a subdued version of SJ sensing. In the third position, however, it is easily overridden by the stronger functions.
Extraverted Thinking
The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy. The inferior, problematic nature of Extraverted Thinking is its lack of context and proportion. Single impersonal facts may loom large or attain higher priority than more salient principles which are all but overlooked.
Famous INFPs:
William Shakespeare,
Wadsworth Longfellow
A. A. Milne (Winnie the Pooh)
Laura Ingalls Wilder (Little House on the Prairie)
Helen Keller, deaf and blind author
Carl Rogers, reflective psychologist,
counselorFred Rogers
Donna Reed, actor (It's a Wonderful Life)J
vocalistTom Brokaw
news anchorJames Herriot
Julia Roberts, actor (Conspiracy Theory, Pretty Woman)
Amy Tan (author of The Joy-Luck Club, The Kitchen God's Wife)
John F. Kennedy
Fictional INFPs:
Anne (Anne of Green Gables)
Calvin (Calvin and Hobbes)
Troi (Star Trek - The Next Generation)
Wesley Crusher (Star Trek - The Next Generation)
Doctor Julian Bashir (Star Trek: Deep Space 9)
E.T.: the ExtraTerrestrial
Tommy, Rug Rats cartoons
Jung Career Indicator
YOUR TYPE
INFP
Strength of the preferences %
44, 50, 12, 22
Career Choices for Your Type
Perception -50Processing -12Implementation -22
Jung Career Indicator determines careers most suitable for your type from personality type standpoint. Based on your personality type, the following is a list of your most suitable occupations along with some educational institutions, where you can receive a relevant degree or training.
Career: Educational Institutions, Social Service, Counseling, Religious Education
Education: Art/Science, Humanities, Web Design, Musician, Literature/Writer, Archaeology, Health Care, Psychology, Psychotherapist
uh-oh, according to this, it seems like I've entered the wrong course for my personality.
Recently I had this management lecture which discusses about the myer-bridges personality test. Last time, I had done a shorter free version at haleonline.com but now the site is charging 99 cents! So I decided to check out other websites.
INFP
Introverted Feeling
INFPs live primarily in a rich inner world of introverted Feeling. Being inward-turning, the natural attraction is away from world and toward essence and ideal. This introversion of dominant Feeling, receiving its data from extraverted intuition, must be the source of the quixotic nature of these usually gentle beings. Feeling is caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same. The "object," be it homo sapiens or a mere representation of an organism, is valued only to the degree that the object contains some measure of the inner Essence or greater Good. Doing a good deed, for example, may provide intrinsic satisfaction which is only secondary to the greater good of striking a blow against Man's Inhumanity to Mankind.
Extraverted iNtuition
Extraverted intuition faces outward, greeting the world on behalf of Feeling. What the observer usually sees is creativity with implied good will. Intuition spawns this type's philosophical bent and strengthens pattern perception. It combines as auxiliary with introverted Feeling and gives rise to unusual skill in both character development and fluency with language--a sound basis for the development of literary facility. If INTPs aspire to word mechanics, INFPs would be verbal artists.
Introverted Sensing
Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling's strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect. This introverted Sensing is somewhat categorical, a subdued version of SJ sensing. In the third position, however, it is easily overridden by the stronger functions.
Extraverted Thinking
The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy. The inferior, problematic nature of Extraverted Thinking is its lack of context and proportion. Single impersonal facts may loom large or attain higher priority than more salient principles which are all but overlooked.
Famous INFPs:
William Shakespeare,
Wadsworth Longfellow
A. A. Milne (Winnie the Pooh)
Laura Ingalls Wilder (Little House on the Prairie)
Helen Keller, deaf and blind author
Carl Rogers, reflective psychologist,
counselorFred Rogers
Donna Reed, actor (It's a Wonderful Life)J
vocalistTom Brokaw
news anchorJames Herriot
Julia Roberts, actor (Conspiracy Theory, Pretty Woman)
Amy Tan (author of The Joy-Luck Club, The Kitchen God's Wife)
John F. Kennedy
Fictional INFPs:
Anne (Anne of Green Gables)
Calvin (Calvin and Hobbes)
Troi (Star Trek - The Next Generation)
Wesley Crusher (Star Trek - The Next Generation)
Doctor Julian Bashir (Star Trek: Deep Space 9)
E.T.: the ExtraTerrestrial
Tommy, Rug Rats cartoons
Jung Career Indicator
YOUR TYPE
INFP
Strength of the preferences %
44, 50, 12, 22
Career Choices for Your Type
Perception -50Processing -12Implementation -22
Jung Career Indicator determines careers most suitable for your type from personality type standpoint. Based on your personality type, the following is a list of your most suitable occupations along with some educational institutions, where you can receive a relevant degree or training.
Career: Educational Institutions, Social Service, Counseling, Religious Education
Education: Art/Science, Humanities, Web Design, Musician, Literature/Writer, Archaeology, Health Care, Psychology, Psychotherapist
uh-oh, according to this, it seems like I've entered the wrong course for my personality.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
//cloudy gloom//
Just as I thought CA week was over, this week brings another 3 tests in all.
management on monday, maths today and physics tomorrow.
Ya. The physics re-test.
Weird timing: 7-9pm.
I wish I could have started everything earlier.
Like studying for physics test and formal lab report.
Becuz I've suddenly lost my motivation to do anything.
Even blogging.
My lecturer, Dr Ko, said before that if you lost the interest in doing something that was once pleasurable, it is most likely that you suffer from depression.
I think I'm mildly depressed.
The slacking bug recently invaded my life.
I mean, sure, I had to give extra tuition to my tutees due to their exams and to do a draft for management report.
But I know those are just EXCUSES.
Truth is, I've slacked.
I can only prepare for the worst tomorrow.
Haiz.
Anyway, I still don't know what I got for the nightmarish physics CA the previous time.
Since some people e-mailed the prof to ask about their marks, I thought I should ask about it too.
To know how bad I flunked it.
Maybe it was the tone of my e-mail or maybe he wasn't in a good mood.
The prof refuses to tell me my marks!!
Argh. What is this?
I emailed him yesterday 10+pm
My friend did it at around 12am.
Yet the replies were different!
The reply I got: Sorry I can't possibly check for everyone.
The reply my friend got: XX/100
You see, it's SO unfair!
My thoughts were that if I know my horrendous marks, I would have the motivation to study for the re-test.
Surely he doesn't have the right to withhold my marks from me but tell others what they got!
Argh. I'm so angry.
I absolutely hate discrimination.
Fine, I will NOT e-mail him again.
By the way, my studies is in a total mess right now.
I kept lagging.. and there's no end to it.
I simply don't have the discipline to keep away from the TV.
Plus, I don't have the mood to study.
In other words, I have low intrinsic motivation.
Low stress + low pressure + bad time management ----> low productivity----> low quality and quantity of work
I remembered Mr Chio told me in J1 that I need to find a study method that works for me.
It has been almost 3 years and I haven't found it yet.
Why??
Also, I sort of find myself travelling for 1/2 of the day.
I am tired of travelling to and fro.
Absolutely tired.
What makes it worse is that I am tired but I can't sleep properly on the bus or mrt.
Even taking afternoon naps at home is impossible.
The only time I can sleep is during lectures and at night at home.
The drone of the lecurers' voices, esp physics and life science, provides the sleep-inducing effect.
The silence of the night makes me sleep easily too.
But I should not be sleeping during lectures!
Can anyone provide me with a remedy for my problems?
That's all.
I need to force myself to study for physics now.
Haiz.
Just as I thought CA week was over, this week brings another 3 tests in all.
management on monday, maths today and physics tomorrow.
Ya. The physics re-test.
Weird timing: 7-9pm.
I wish I could have started everything earlier.
Like studying for physics test and formal lab report.
Becuz I've suddenly lost my motivation to do anything.
Even blogging.
My lecturer, Dr Ko, said before that if you lost the interest in doing something that was once pleasurable, it is most likely that you suffer from depression.
I think I'm mildly depressed.
The slacking bug recently invaded my life.
I mean, sure, I had to give extra tuition to my tutees due to their exams and to do a draft for management report.
But I know those are just EXCUSES.
Truth is, I've slacked.
I can only prepare for the worst tomorrow.
Haiz.
Anyway, I still don't know what I got for the nightmarish physics CA the previous time.
Since some people e-mailed the prof to ask about their marks, I thought I should ask about it too.
To know how bad I flunked it.
Maybe it was the tone of my e-mail or maybe he wasn't in a good mood.
The prof refuses to tell me my marks!!
Argh. What is this?
I emailed him yesterday 10+pm
My friend did it at around 12am.
Yet the replies were different!
The reply I got: Sorry I can't possibly check for everyone.
The reply my friend got: XX/100
You see, it's SO unfair!
My thoughts were that if I know my horrendous marks, I would have the motivation to study for the re-test.
Surely he doesn't have the right to withhold my marks from me but tell others what they got!
Argh. I'm so angry.
I absolutely hate discrimination.
Fine, I will NOT e-mail him again.
By the way, my studies is in a total mess right now.
I kept lagging.. and there's no end to it.
I simply don't have the discipline to keep away from the TV.
Plus, I don't have the mood to study.
In other words, I have low intrinsic motivation.
Low stress + low pressure + bad time management ----> low productivity----> low quality and quantity of work
I remembered Mr Chio told me in J1 that I need to find a study method that works for me.
It has been almost 3 years and I haven't found it yet.
Why??
Also, I sort of find myself travelling for 1/2 of the day.
I am tired of travelling to and fro.
Absolutely tired.
What makes it worse is that I am tired but I can't sleep properly on the bus or mrt.
Even taking afternoon naps at home is impossible.
The only time I can sleep is during lectures and at night at home.
The drone of the lecurers' voices, esp physics and life science, provides the sleep-inducing effect.
The silence of the night makes me sleep easily too.
But I should not be sleeping during lectures!
Can anyone provide me with a remedy for my problems?
That's all.
I need to force myself to study for physics now.
Haiz.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
//in the sweltering heat//
The weather today was hot!
I drank lots of plain water, ate an ice-cream cone, had a cup of bandung and strawberry milk tea!
Yesterday was the first day bus service 179A was in use.
It travels the same route as 179, just that it doesn't stop at any bus-stops except those at NTU itself.
I shouldn't have taken it on the first day itself cuz just like computer softwares and tech devices like MP3, the first version surely contain problems and the subsequent ones would be ok.
I guess it's SBS's strategy of not making the berth too crowded hence both 179 and 179A are currently in different waiting berths.
Anyway, I forgot the new service started on mon.
Becuz there were so many bus queues in the morning so I sort of found myself on way to the berth of 179A.
The first day saw 179A rendered useless becuz the frequency of 179 itself was even faster.
Hmm. like while I was patiently waiting for 179A, three 179 buses had gone off.
oh well.
a lesson learnt.
Returning to sch on the first day, as usual, was a blue monday.
Well, except that I got to wear lab coat for the lab lesson.
And goggles and mask. Cool!
Two major things coming up.
Formal lab report and motivation report drafts, on top of tutorials.
Oh ya, another thing, our phy lecturer thought that some people, like me, screwed up their CA1 so there's gonna be a voluntary make-up test NEXT FRI. (I haven't got back my paper but i'm totally sure the results would be horrendous)
Shocking! Not much time left to prepare.
I remember telling some people some time ago that uni life is slack.
Now I shall take back my words.
The weather today was hot!
I drank lots of plain water, ate an ice-cream cone, had a cup of bandung and strawberry milk tea!
Yesterday was the first day bus service 179A was in use.
It travels the same route as 179, just that it doesn't stop at any bus-stops except those at NTU itself.
I shouldn't have taken it on the first day itself cuz just like computer softwares and tech devices like MP3, the first version surely contain problems and the subsequent ones would be ok.
I guess it's SBS's strategy of not making the berth too crowded hence both 179 and 179A are currently in different waiting berths.
Anyway, I forgot the new service started on mon.
Becuz there were so many bus queues in the morning so I sort of found myself on way to the berth of 179A.
The first day saw 179A rendered useless becuz the frequency of 179 itself was even faster.
Hmm. like while I was patiently waiting for 179A, three 179 buses had gone off.
oh well.
a lesson learnt.
Returning to sch on the first day, as usual, was a blue monday.
Well, except that I got to wear lab coat for the lab lesson.
And goggles and mask. Cool!
Two major things coming up.
Formal lab report and motivation report drafts, on top of tutorials.
Oh ya, another thing, our phy lecturer thought that some people, like me, screwed up their CA1 so there's gonna be a voluntary make-up test NEXT FRI. (I haven't got back my paper but i'm totally sure the results would be horrendous)
Shocking! Not much time left to prepare.
I remember telling some people some time ago that uni life is slack.
Now I shall take back my words.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
//windy//
yes. something is bothering me.
at home.
occasionally.
like a minor tear in the fabric.
though minor, once a little more force is supplied,
the fabric will be extremely easy to be torn into two.
tearing like nobody else's business.
On the surface it seems like everything was perfectly alright.
Except for the occasional arguments
Truthfully, it is a crack that will never mend.
You have never trusted me to make my own decisions.
You have always compared me to people better than me.
You have never been happy with everything that I do.
You have always thought that I was cowardy.
Sometimes, you make me have doubts even about myself.
You have stolen my self-esteem, stomped on my pride and shattered my self-confidence.
yes. something is bothering me.
at home.
occasionally.
like a minor tear in the fabric.
though minor, once a little more force is supplied,
the fabric will be extremely easy to be torn into two.
tearing like nobody else's business.
On the surface it seems like everything was perfectly alright.
Except for the occasional arguments
Truthfully, it is a crack that will never mend.
You have never trusted me to make my own decisions.
You have always compared me to people better than me.
You have never been happy with everything that I do.
You have always thought that I was cowardy.
Sometimes, you make me have doubts even about myself.
You have stolen my self-esteem, stomped on my pride and shattered my self-confidence.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
//sunny//
simply adore this kind of weather today =D
Finally! I was able to wake up for my morning jog today.
What can I say? Simply rejuvinating!
To be able to exercise one's limbs.
I don't want to become a "psycho motor moron" anyway...
I met up with meiting and wei qi! yea.
Sometimes, people sigh and lament that many things can't withstand time, I'm so glad that our friendship could withstand years.
Anyway, thanks to weiqi, I realised that i'm green-yellow!
not literally but according to this book she borrowed from the library, personality types can be divided into different colours.
I did the questionaire and then read the descriptions for green people.
Points that I could remember:
-peace lover who will avoid conflicts at all times
-imaginative, sometimes even distort facts to support what we want to say (er-hem, i'm guilty!)
-motivational writers (note: "writer", not "speaker", the reason illustrated in the next point)
-leaves spoken sentences hanging halfway but expect others to understand the latter half of the sentence( ok this leaves me laughing all the way becuz it's way too true!)
-loves inspiration (everyone does also, right?)
I'm also quite the "yellow"personality.
I think, most likely becuz I make my decisions based on logic and rational thinking, rather than by intuition. "Greens" are people who trust their intuition alot.
Anyway, we went to Subway and visited shops in amk hub and central.
yes. again! I just went to the place just 2 days ago!
Hearty Italian bread with Italian BMT tastes so good!
This time round I managed to ward off all the temptations of buying anything for myself.
Afterall, I've spent a fair amount in the past two days.
Retail therapy after the stressful CAs ain't going to be cheap.
I got some stuff to coax my tutees instead.
It's got to be Children's Day soon. OCTOBER 1ST, as my tutees have kindly reminded me.
oh please, I will NOT forget Children's Day, or any other holiday, for that matter.
Even though it doesn't concern me.
Holidays just cheers people up =)
//tues//
Yesterday was another busy day as well.
Project meeting with kun wu and ming ming.
we're supposed to write the intro for our project.
so after all the discussion, there's finally some headway to it.
I finally see the struture of our report.
Finally know what the others are doing and what we'll be doing.
I think my head was quite dense during the past few meetings as the ideas the other members gave did not ring a bell nor get into my head.
However, the downside was that i had to travel all the way to ntu for the meeting! argh.
Actually there was supposed to be meeting tomorrow but the group leader did not inform anything yet. Yet.
Sorry, but I do not subscribe to last minute decisions.
So nothing heard from anyone means no meeting.
Hence I hereby declare tomorrow is mugging day!
Which comes at the right time bcuz I have not touch any stuff that I'm supposed to be studying... since last friday =X
simply adore this kind of weather today =D
Finally! I was able to wake up for my morning jog today.
What can I say? Simply rejuvinating!
To be able to exercise one's limbs.
I don't want to become a "psycho motor moron" anyway...
I met up with meiting and wei qi! yea.
Sometimes, people sigh and lament that many things can't withstand time, I'm so glad that our friendship could withstand years.
Anyway, thanks to weiqi, I realised that i'm green-yellow!
not literally but according to this book she borrowed from the library, personality types can be divided into different colours.
I did the questionaire and then read the descriptions for green people.
Points that I could remember:
-peace lover who will avoid conflicts at all times
-imaginative, sometimes even distort facts to support what we want to say (er-hem, i'm guilty!)
-motivational writers (note: "writer", not "speaker", the reason illustrated in the next point)
-leaves spoken sentences hanging halfway but expect others to understand the latter half of the sentence( ok this leaves me laughing all the way becuz it's way too true!)
-loves inspiration (everyone does also, right?)
I'm also quite the "yellow"personality.
I think, most likely becuz I make my decisions based on logic and rational thinking, rather than by intuition. "Greens" are people who trust their intuition alot.
Anyway, we went to Subway and visited shops in amk hub and central.
yes. again! I just went to the place just 2 days ago!
Hearty Italian bread with Italian BMT tastes so good!
This time round I managed to ward off all the temptations of buying anything for myself.
Afterall, I've spent a fair amount in the past two days.
Retail therapy after the stressful CAs ain't going to be cheap.
I got some stuff to coax my tutees instead.
It's got to be Children's Day soon. OCTOBER 1ST, as my tutees have kindly reminded me.
oh please, I will NOT forget Children's Day, or any other holiday, for that matter.
Even though it doesn't concern me.
Holidays just cheers people up =)
//tues//
Yesterday was another busy day as well.
Project meeting with kun wu and ming ming.
we're supposed to write the intro for our project.
so after all the discussion, there's finally some headway to it.
I finally see the struture of our report.
Finally know what the others are doing and what we'll be doing.
I think my head was quite dense during the past few meetings as the ideas the other members gave did not ring a bell nor get into my head.
However, the downside was that i had to travel all the way to ntu for the meeting! argh.
Actually there was supposed to be meeting tomorrow but the group leader did not inform anything yet. Yet.
Sorry, but I do not subscribe to last minute decisions.
So nothing heard from anyone means no meeting.
Hence I hereby declare tomorrow is mugging day!
Which comes at the right time bcuz I have not touch any stuff that I'm supposed to be studying... since last friday =X
Monday, September 24, 2007
//slack- infected with the lazy bug!//
Recently I just felt like sleeping.
Even though I did not do anything much that would take up much energy.
But 10 hours of sleep just isn't enough.
I wake up feeling sleepy all over again.
If it wasn't the fact that I'm meeting my friends, I wouldn't force myself to stay awake.
Strangely, when i forced myself to keep awake, the sleepy bug didn't bother me again.
Recently I just felt like sleeping.
Even though I did not do anything much that would take up much energy.
But 10 hours of sleep just isn't enough.
I wake up feeling sleepy all over again.
If it wasn't the fact that I'm meeting my friends, I wouldn't force myself to stay awake.
Strangely, when i forced myself to keep awake, the sleepy bug didn't bother me again.
Anyway, today I went for movies and shopping at Amk hub. More importantly, the early celebration of bel's birthday=)
me, bel, lyn
On board 86, the bus went passed aj and that feeling of nostalgia overwhelmed me.
Even more so during my return journey, when I saw Mdm Jean Lee lugging her seemingly heavy bag, wearing the same white-and-blue striped shirt and a jean skirt.
It was as if time has rewinded itself.
Although sometimes I really did not enjoy my two years there, I was still reminscing about the past.
I couldn't take my eyes of block 11, where i spent alot of time in-between lessons at the corridor looking down at the mini fountain, lost in my thoughts, until the next tutor came in.
It seemed like yesterday when I was standing at the corridor, looking at the buses passing by, hoping I could be one of the passengers, away from this place which was slowly sapping away my energy and happiness.
Anyway, back to the movie.
I had no idea why christabel chose to watch "I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry".
Afterall it's rated M18, containing homosexual theme.
But then again, she did not know this beforehand.
Usually I steer clear of M18 unless...you know...there's violence and gore.
Like war movies?
Lol. I guess I'm sadist but I just want to know what causes people to kill each other.
But recently, there's nothing much to watch anyway, just some average shows...
The truth is, I was not disappointed by the movie.
In fact, it is quite inspiring!
Synopse:
Two great friends Larry and Chuck are both firemen. This is despite the fact that both live different lifestyles. Larry- an overweight middle-aged man, a doting father, who doesn't know how to cook. Chuck- a good-looking flirtatious playboy. Repeated times of saving fire has made Larry realise he may just die anytime. Larry's wife died and he found out that in order for him to change his govt fund beneficiary from his wife to his children, he has to marry a new wife or get a domestic partner (otherwise know as gay) There was once during their fire-saving task when Chuck was saved by Larry. Chuck swore to repay Larry for his favour. Thus Larry's trust in Chuck made him propose to Chuck to pretend to be his domestic partner.
The hilarious part was when govt officers came to check up on their relationship and the duo tried means and ways to convince him they are genuinely gay. (no obscene acts though)
Then they went to consult this gorgeous female lawyer whom Chuck was attracted to.
Deep as their friendship was, Chuck refused to admit his attraction to the lawyer so as to not expose the scam they were in.
In fact, Chuck babysat Larry's kids whenever the latter was on duty.
Larry's son proved to be a disappointment to Larry becuz he preferred to take part in his sch's musical than watched a baseball match. In fact, Larry's son could sing, tap-dance and even do a split! He was very much feminine, hence Larry kept forcing him to do the opposite.
Meanwhile, once their gay relationship was found out by the rest at the fire station, their colleagues all shunned them except for a ferocious-looking guy who was truly grateful that he could now face the fact that he himself, is a homosexual.
These reminded me of the fact that whatever we do, we should face ourselves truthfully and not pretend to be someone that we're not. be true. be yourself.
Also, the film highlighted that in American, there's still vocal anti-gay activists while Canada is recognising gay marriages.
Through this unusual experience of being a "gay", Chuck realises that people should not discriminate against homosexuals.
What's the difference between straight and gay?
As Chuck puts it, "Nothing, we're all humans".
Sunday, September 23, 2007
//back-2-sch friday//
When I first received my timetable, I was glad they planned a 4-day week for this semester.
Ok. Except for week 7& 13.
Hence, I realised that for these two weeks, it's actually exam week.
So fri I had life sci CA.
It's kind of weird why we need to study life sci, they only included it since 2004, I think. Anyway, I was quite stressed over it cuz I had no bio background and there was no tutorial conducted for this subject.
I don't know why I was so stressed when the CAs were approaching.
After all, two of them were MCQ questions, only physics was strutured qns.
Previously, I would not even think much of MCQ tests.
After all, you can rely on your gut feeling if you do not know the answer.
Not that my intuition is esp accurate.
Sometimes, the options can help to jot my memory, I guess.
Many a times, I tend to get mind blocks/blanks when I get intimidated by strutured/essay qns...like in physics.
I'm so scared of the results! ar! but i heard the weightage of this test will be reduced to 30%-?. Ok, I managed to clear materials sci and life sci. phew. I mean, I don't intend to aim for full marks or what. Average marks will suffice.
Perhaps I should stop this depressing thoughts about exams.
It's officially a recess week! yea!
Actually, the holidays began right after the life sci CA.
After breakfast, it was off to SRC for basketball.
omg! i have never ever ever ever played bball!
Unless u count the insignificant no. of times during PE lessons.
not jc. maybe sec and pri sch.
We actually booked badminton courts but it was too early.
Furthermore, we had no bball but on the way, my frens they saw their frens going to the SRC as well so we sort of divided ourselves and play with them.
To add on to my humiliation, did I mention I was once called "psycho-motor moron"
To be exact, my sec 4 class girls were called that by my PE teacher.
I recently saw this term some where again. forgot where.
But it means that we are like "trees".
inflexible and slow.
ah whatever.
Yiwen was so enthu about it, I had no choice but to join in too.
Imagine...a noob at bball playing with a sporty girl and a group of pro guys that I dunno.
I guess those reading will feel sad for me.
But, I was quite impressed with some of the shots they put in.
Ok, tyco, I managed to shoot in a few goals as well (erm..is "goal" a correct term? I do read about soccer but know nuts about bball)
that is provided no one blocked me or snatch the ball at that point in time.
I didn't have the "feel" for bball la. seriously.
Among the guys, it was quite rough lo. i mean, in my opinion only.
One got scratched by another's fingernail, leaving a long, red, painful line along his arm.
Yw got a nasty blister on her feet. with blood too. ouch!
Anyway, I was glad when the game ended.
Thankfully.
I'll rather stick to jogging and badminton.
Badminton was on the list next. Waited for the rackets and wx's expensive yonex shuttlecock.
My hand was quite sore from the dribbling practice and shooting so I had no stength and conc. at all.
Couldn't even return easy serves! so yb and wx gave me some advice.
Rested for a while...I watched eunice, li qing, wei xiang and yuan bin played...while chatting with yiwen.
Then, eunice and lq wanted to go home, bathe and then shop at jurong.
The rest of us played a while then hui jun came after her jap class.
Time passed quickly...and we bathe at the nice SRC bathrooms.
Feeling extremely famished, we packed dinner at watch tv at the corridor of hall 1.
Finally! we- me, yw, hj, eunice, wx, lq went to yunnan garden for the mooncake festival celebrations! It was organised by the Chinese society.
There were games like catching fish (real guppies!), caricature drawings, fortune-telling, word games.
But I think their motive was to make money.
So many stalls selling food, drinks and stuff but we did not succumbed to temptation.
Just got the free lanterns, watch peformances, then went on a burning spree!
No. we did not manage to burn ntu la. Haha.
Just paper lanterns, sticks and dried leaves.
We set up a mini-mini campfire with the help of candles placed on the side of pavement and used the burnt sticks to scribble on the ground.
Then, a funny thing happened.
Everyone was staring at this girl who was staring at us first.
Actually she was smiling.
She went near our circle then stepped back, shaking her head when we threw her puzzling looks. Initially I thought one of my frens knew her but they were equally stunned by her.
Our thoughts were the same: Is she trying to tell us not to burn things and be eco-friendly?
We froze, waiting for her to say something.
Finally, in the midst of the tension, she opened her mouth, "Are you all doing fortune-telling?"
We shook our heads and I was desperately trying to suppress my laughter.
We all cracked up soon after she was gone with her group of friends.
Did we (forming a circle around the mini-mini campfire and lighted candle) looked like we are telling fortunes?
lol. she must be a foreigner who have never seen kids burning twigs and leaves on mid-autumn festival.
Then, we went back.
They were waiting for hj from her jc outing, yb fr dance lesson, jh fr modelling shots to have their sleepover. I did not stay cuz the next day i had to teach tuition at 11am.
On the way home, I was quite surprised that bus 179 is still full of ntu students even at such a late hour.
I'm looking forward to the break! Outings, project meetings and MOST importantly, to catch on my work. esp PHYSICS. argh!
When I first received my timetable, I was glad they planned a 4-day week for this semester.
Ok. Except for week 7& 13.
Hence, I realised that for these two weeks, it's actually exam week.
So fri I had life sci CA.
It's kind of weird why we need to study life sci, they only included it since 2004, I think. Anyway, I was quite stressed over it cuz I had no bio background and there was no tutorial conducted for this subject.
I don't know why I was so stressed when the CAs were approaching.
After all, two of them were MCQ questions, only physics was strutured qns.
Previously, I would not even think much of MCQ tests.
After all, you can rely on your gut feeling if you do not know the answer.
Not that my intuition is esp accurate.
Sometimes, the options can help to jot my memory, I guess.
Many a times, I tend to get mind blocks/blanks when I get intimidated by strutured/essay qns...like in physics.
I'm so scared of the results! ar! but i heard the weightage of this test will be reduced to 30%-?. Ok, I managed to clear materials sci and life sci. phew. I mean, I don't intend to aim for full marks or what. Average marks will suffice.
Perhaps I should stop this depressing thoughts about exams.
It's officially a recess week! yea!
Actually, the holidays began right after the life sci CA.
After breakfast, it was off to SRC for basketball.
omg! i have never ever ever ever played bball!
Unless u count the insignificant no. of times during PE lessons.
not jc. maybe sec and pri sch.
We actually booked badminton courts but it was too early.
Furthermore, we had no bball but on the way, my frens they saw their frens going to the SRC as well so we sort of divided ourselves and play with them.
To add on to my humiliation, did I mention I was once called "psycho-motor moron"
To be exact, my sec 4 class girls were called that by my PE teacher.
I recently saw this term some where again. forgot where.
But it means that we are like "trees".
inflexible and slow.
ah whatever.
Yiwen was so enthu about it, I had no choice but to join in too.
Imagine...a noob at bball playing with a sporty girl and a group of pro guys that I dunno.
I guess those reading will feel sad for me.
But, I was quite impressed with some of the shots they put in.
Ok, tyco, I managed to shoot in a few goals as well (erm..is "goal" a correct term? I do read about soccer but know nuts about bball)
that is provided no one blocked me or snatch the ball at that point in time.
I didn't have the "feel" for bball la. seriously.
Among the guys, it was quite rough lo. i mean, in my opinion only.
One got scratched by another's fingernail, leaving a long, red, painful line along his arm.
Yw got a nasty blister on her feet. with blood too. ouch!
Anyway, I was glad when the game ended.
Thankfully.
I'll rather stick to jogging and badminton.
Badminton was on the list next. Waited for the rackets and wx's expensive yonex shuttlecock.
My hand was quite sore from the dribbling practice and shooting so I had no stength and conc. at all.
Couldn't even return easy serves! so yb and wx gave me some advice.
Rested for a while...I watched eunice, li qing, wei xiang and yuan bin played...while chatting with yiwen.
Then, eunice and lq wanted to go home, bathe and then shop at jurong.
The rest of us played a while then hui jun came after her jap class.
Time passed quickly...and we bathe at the nice SRC bathrooms.
Feeling extremely famished, we packed dinner at watch tv at the corridor of hall 1.
Finally! we- me, yw, hj, eunice, wx, lq went to yunnan garden for the mooncake festival celebrations! It was organised by the Chinese society.
There were games like catching fish (real guppies!), caricature drawings, fortune-telling, word games.
But I think their motive was to make money.
So many stalls selling food, drinks and stuff but we did not succumbed to temptation.
Just got the free lanterns, watch peformances, then went on a burning spree!
No. we did not manage to burn ntu la. Haha.
Just paper lanterns, sticks and dried leaves.
We set up a mini-mini campfire with the help of candles placed on the side of pavement and used the burnt sticks to scribble on the ground.
Then, a funny thing happened.
Everyone was staring at this girl who was staring at us first.
Actually she was smiling.
She went near our circle then stepped back, shaking her head when we threw her puzzling looks. Initially I thought one of my frens knew her but they were equally stunned by her.
Our thoughts were the same: Is she trying to tell us not to burn things and be eco-friendly?
We froze, waiting for her to say something.
Finally, in the midst of the tension, she opened her mouth, "Are you all doing fortune-telling?"
We shook our heads and I was desperately trying to suppress my laughter.
We all cracked up soon after she was gone with her group of friends.
Did we (forming a circle around the mini-mini campfire and lighted candle) looked like we are telling fortunes?
lol. she must be a foreigner who have never seen kids burning twigs and leaves on mid-autumn festival.
Then, we went back.
They were waiting for hj from her jc outing, yb fr dance lesson, jh fr modelling shots to have their sleepover. I did not stay cuz the next day i had to teach tuition at 11am.
On the way home, I was quite surprised that bus 179 is still full of ntu students even at such a late hour.
I'm looking forward to the break! Outings, project meetings and MOST importantly, to catch on my work. esp PHYSICS. argh!
Monday, September 17, 2007
//drowning in the sea of knowledge//
This week is CA week. Horrendous week.
I could have predicted it though it's only monday.
Oh man. I was utterly demoralised after Physics today.
Not that the questions are particularly difficult.
Just that i'm too lousy.
should have revised before sch reopens.
Then i wouldn't have been lamenting about the lecturer's monstrous pace.
Then i wouldn't have lag.
This time round, it's confirm fail.
i mean, failed.
Then again, I would be surprised if i had gotten any mark at all.
30% of total burnt!
burn away my brain too.
Tomorrow: Materials Sci - hope for a pass
Friday: Life Science - completely disillusioned
This week is CA week. Horrendous week.
I could have predicted it though it's only monday.
Oh man. I was utterly demoralised after Physics today.
Not that the questions are particularly difficult.
Just that i'm too lousy.
should have revised before sch reopens.
Then i wouldn't have been lamenting about the lecturer's monstrous pace.
Then i wouldn't have lag.
This time round, it's confirm fail.
i mean, failed.
Then again, I would be surprised if i had gotten any mark at all.
30% of total burnt!
burn away my brain too.
Tomorrow: Materials Sci - hope for a pass
Friday: Life Science - completely disillusioned
Thursday, September 13, 2007
//Earthquake//
Yesterday was the first time I experience tremors.
I was leaning against the wall and eating my dinner when suddenly I felt my head spinning.
I thought I was too tired. Then, I realised actually it was the wall moving.
Haha. A lot of people went down to the grass patch below my block.
Surprisingly, the construction of the new "Minds" school near my home went uninterrupted.
I admire their professionalism!
When the wall was rocking, I never felt so vulnerable before.
Should the block tumble, all of us will perish.
No wonder my late grandfather once said that LKY is smart.
You see, even though Singapore has so much reclaimed land and has built so many flats, nothing threatening ever happen even when neighbouring countries experience earthquake.
Man, I feel so fortunate.
Yesterday was the first time I experience tremors.
I was leaning against the wall and eating my dinner when suddenly I felt my head spinning.
I thought I was too tired. Then, I realised actually it was the wall moving.
Haha. A lot of people went down to the grass patch below my block.
Surprisingly, the construction of the new "Minds" school near my home went uninterrupted.
I admire their professionalism!
When the wall was rocking, I never felt so vulnerable before.
Should the block tumble, all of us will perish.
No wonder my late grandfather once said that LKY is smart.
You see, even though Singapore has so much reclaimed land and has built so many flats, nothing threatening ever happen even when neighbouring countries experience earthquake.
Man, I feel so fortunate.
//Ratatouille- "Anyone can cook! "//
A hilarious film! Depicts an unusual relationship between human and rat. The next time I see a rat, I 'll probably be kinder.
I especially like Skinner's grumpy LOOK.
Yesterday was outing day! Went to PS and the Cathay to celebrate the two "kids" birthday =D
Surprise surprise! Bluff them to wear blue and in the end the rest of us turned up in black! A conspiracy =P
yum! gelare ice-cream cake!
xiao jun and xiao bai. the 2 birthday kids. 2 comical characters =P
everyone says cheese!
Monday, September 10, 2007
//bolted out of the house @640am//
//returned @ 855pm//
It's a LONG, BLUE monday every week
SO far, I've fulfil my resolution of NOT succumbing to sleep during lectures.
So far so good. But it looks like a lot of people are sleeping in lectures! lol
Physics is still difficult to understand, though it is better now.
What to do? with such lecturer and tutor. everyone is complaining too.
His famous quote
Not a threat, it's the reality...
Barely an hour after Dr Ko's lecture on stress management...
Me: you live in yck ar? that's quite far...why never stay in hall?
Esther: oh i dread coming to sch...don't you think so? imagine...if I live in sch, I'll have the tendency to skip all the lectures and lock myself up in the room. displaying social withdrawal symptoms... and become depressed.
Me: ok, next, you'll become sucidal.
Esther: I'll probably climb to the highest level of ntu and jump.
Me: actually the highest level in ntu is level 1. but there is a possiblity of successful attempt cuz the basement levels are actually open to the air and not underground.
Esther: At least if i get to go home everyday, there's something to look forward to.
Me: ya. when we are going home, stress levels probably are low. then, the next day. on the way to sch, our stress level just skyrocket.
FACT: Women are more prone to depression and suicidal thoughts, but men are more successful in sucidal attempts because they uses more violent methods of committing suicide.
ok that pretty much sums up what we have learnt in the lecture.
//returned @ 855pm//
It's a LONG, BLUE monday every week
SO far, I've fulfil my resolution of NOT succumbing to sleep during lectures.
So far so good. But it looks like a lot of people are sleeping in lectures! lol
Physics is still difficult to understand, though it is better now.
What to do? with such lecturer and tutor. everyone is complaining too.
His famous quote
The lecture notes are only for your visual consumption, if you only study
that, you will fail!
Not a threat, it's the reality...
Barely an hour after Dr Ko's lecture on stress management...
Me: you live in yck ar? that's quite far...why never stay in hall?
Esther: oh i dread coming to sch...don't you think so? imagine...if I live in sch, I'll have the tendency to skip all the lectures and lock myself up in the room. displaying social withdrawal symptoms... and become depressed.
Me: ok, next, you'll become sucidal.
Esther: I'll probably climb to the highest level of ntu and jump.
Me: actually the highest level in ntu is level 1. but there is a possiblity of successful attempt cuz the basement levels are actually open to the air and not underground.
Esther: At least if i get to go home everyday, there's something to look forward to.
Me: ya. when we are going home, stress levels probably are low. then, the next day. on the way to sch, our stress level just skyrocket.
FACT: Women are more prone to depression and suicidal thoughts, but men are more successful in sucidal attempts because they uses more violent methods of committing suicide.
ok that pretty much sums up what we have learnt in the lecture.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
//scorching hot //
Can't believe it. Time passed so quickly and gulp...the CAs are coming!
Busy, busy, busy.
Busy with tuition, busy with celebrating birthdays, busy with religion.
There just isn't enough time for studying!
月牙灣- FIR
当晚天空的沙砾
带着我们的记忆
我从半路看回去
这秦关漫漫好弯曲
梦想穿过了西域
包含了多少的巉峄
爱情像一本游记
我会找寻它的谜语
看月牙湾下的泪光
在丝路之上被遗忘
是谁的心哪
孤单地留下
他还好吗
我多想爱他
那永恒的泪
凝固那一句话
也许可能蒸发
是谁的爱啊
比泪水坚强
轻声呼唤
就让我融化
每一滴雨水
演化成我翅膀
向着我爱的人追吧
Can't believe it. Time passed so quickly and gulp...the CAs are coming!
Busy, busy, busy.
Busy with tuition, busy with celebrating birthdays, busy with religion.
There just isn't enough time for studying!
月牙灣- FIR
当晚天空的沙砾
带着我们的记忆
我从半路看回去
这秦关漫漫好弯曲
梦想穿过了西域
包含了多少的巉峄
爱情像一本游记
我会找寻它的谜语
看月牙湾下的泪光
在丝路之上被遗忘
是谁的心哪
孤单地留下
他还好吗
我多想爱他
那永恒的泪
凝固那一句话
也许可能蒸发
是谁的爱啊
比泪水坚强
轻声呼唤
就让我融化
每一滴雨水
演化成我翅膀
向着我爱的人追吧
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
//who are you? really...//
Be True Be Yourself
Sometimes, I wonder who am I. And why i'm not someone else. How would it feel if I'm someone else?
Perhaps all of us start from nothing at all. Then our actions determine our own paths. Or is it that everything was already arranged for us? Where we go...who we meet. Most of the time I believe that our actions determine our paths...this contradicts "be yourself". After all, who we are is determined by our values, experience and environment.
Haha. Maybe there's no point pondering on this. Since I have supposedly more important things to do.
Since school started, I think it's time to make some resolutions.
1. Try not to sleep during lectures (Stay Alert!)
2. Try to do all tutorials beforehand (Work Hard!)
3. Blog more often (Relax!)
4. Plan and manage time carefully
5. Jog more often
Monday, September 03, 2007
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