//fell flat on the face//

i hate the feeling of zoning out at the most crucial moment.
all preparations have come to naught.

it's hard to be someone you are not.
it's hard to put on a pretence.
to put on a brave front when you are timid.
is the hardest thing to do.

2010 is seriously unbearable for me.
i have been putting up with these nonsense since Jan.
bad things happening one after another.
i have had enough.

exams in 8 days' time.
can't bring myself to study.
afterall, anything i do won't pull my gpa up anymore.
so why bother?
why do i still subject myself to such stress?
just feel like quitting school altogether..