// super bad feeling //

It is a bad feeling when you are stuck in a question.
A question which had appeared in the tutorial.
A question which looked extremely familiar.
A question which you had attempted twice previously.
Except that it did not evoke the recall of the answer or steps on how to do it at the most crucial time.
None at all.
I always fell at the most crucial time.
I wonder why.

What makes it worse, is when people discuss their answers after the exam.
when you have none to talk about.
once again, I've fallen prey to the incorrigible bell curve.
everyone else please thank me for supporting all of you.
becuz i'm at the bottom.

two more to go,
i wish time pass faster so that i can get out of this.
and get temporal escape before reality sinks in.
very tempted to abandon the remaining two papers.
since hopes of pulling up the grade is already zero.
but i know, if i don't at least attempt to give what i can,
it will prick my conscience.

the most i can is to give a feeble attempt at maintaining the status quo.
which is getting harder by the year/semester.