// ambivalence //

once again, certain things made me wonder about my decision in studying engin.
although it's something that's too late to change.
coming to three years, i'm still unable to think like an engineer.

while others intuitively recorded their experience with overwhelming technical details,
never for once did i thought of doing that.

in fact, technical details and facts were simply lacking in mine.
all i did was to launch into a personal journal cum GP style essay, inputing my own opinions and ideas.
now that it was pointed out to me, i realise that it was a blatant mistake, yet one that i had made instinctively.

however, what are technical details and facts?
how should i go about writing that?
all i could think of is to summarise some research papers and textbook details.
but i would be very much reluctant to do that because those aren't my work.
why would profs want to read that when they can read the original paper.

maybe there's some other way which my non-engin brain can't think of.
like i'm supposed to write about how i applied those things learnt from other research papers into the project (practical application) i'm working on.
like how? i don't even understand my previous sentence... cuz it's just modified from one of the stated aims of internship.
someone please enlighten me.

a random note.
what would you do if your interest and ability are at odds?
would you choose to pursue your passion and give up doing something you are good at?