//regrets are useless//

a co$tly blunder.
even if others forgive me, i cannot forgive myself.

i'm nothing but a irksome troublemaker.
an ignorant greenhorn.

living in fear cuz consequences are unknown.
i really wish no one else will be implicated.
whether current staff or future students.

down and out since the beginning of the year.
just when i thought it was getting better,
things just prove me wrong.
tired.
physically and mentally.
i wonder how many more mishappenings i can endure.
before i sink into total abyss.

i need to be extremely cautious of what i do.
need to constantly remind myself to stay vigilance.
cuz other things that can cause immense regrets could very well happen.
for the rest of this year.